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Song that you think (logically or not) that are siblings

2023.06.02 07:21 Dreaming-Of-Mars Song that you think (logically or not) that are siblings

Ok so, this is a bit of a silly thought, but I wondered if there is more people that associate songs like they are siblings with or without any apparent reason. At times it's the vibes or the lyrics or the concept or the instrumental, at other times it's just how the brain decides. Here are some of mine:
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2023.06.02 06:13 KCNA_Official Song of Best Wishes

Seventy years have passed since the immortal classic "Song of Best Wishes" was created.
This song is an all-people hymn through which Chairman Kim Jong Il taught the truth with profound idea that President Kim Il Sung precisely means the country, victory and future and that his good health and wellbeing are the destiny of the country and the nation and the happiness of the people.
On June 1, Juche 42 (1953) when the Fatherland Liberation War was at its height, the Chairman wrote a letter in boundless yearning for his father who shouldered the heavy burden of the war.
In the letter he said that his father is the leader of all the Korean people and his health is the happiness of the Korean people, wishing him good health.
Having sent the letter, he composed a song whose lyrics and melody reflect the letter wishing his father good health.
One day in May 1961 when he was at Kim Il Sung University, he sang the song, playing an organ during the break, together with students who took part in the project for expanding the Wasandong-Ryongsong road.
He said to the students that he had not yet titled the song and it would be a good idea to title it "Song of Best Wishes".
The immortal classic "Song of Best Wishes" has been rapidly spread across the country, touching the heartstrings of the Korean people, and is still sung as an all-people hymn.
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2023.06.02 06:03 carlos3rcr 25[M4F]US scientist that likes trashy reality tv, running, and imessage games. let’s call?

hey!
here’s what I look like
I’m in chicago, in the middle of my phd, using the sacred few hours of sleep I got to scroll reddit while binging on the trashiest reality TV and early 00s MTV music videos… I’m known for taking wise choices :P
a few sentences about myself
I’m a very proud mexican doing his phd in theoretical biophysics in the US (somewhere in the midwest). sometimes I like to think I’m super smart… then I remember how much trashy reality tv trivia I know. tbh, since moving here I’ve been aching to meet people that aren’t related to my professional or academic sphere, and rarely got the time to do much outside the lab, so, here I am, it seems meeting people online could be good bet :O
some random trivia
here are two truths and a lie
If you're interested in talking, send me a line about yourself!
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2023.06.02 06:02 carlos3rcr 25M scientist that likes trashy reality tv, running, and imessage games. let’s call? [chat] [activities]

hey!
here’s what I look like
I’m in chicago, in the middle of my phd, using the sacred few hours of sleep I got to scroll reddit while binging on the trashiest reality TV and early 00s MTV music videos… I’m known for taking wise choices :P
a few sentences about myself
I’m a very proud mexican doing his phd in theoretical biophysics in the US (somewhere in the midwest). sometimes I like to think I’m super smart… then I remember how much trashy reality tv trivia I know. tbh, since moving here I’ve been aching to meet people that aren’t related to my professional or academic sphere, and rarely got the time to do much outside the lab, so, here I am, it seems meeting people online could be good bet :O
some random trivia
here are two truths and a lie
If you're interested in talking, send me a line about yourself!
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2023.06.02 05:47 Ex_Nihilo_01 Updated to Road to Nowhere.

I tried to put more expression in my vocals. I really want to know If I added more expression to the lyrics.
Here is the older one Road to Nowhere (Older one)

Here is the updated vocals and a few audio adjustments . Road to Nowhere (updated vocals)

Lyrics
I'm going away.
you won't see me round here anymore.
The house is locked up.
the sign upon the door.
I'm on the road to nowhere and I guess I've always been there,
Lost in the twists and turns, without a destination to declare.
I'm cold tonight.
On the street here and all alone
It's so hard to live.
without a family or a home
My footsteps wander aimlessly, without purpose or a guide,
A journey without meaning, where my dreams and hopes have died.
It's so hard to cry.
when feel so empty inside.
The truth is hard to take
everyone you know has died
On the road to nowhere, my story is yet untold,
But I'll keep a walking forward, as the mysteries unfolds.
I may be lost, I'll continue to explore,
In search of something more, on this road forevermore
I'm on the road to nowhere and I guess I've always been there,
Lost in the twists and turns, without a destination to declare.
I'm on the road to nowhere and I guess I've always been there,
Lost in the twists and turns, without a destination to declare.
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2023.06.02 04:48 Was--Ok-Homework-601 Bastion's OST "Shiny World" will be released tonight (June 2) @ 6PM

6PM on June 2nd (KST)
Source: https://n.news.naver.com/entertain/article/445/0000117071
Papago Translation:
(MHN Sports Intern Reporter Jung Seung-min) Following BTS and Hayes, BB GIRLS will sing the OST of "Bastion."
At 6 p.m. on the 2nd, the 3D action hero animation "Bastion" OST "Shiny World" (Shiny World), in which the group BB GIRLS (Min-young, Yoo-jung, Eun-ji, and Yuna) participated in the singing, will be released.
"Shiny World" is a pop genre song featuring a bouncy melody and hopeful lyrics about the beautiful Earth based on tropical sound.
When BB GIRLS was active as Brave Girls, 'Rollin' (Rollin)' released in March 2017 caused a reverse driving syndrome in 2021. It also showed its first stage with a changed team name at the 29th Dream Concert held on the 27th of last month, and announced its comeback this summer.
"Bastion" is a 3D action hero animation about a new besties who appeared in a highly competitive hero world, revealing the identity of Villain, the main culprit of environmental destruction, saving the Earth in crisis and growing into a true hero.
While the OST sound source of "Bastion," sung by BTS, Alexa, Seo J, Heize, and Kang Min-seo, continues to be popular, BB GIRLS sound source will also increase the sense of immersion in the play.
Meanwhile, "Bastion" airs every Sunday at 7:30 a.m. on SBS.
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2023.06.02 04:30 Total_Doofuss484 Major Tom (coming home)

Major Tom (coming home)
This song is unofficially about the fate of “Major Tom” , the protagonist of David Bowie’s 1969 song “Space Oddity”. The song is about him breaking off contact with ground control and travelling off into space. After listening to this,this evening, I went on YouTube and watched a video of the German version from the movie “Atomic Blonde”. The music was totally out of context but because it was in German, and the movie is set in Berlin, it works beautifully…….
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2023.06.02 04:08 Much-Function-6863 [Swedish to English] song of which I can't find the lyrics

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=qQ9Szucpx58
All I think is 'Jonnie' is a name
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2023.06.02 03:15 According-Function-5 Maddie and Chloe Pre-Dance Moms- Accurate Info

I see a lot of people throwing around information on here about the girls before the show. I just did a deep dive on multiple websites to find the exact results of Maddie and Chloe’s successes before the show.
Let me start by saying that there were multiple competitions out of the dozens that they competed where the girls were not even in the same age category.
A lot of people seriously claim that Maddie beat Chloe all the time before the show, but that’s just not true. Truthfully, Maddie won mostly for her tap solos, and whenever she had something from a different genre, Chloe usually one. They went back-and-forth a lot like that. Regardless, they were both either 1 2 or 3 which is impressive and its own right.
The biggest thing I learned? I totally see where Christi was coming from with the standing tap solo. That was the majority of Maddie’s wins. Meanwhile Chloe was getting new stuff. I learned that the slight unfair advantages actually started before the show. Even worse than I thought.
Anyway, here is the information I found on the websites:
Let’s start in 2011 and go backwards, just so we can see right up to where the show starts:
Chloe’s solo “Ma He’s Making Eyes at Me” beat “Somewhere over the rainbow” once and one of Maddie’s tap solos once at the same competition before the show started filming at JUMP in early 2011. Good day for Chloe!
Chloe also beat her again with the same solo by winning DEA nationals Miss Small Fry. Maddie got 1st in the category, and Chloe won the overall title for that division.
Again, this is right around the time of the show was starting to air.
Once the show was filming, that one competition where it looked like Maddie won first place for Cry, and it looks like Chloe lost? Chloe actually won first place in her division, the junior division, for Ma he’s making eyes at me. Once again, making her look like she’s not as good… but we all saw which girl got squeezed and hugged by her teacher afterwards. And which one was told “you were good but need to fix blah blah blah” 🙄
Before that, Chloe won National Miss Star Fry at DEA 2010, and Maddie placed first in the category but did not win the title. Chloe did.
2009: Maddie did a standing tap private all year. Melissa and Christi said this. Her tap solo beat Chloe’s ballet twice at 2 different comps (listed below) This is exactly what Christi was talking about in Season 1 Episode 4. This is proof. Chloe was not able to get into a private slot consistently because Melissa worked the front desk and put Maddie in for tap every week. Maddie became great at tap from those extra weekly privates and that’s important to acknowledge because extra practice and attention matters.
Again at DEA NYC 2009, maddies tap solo took the top awards and Chloe’s ballet got 2nd.
Dance Masters of PA- Maddie won once again with the SAME tap solo. She won the title for her division, and Chloe was runner up. Chloe’s switched to musical theater. She did not compete the same solo and instead got a new one. Another unfair advantage.
Maddie beat Chloe again with the SAME tap solo at another dance masters competition…at the next competition (another dance masters), Maddie didn’t place with her tap solo and chloe got 2nd in an age category slightly above (Division 2). So again my point, they often went back and forth with how well they placed. It’s also an ADVANTAGE that Maddie had an ongoing tap solo and Chloe’s were often changing.
Maddies same tap solo once again beat Chloe’s musical theater at Intrigue in April 2010…are you noticing yet that tap does better especially in smaller markets like PA 💀 I live here so I know. Those taps privates didn’t hurt either. Also at intrigue, Maddie completed her first jazz solo and won first place. She had 2 solos, bringing up Christi’s point again on how she always had an extra chance to be 1st place.
Here’s a switch! At the next competition Onstage NY, Maddie didn’t place (her second time doing her jazz solo, big bow wow) and Chloe got 2nd in same age category. Again, back and forth with their success rate. One week, one as well, next week the other does. Also, people need to keep in mind that every single competition judge is different. It’s not just about technique points, it’s also about the choreography and some judges might prefer musical theater over tap or tap over jazz, etc. But we can see a trend of tap being a favorite in this market at most of these competitions. Or else Abby would never have continued to have Maddie go out there and compete tap every single week.
Applause Talent- Big Bow Wow did not place yet again- notice how those tap solos usually are winning and not her other genres? When a child gets a lot of practice in a consistent genre, her chances of winning increase. Meanwhile Chloe went between ballet and musical theater with no private opportunities and no specialities.
At applause Chloe got 3rd against Bow Wow. And Maddie won again with her same tap solo- she got 2 solos, yet again, an unfair advantage considering she had the double the chance to win and her tap had tons of extra rehearsal. At flat competition, the technically each beat eachother once.
At DEA NYC Nationals- Maddie won the small fry division and Chloe won the Small Fry Overall Title. Which shows that she was consistent with her musical theater solo and won the title for it. Maddie’s Bow Wow which competed against Chloe’s musical theater, did not win the title. Her tap won the division.
Maddie won with her lyrical at Nuvo in early 2011 against Ma He’s Making Eyes at Me. At Jump a few months later, Chloe beat Maddie with Ma.
Dance Educators of America, Maddie got 3rd with tap and 1st with lyrical- but Chloe won DEA title for Ma. Another tile win.
At Fire and Ice, Chloe beat Maddie again. April 2011
DEA Nevada Nationals they were in different categories. Maddie won her title in small fry division and Chloe got 2nd overall in juniors and it was her first time competing in juniors so she was at bottom of age group.
And then at that point we get to the show…..and we all know at that point Chloe got less and less strong choreo as the show went on.
I just took the time to go through these websites. This is recorded info. So for the people who said Maddie always beat Chloe- she didnt- only for her tap solos, with which Chloe beat her a few times as well. They were always neck and neck as both moms said. 1 2 or 3. Chloe beat her a few times with a strong solo like Ma, and Maddie beat Chloe with mostly ever tap lol. And she had that tap private every week AND she often had 2 solos. The slight unfair advantages are very clear.
So for the people that try and say that Maddie was miles ahead of Chloe, she very clearly wasn’t. She was in tap, but that’s it. As an overall dancer, both girls were competing and winning or receiving second and third equal the same. They were both fantastic, and these silly comparisons are ridiculous. People are desperate for Maddie to always be seen as the best when there was many times that she wasn’t. Obsessive fans need to get o
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2023.06.02 02:56 cookiefonster Interesting fact about "It's Just a Game" (Norway 1973)

This song, which is quite a banger, broke the record for most languages in a Eurovision entry. In fact, it includes languages covering almost every country that took part in Eurovision that year, in order of prominence:
But what about Portugal? Did they simply forget about them? Articles and lyric translations do not mention Portuguese. But then I realized... the phrase "caro querido"/"cara querida" was probably meant to represent Portugal too. I looked up, and all four words are also in Portuguese, but pronounced quite differently.
I was going to write this post saying they completely forgot Portugal, but maybe they didn't forget after all. They just covered two close languages with one phrase.
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2023.06.02 02:46 hononononoh Are there any modern day academic philosophers who write in English who are not particularly impressed with David Hume, and do not consider his work highly foundational or influential to theirs?

Based on my explorations, I expect a lot of reactions to this question, posted or not, to be something along the lines of: “Um… wow. If you’d actually read Hume and thought hard about what he wrote, you’d see how silly a question this is. The guy was unfukwithable, and anyone after him who doesn’t recognize this and pay him proper respect is unworthy of being called a philosopher at all.”
From what I’ve observed, David Hume appears to be nearly universally loved, respected, and trusted by philosophers who write in English, and the vast majority of their fans and followers. Do you find this to be true as well? If so, do you ever see this changing? Why or why not?
When David Hume comes up in conversation in intellectual circles, much is made of his apparent joliness, good-hearted nature, and social palatabllity. I don’t doubt this, but I don’t understand it at all. What little I’ve explored of Hume’s ideas inspire me to be deeply cynical. It’s not lost on me that he was born into wealth, and never married or raised children. Not that this has any bearing on the truth or wisdom of what he wrote, but I don’t find his ideas on society or spirituality very appealing to anyone who has struggled with oppression or depression, or is deeply invested in the upbringing and wellbeing of another generation of people. And as a result, his lionization in English-speaking philosophical circles makes me hesitant to recommend philosophy or philosophical social circles to anyone who isn’t rather cold and detached.
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2023.06.02 02:29 Faziri 29 [M4F] Belgium 4 EU/east-US — [LDR] [Discord] wanna be my sweetie/babe?

Hey, I'm Marnes, 29M from Antwerp. :) And I'm posting this really late...
I hope to meet a girl here, 24-30-ish, located in the EU or eastern USA, to enjoy an LDR with. I mean all-day contact on discord in between the stuff we do or in dedicated free time, chatting and sending pictures, playing games together if it's in our stars, enjoying each other's affection through the attention and emotes, and having some adult fun with each other (I love RP chat of a particular fantasy).

Practical

What's important to me, values we should share for this to work:
I'm comfortable sending pictures quite early on, I understand if you're not, but I believe in ripping the bandaid off sooner than later. Let's try not to stay strangers but to get it going as quickly as we're comfortable with. Maybe I'm weird this way, but I just settle into it before long and then everything feels right, even if at first it maybe feels uncanny. Guess I'm just fast-paced?
TLDR: let's be responsible, committed, and cooperative to get the most out of being with each other :)

About me

--
Looking forward to hearing from you in chat or PM <3 Tell me how this post speaks to you, a little about yourself, if you want to approach this a certain way. Let's go to discord asap because reddit chat/messages UX isn't great. I always see other people saying chat is bugged, so if you don't even get a courtesy reply from me, try a PM. :)
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2023.06.02 01:53 VagrantSea Edelgard Analysis month 1: Does Edelgard have PSTD?

Edelgard Analysis month 1: Does Edelgard have PSTD?
Preface / My reason behind doing this for 22 day:
  • 1st reason is because I want to challenge myself on analysing a game narrative as a game design student.
  • 2nd is that I want to improve people thought on both Edelgard as well as both of her routes as i feel like there is a lot of intentional misinformation out on her character as well her routes. ( I say Intentional since it was done by both the community, youtubers and TreeHouse. Which is sad because Edelgard and her routes, I feel has the best writing out of “Modern Fire Emblem” despite suffering from the flaws it received from the larger flaws within 3House and Hopes writing. ( Which is a larger topic that one day I might make a big post about. ) As on their own. These routes really don’t have many flaws and the flaws they do have can be forgiven I feel.
  • I can’t write fic or draw for shit.
Notes: Originally, the first post was about Edelgard ideology and how it fitted into Humanism, but kept having brain farts. So I am skipping it for time being, I am using and continuing a analysis I wrote around 8 month more a go before losing interest. So there will be a few conflicting things here. And I guess change in writing. There will also be a lot of spelling and sentence mistakes because I am dyslexic as hell.
Now before I go into the nitty gritty of the post I will mention to 2 things. First is that I will probably come across as condescending as I will be talking about what is PTSD very thoroughly and explaining certain things like ‘Umbrella term’ in certain manner in the helps that it would better understand the subject matter for people.
The second thing’s is that I only have the basic understanding of PTSD and it subject manner because I only learn about PTSD and mental health issues when I was learning about the different counselling theory like behaviourism, psychodynamic and humanism therapy during my level 2 Youth Work course. It has been over 4 years since I was on that course and have I changed field of what I what to do with my life.
Due to this, I will most certainly make mistakes here and I am not that well educated on the subject matter. Compared to let say the person who I get popularised the theory
What is Trauma
In order to understand Post-traumatic stress disorder otherwise known as PTSD. We need to first understand what is “trauma”.
Trauma is an emotional response that happen immediately after or later in life after a negative event that either happens unexpectedly or over the cause of a few or a multitude of days. This negative event can be many many things.
This 4 minutes long video by Nation Health Service ( NHS for short. ) Scotland explains trauma within a person childhood, how it effect adulthood and some additionally information’s on the subject matter. But while the video is focusing more on the children side of the subject. It doesn’t mean that these thing doesn’t effect adult with their lives.
Adverse Childhood Experiences - NHS Health Scotland - YouTube
For those who don’t want to watch the video. Here’s a mind map I made. Yes I am putting that much effort into this post:

https://preview.redd.it/wwyzxi1gth3b1.png?width=1600&format=png&auto=webp&s=7e4b0c0853ca5fcc57f343f680bf65373f7f3183
These are only the event that can cause Trauma that I can think of when writing this.
However, a key thing to understand about traumatic events is that people responds differently to the events that happens to them and that one traumatic event for one person might not be one for another.. Some are able to brush it off when it happens to them while other are unable to.
Using Dorothea and Ashe as an example here. They both suffer from being Homeless and was pick up by some sort of guardian figure. For Dorothea it was Manuela and the Opera company, while for Ashe, it was Lonato.
What separates them is that Ashe “overcame” his trauma and his mental health both due to his sibling, Lonato and Christoph being a loving adopted family and the environment that he was then surrounded in. Whilst with Dorothea, whilst Manuela was a loving guardian. She was brought into a environment that has a lot domestic violence, sexual abuse and much more which caused more mental health issues for Dorothea.
Understanding Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
PSTD within the UK is classified as an Anxiety and Psychiatric Disorder but in countries it is most likely classified differently but the main thing is that can be cause by the traumatic event’s I mention early.It could appear after the traumatic event happened or later down the lines after a couple of month to a year.
For explaining PSTD here, I will be using a lot of source since I probably won’t be able to explain it properly and make sure people have a good understanding of it which is the main I want to do.
To use a quote from PTSD UK which is charity: PTSD Explained – PTSD UK
“It’s estimated that 50% of people will experience a trauma at some point in their life. The defining characteristic of a traumatic event is its capacity to provoke fear, helplessness, or horror in response to the threat of injury or death and therefore can affect anyone. Examples of traumatic events include assault, road traffic incident, natural disasters, domestic and child abuse, war, acts of terrorism and traumatic childbirth. (you can read more about the causes of PTSD here)
The majority of people exposed to traumatic events experience some short-term distress, but eventually, their trauma fades to a memory – painful, but not destructive. However, around 20% of people who experience a trauma go on to develop Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). In the UK, that’s around 6,665,000 people, yet it is still an incredibly misunderstood, often misdiagnosed and stigmatized condition.
PTSD typically causes four different groups of symptoms:
reliving the traumatic event perhaps in the form of flashback, nightmares or intrusive memories (also called re-experiencing or intrusion);
avoiding situations that are reminders of the event;
negative changes in beliefs and feelings;
and feeling hypervigilant and fearful to people and the world around you (also called hyperarousal). “
To go into further details on the symptoms of PTSD: Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) - Illnesses & conditions NHS inform
Re-experiencing
Re-experiencing is the most typical symptom of PTSD.
This is when a person involuntarily and vividly relives the traumatic event in the form of:
flashbacks
nightmares
repetitive and distressing images or sensations
physical sensations, such as pain, sweating, feeling sick or trembling
Some people have constant negative thoughts about their experience, repeatedly asking themselves questions that prevent them coming to terms with the event.
For example, they may wonder why the event happened to them and if they could have done anything to stop it, which can lead to feelings of guilt or shame.
Avoidance and emotional numbing
Trying to avoid being reminded of the traumatic event is another key symptom of PTSD.
This usually means avoiding certain people or places that remind you of the trauma, or avoiding talking to anyone about your experience.
Many people with PTSD try to push memories of the event out of their mind, often distracting themselves with work or hobbies.
Some people attempt to deal with their feelings by trying not to feel anything at all. This is known as emotional numbing.
This can lead to the person becoming isolated and withdrawn, and they may also give up pursuing activities they used to enjoy.
Hyperarousal (feeling "on edge")
Someone with PTSD may be very anxious and find it difficult to relax. They may be constantly aware of threats and easily startled.
This state of mind is known as hyperarousal.
Hyperarousal often leads to:
irritability
angry outbursts
sleeping problems (insomnia)
difficulty concentrating
Other problems
Many people with PTSD also have a number of other problems, including:
other mental health problems, such as depression, anxiety or phobias
self-harming or destructive behaviour, such as drug misuse or alcohol misuse
other physical symptoms, such as headaches, dizziness, chest pains and stomach aches
PTSD sometimes leads to work-related problems and the breakdown of relationships.”
This short video below goes into what is PTSD. ( It explains it better then what I ever could.):
The psychology of post-traumatic stress disorder - Joelle Rabow Maletis - YouTube
The main 2 thing I want to mention from this video is:
The first is what separate people from having PTSD to not having it is when the symptoms of what the source I mention earlier are consistent, where these flashbacks and nightmare keep happening after a month from traumatic incident or when you start having these symptoms suddenly one day after 5 month from the Traumatic event and where the symptoms start to bleed into everyday life and have an effect similar to addiction and other mental health issues.
And the thing is that you don’t have to show all the symptoms to have PTSD. It similar to every other mental health but also disability where you could show just a few of those symptoms but they are enough to prove that you may have it.
The second is about how things that relate to the original trauma can cause a person to re experience and relive the trauma.
The difference between PTSD and C-PTSD
The last thing I want to mention is that there are multiple version of PTSD, this is something that people who aren’t as knowledgeable on mental health as a whole. Both of these come under the parent category or rather umbrella term / category of ‘Disorders specifically associated with stress’. ( This is a recent change from the World Health Organisation’s.)
To simplify Umbrella terms, think of it as something similar to genres where within video games, you have your shooters genre and within that genre you have your first-person shooters, third-person shooters, arcade shooters and much more. That is what Umbrella terms is and is used a lot in the social working field as a whole.
And while doing my research I have found about ‘normal stress response, comorbid PTSD, acute stress disorder and uncomplicated PTSD’ which fit under this umbrella category. I will only be talking about the two in the title.
The main difference between Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Complex-Post Traumatic Stress Disorder is the duration of the traumatic event.
To quote a video by “Psycho2Go” which goes into detail about C-PTSD:C-PTSD...What is it? - YouTube
“PTSD is typically triggered by a specific or a series of events in a short period of time. While C-PTSD is caused by a series of traumatic events over a long period of time.”
In other word’s, PTSD is caused by a singular traumatic event like car accidents or being raped whilst C-PTSD is caused by multiple, long-lasting, repeated or continuos traumas or traumatic events like domestic abuses, bullying and Repeated exposure to disaster, accidents, deaths or violent acts (including emergency service workers)
C-PTSD whilst share the same symptoms as one I mention above is much more severe then normal PTSD becomes of the continuos traumatic events which causes trust issues and if not treated can lead to all sorts of other issues like addictions, depression, anxiety and self-destructive behaviour to name a few and require much more professional help.
However, mental health issues as a whole is like a spectrum and ultimately symptoms and traumatic event are not binary. You can go through one single traumatic event and get C-PTSD while another person could through multiple and receive as bad PTSD or none at all. Traumatic event effect everyone differently and it also the fact that everyday life can effect this spectrum. Some day people with it are ok, other day it’t really bad.
To quote the same video again:
“C-PTSD is an issue involving safety, for examples those who grew up in abusive household may lack a feeling of safety. This constant fear, a physical, emotional or psychological harm in childhood can cause problems later in life.”
( This quote makes me want to want something about Dorothea trauma.)
In general trying to explain mental health condition as a whole is bloody hard to do.
Hopefully, I successfully explain what is PTSD that a lot of you understands it better thought honestly I think I probably made a good few mistakes here and there. Now let get onto explain about whether or not Edelgard has PTSD.
Edelgard Traumatic Events
Now ignoring the war aspect of the game since this Fire Emblem Game but also to borrow a quote from a another reddit user on a separate post where they were reply to another comment to give a reason why we are ignoring it. ( Not mentioning their usernames here because I don’t want them to get harassed. )
“I agree with all you said, especially the part "we don't live in Fodlan and they don't live in our world. If tomorrow you get attack by a group of bandits, you will probably get scared for life". Some scientific articles speak about that even in our modern world. The culture amd context of our country (people living in a country plunged by war are less at risk developing a ptsd from hearing/seeing a shooting than a dude living in the US/EU.). other factors include age (a little one doesn't have resources an adult has), duration, type of trauma (you can have some subtile differences, for example if the trauma is caused by someone you know or not, are you the author or victim of the abuse etc.), personality and past of someone (risk factors, how one manages stress) etc. Psychotraumatology is a new field and even today we haven't unbuncked precisely why one develops ptsd and the other no in reaction to a same event.”
Edelgard has quite a few traumatic event.

Traumatic event 1: The Insurrection of the Seven

Edelgard first traumatic event is in fact the Insurrection of Seven ( IoS for short. ), being separated from majority of her family and being forced to go into hiding with Faerghus.
We know that before the IoS, Edelgard has a good childhood with her being surrounded by her loving and caring family that is her siblings, Father, real Uncle and her retainer / best friend Hubert.
From a Youth Worker PoV, I could mention about her not having two parents or two Guardians and the effects it can cause with all that stuff since Anselma was exiled from the Empire when Edelgard was a baby. But the real Arundel took up and became what is Edelgard second Parent / Guardian who was very caring and dotted on her which makes up for Edelgard not having 2 parents. ( And in reality, a lot of people nowaday has grown up with only one parent, so this point is utterly point less. )
It’s also implied in AM and details within both games as well as Jp version that Edelgard around this time was religious personas well, most likely getting this from the real Arundel as he was a deeply pious person. Note: It’s could implied that Hubert is also religious due to him carrying a Goddess Talisman around.
However, Edelgard going into hiding was very sudden, in fact thanks to her support with Manuela that we know that Edelgard went to see a performance by Manuela with Her Uncle before leaving the Empire to go into hiding in Faerghus.
This would have caused a lot of stress for a child Edelgard, going from a loving family setting into a very unknown location, forced into hiding with no other point of contact other then her uncle would have been traumatic for Edelgard.
Even though she gain a new friend within Dimitri that unknown to him would have help her through it just by being friend. Since people underestimate how much being friends with someone can do for someone during struggling times. Over course of 1 to 3 years.
I say 1-3 I remember the game not being consistent with this detail of how long they knew each other for which is partly on Treehouse mistranslation, CF for not really caring Edelgard and Dimitri previous which isn’t a negative as route and Edelgard character chooses to focus on the present and future while AM is AM. ( If this sound like I do not like AM, you are correct.)
The event would have introduced a sense of fear when comes change and safety as she basically went into a big unknown. An unknown that is Faerghus. Which considering the lore, is bad. Like Faerghus would and should have a 0 out of ten on Trivago for a reason. Faerghus is inspired by the UK for a reason I know this as Brit.

Traumatic event 2: The Return to the Empire, The New “Uncle Arundel” and the Experiment.

Joking / not joking aside ( Like serious, Faerghus is bad. ) we known that this isn’t the last traumatic event as Edelgard sudden return to the Empire would have reintroduced this traumatic feeling into her. Especially, after she found a norm within the Kingdom even if it isn’t the same one as the her original norm within the Empire. This feel would have become worst with the sudden change in her “uncle”, going from a kind and loving person to a very blunt and cold person. ( Or rather Thalas body snatching Arundel )
This possible trauma did become a genuine thing if it hasn’t before as we know Edelgard has nightmare of the following event’s returning to the Empire, seeing her father powerless, seeing his eyes looking her in care. ( Care part was removed in Translation.) and seeing his clenched fists dripping with blood. Whilst details he betray from her Uncle is something we can definitely imply.
This event becomes worst as she forced into the deepest part of Enbarr castle, it lowest dungeon, far from the light above for the experiment TWSITD, her new uncles and some of the Empire nobles.
A subtle detail I just notice and another detail often missed is that there are multiple dungeons within Embarr. As within Edelgard support with Ferdinand in 3Hopes, she states that the dungeon of Ferdinand imagine of what the place his father would be like is a reality and is further down from where his father is staying.

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With Edelgard then saying before hand that she only been down there once, imply that other then her long placement down there during the experiment. She never return to the place of her sibling death. ( As Game Design Student and Media, I love camera shot above. )
While the detail that people missed mainly because it was removed in the English version was the implication that some of the Empire Nobles did know about the Experiments like Aegir and supposedly Varley but did nothing about. Note: Why would they as Ionius was trying to slowly strip their power with his reform. ( Yet again Treehouse removed the detail Ionius changing the Empire through reformation. It is one of the prime lore example of why change through diplomacy or reform won’t work. ) ( A nice detail also is that Edelgard choose not to put Ludwig Aegir in same dungeon, he put her and her siblings. Instead a better cells, something which Ferdinand appreciate Edelgard for doing. )
Getting back on topic, we know for a fact that the Experiment is a deeply traumatic event as we know that Edelgard struggles to get to sleep at night due to the nightmare and insomnia it cause her, seeing her sibling and father suffer.
She also reliving the event both at Remire village, her 3 Hopes paralogue, Hyrm in SB and the return of TWSITD in 3 Hopes. It’s an event that plagues her mind at times and is something she tries to lie to Byleth to a degree due to the nature of it all. ( She lies about it being a plague to them, which isn’t a bad thing since if Edelgard was to tell them without fully trusting them, them blabbing about it would put both Byleth at risk but also Edelgard. )
The Experiment very much gave Edelgard a deeply traumatic experiment on it own to the point that it enough evidence to say she has got C-PTSD from this alone. But we not finished there as still got two more traumatic event.

Traumatic event 3: Lost in Faith.

Now there was a reason behind me mention Edelgard being previous religiously, possibly to the degree of being a devout follow and that because Edelgard went through a lose of faith during the experiment.
I think this quote from CaptainFlash just sums it better then what I ever could:Edelgard and faith : fireemblem (reddit.com)
If you look at Edelgard's conversation with Dimitri in Azure Moon, a heartbreaking fact emerges-Edelgard was once a devout believer. She says to Dimitri- "Even if one clings to their faith, the goddess will never answer them. Countless souls will be lost that way. Living without purpose. And I can be counted among those who have died that way as well." The implication here is devastating- Edelgard was a formerly religious child, "clinging to their faith", pleading to the goddess to make her torture stop, and was instead left broken and ignored (of course, she had no way of knowing about Sothis' true situation). This makes sense given what we know about the greater social context of Fodlan-individuals who have a Crest often are presumed to have a special relationship with those who originated their Crests. This would be particularly true for a young girl bearing the Crest of Seiros, the first and most famous disciple of Sothis, particularly given the close historical ties between Seiros and the Adrestian Emperors. However, young Edelgard's petitions to the gods remained unanswered-her siblings died horrifically in front of her eyes, and she herself was tortured both psychologically and physically for years. Edelgard's entire worldview was shattered.
I want to make a brief aside here, to state that, as you can probably guess from some of my other posts, I empathize greatly with Edelgard and her worldview. There is nothing-not her death scenes, not turning into a monster in Azure Moon, not confirming her fatalistic world view by rejecting her in the tomb, which is more painful and true to life to me than those lines she says to Dimitri. There's a term with C-PTSD called "loss of systems of meaning" where the individual experiences a disconnect with their pre-trauma self and are unable to rely on things that previously defined his or her identity-that's what happened to Edelgard. It's why she says things like "the Edelgard who cries died years ago."
One of the major teachings of the Church of Seiros is that the goddess "cares for and protects all that is beautiful in this world" (You can find this listed among the major commandments of the faith in the library). One can certainly see the devastating impact this had on Marianne (who speaks of Edelgard in reverent tones in CF), but it also had a deep impact on Edelgard and how she views herself. Since Edelgard wasn't cared for and protected, she must not be "beautiful." If you want an idea of how Edelgard views herself internally, one need only look at Hegemon Edelgard in Azure Moon, a (symbolic) physical manifestation of Edelgard's dehumanization and utter self-loathing. This sense of abandonment, broken faith, and the persistent belief that she unable to be loved drives everything that Edelgard does. Due to this internalized sense of abandonment, Edelgard lacks self-worth as a human being-it's why she continues to question Byleth following her even in Crimson Flower, and why she says she "never thought" anyone would follow her.
I think what makes this situation worst is both the crest Edelgard received and the situation she is in. In that during the experiment, seeing her siblings slowly going insane before dying whilst her prays goes ignored. Being surrounded by Rat and never seeing the light again.
Until one day, she find a different crest that appears that isn’t Crest of Seiros. A built up Crest of Flame, that Nemesis, a corrupted Hero, a figure within the religious that hailed him as a Villain for being delighted in bloodshed, now appears. This would have shattered her belief since it would possible proof that the Goddess might not be real and that Crest aren’t gift at all.

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This whole break in faith becomes worst when you consider the Emperor, knowledge or rather text pass down through Emperor stating the truth about the war. That Nemesis wasn’t this figure of villainy the Church built up was just bandit. That the war between the Empire and Church / Nabataen vs Nemesis King of Liberation / Northern Fodlan and TWSITD ( a faction removed from history. ) wasn’t a holy war but instead dispute, a war over who would be in power. Before learning about the existence of Nabataen’s.

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Here the teaspoon translation of the dialogue.
Edelgard faith in the Goddess and in the Church as it stands is something that basically got repeatedly stamp and made her look like a fool. As she learn 70-80% of the Truth about the war of Heroes.
The only part she is missing is the original spat war between TWSITD and Nabatean and how side has suffered such as the genocide on both races but which point does it stop mattering, ( Genocide is bad and there nothing excusing it but it clear within the narrative that both Argarthan or Nabataen are as bad as each other. )
The continue war and manipulation between two faction has gone on for over 1000 years to Edelgard with both side showing they are more then content willing to use those around them. Rhea and Seteth willing to censor information and abuse their position and the Church monopoly in order to keep their ivory tower and to keep their version of “peace.” ( As CF, WC, SB and the introduction of 3 Hopes shows. )
Whilst TWSITD are TWSITD, it clear the spat battle will continue until either sides are completely gone. Just like the Edelgard debates ffs.
But getting back on topic, the shattering of Edelgard faith would have caused a both trauma for her as well as a changes in ideology when it comes to the faith. In that her views has becomes negative.
I am just going to post a good chunk of her support with Manuela from Teaspoon Translation but I want people to remember something and that is at times. Edelgard speaks about subtle about speaking herself as well as her previous self. In most cases, she is quite negative.

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Edelgard belief in the current Church of Seiros is negative, seeing the corruption within it and understanding that the only way to fix the issues is to start again.

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Something that she sorta does in 3 Hopes to an extent by reforming the Southern Church. (Varley is only in the position he is in is because Edelgard and Hubert needed to find a way to keep him busy and to use him as a Assassination pawn for the Church to try and kill as in 3 House, he under house arrest imply which implies a lot of things. All of them negative )
Edelgard faith in the goddess is gone. Now onto the last traumatic.

Traumatic event 4: TWSITD continual existence.

This one is the most easier to explain as they are Edelgard abuser, their return in SB causes Edelgard trauma to return and for her to relive the events. Something that is really understated by I feel the community is how well written SB is and how good Edelgard support Bernadetta is as it delivers into the both character trauma.
Edelgard partly see the trauma, the nightmares and fears she received from TWSITD and their experiment as a curse, believing that because she beat TWSITD and that they are gone for a while, that her curse has been lifted, the same way Bernadetta trauma / curse has been lifted due to Varley situation at the Monastery, fearing assassination attempt, Bernie being away from him as well as surrounding herself with her friends.
Until the ticking bomb within SB narrative explodes and TWSITD causing Edelgard trauma / curse to resurface. Something that Edelgard tries to hide from her friends around her, only for Bernadetta to see through Edelgard, seeing the trauma / curse eat away at her, relating to Edelgard and her issues. Understanding the negative emotion Edelgard is feeling, the Hyperarousal we talked about earlier you may say.
Hyperarousal (feeling "on edge")
Someone with PTSD may be very anxious and find it difficult to relax. They may be constantly aware of threats and easily startled.
This is one of Fire Emblem best support and this is totally not my next post.
But yeah, because of th situation Edelgard find herself in. Her trauma continues.

Does Edelgard have PTSD?

Short answer, yes she does in fact C-PTSD. She suffers from a lot of the symptoms.
Long Answer, still yes. Edelgard as through both games, it clears she suffers from a lot of the symptoms like:
  • Re-experiencing
    • Nightmares
    • Flashbacks
    • physical sensations, such as pain, sweating, feeling sick or trembling
  • Avoidance and emotional numbing
    • A key part of Edelgard relationship with Bernadetta and especially Byleth is the idea of numbing one feels. Edelgard in WC actively tries to numb her feeling in attempt to not become overly emotion. One of her dislike is losing control of Emotion.( Treehouse got rid of the Emotion parts. ) As well as distancing herself from other due to said trauma and because of Hubert fearing for her safety because own trauma
  • Her whole B support with Byleth is about Edelgard losing her emotion, losing the human part of herself. That is point behind Heart of Ice line, the JP version implied this but it was sorta lost in translation because Treehouse but also by the community. It why when understand the themes of the route that her scene of painting Byleth, a friend of her becomes much more impactful as she is allowing herself to do an activities that isn’t work related as is a hobby. ( 3hopes makes it clear Edelgard doesn’t relax or takes break enough. )
  • Hyperarousal (feeling "on edge")
    • irritability
    • angry outbursts
    • sleeping problems (insomnia)
  • Other problems
    • Phobias like with Rat but most notably her thalassophobia, which fear of bodies of water. Which is mostly likely caused by her Trauma, Ironically at the hands of Thalas.
    • Destructive behaviour. ( Hegemon, her lack of self-worth, etc. )
    • PTSD sometimes leads to work-related problems and the breakdown of relationships.
  • Edelgard also suffers from memory lost because of the traumatic
It clear Edelgard suffer from a lot of symptoms and it best to say that her trauma is C-PTSD because it very much was continues. She went from traumatic event to another, whilst we never fully got her feeling on the stay at the Kingdom since we can’t really use Dimitri as he is unreliable narrator because of his own trauma caused by both Faerghus system and the assassination attempt. It clear Edelgard feeling on the stay was mixed but it had one good thing in it being her time with Dimitri.
But otherwise, Edelgard went from one traumatic event that basically beat her down, ripping apart both the people she loved and what she believed. The darkness kept getting darker for her until she was the only one left.

Conclusion

For the conclusion I want to talk about two things. First is how I guess how much more grounded her portray of PTSD is and I guess how inspiring it. But also I guess the issues people have with neither game focussed on Edelgard past.
Ok first thing first, Edelgard portray is probably one of more ground of PTSD. It not hypermedialised ( I not sure if that the right terminology.) like Dimitri PTSD where it very much a toxic and bad portrayal of it similar to guess the Good Doctor and most other shows that has a Autistic character in my opinion.( Very much a problem that with Dimitri and AM writing. ) There a lot more people who suffer from issues or I disabilities that hide it that you wouldn’t know until getting to know the person.
Edelgard C-PTSD is very much more subtle and less in your face even after you know about Edelgard issues as it put within her dialogue in a smart way. before you get to her C- support, you would never guess this girl who poses like this whilst wearing bright red tights:

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Would be suffering from trauma, no, you think she a prideful upper class nobles due to her clothing, Possibly to an egotistical degree. But the design and her writing work because it tears down all perceived idea you have on her character trauma. Edelgard mask and hide her trauma like most other people do. She cares about people not because it her job but because she actually gives shit about people and their lives and wants the best for them.
And Edelgard view on her trauma which I will expanded on my next post is sorta inspiring because her thoughts ultimately goes. “My family are dead and I was experiment as well as countless others who were made victim by Fodlan issues. That is in the past, people are still suffering today and I refuse to allow more people to become victim and I am going to fight for both here and in the future so then they can makes a word based on their own agency, free from parties that made people in victim.”
It inspiring because it a refusal to allow oneself to lose themselves in issues they are having. To continue fighting for a brighter future. Something that is actually constant theme and motif within Fire Emblem series and its a theme that CF and SB holds the most relevance to out of the routes in both games. And I feel like it hits most well here compared to previous FE games because of how much more personal and grounded the game tries to be.
Secondly, I don’t think it a issues that neither CF or SB touches on Edelgard past either with showcasing her sibling and her relationship or seeing Ionius and Anselma true love for each other. ( Since it implied Anselma didn’t love Lambert and all that inconsistent stuff with AM, Hapi support and AG does with Anselma. )
Does it suck that we don’t get scene of Edelgard and her past. Yes, I do want to know more about her sibling and of the empire and it politics. But that a sign of a well written character, lore and story. The feeling of wanting more from it. CF and SB are very much stories that understand it what it going and cuts out all the extra fat that Fire Emblem normally has that ultimately takes away from the story.
Both stories are about Edelgard, her war and focusing on the issues her and now and trying to improve things for the future. Going against opponents that either refuse to change or hold net negative belief or holds differ belief. Her going back onto the past while interesting, would hinder the tight pacing in both those routes when it comes to the media of video games. ( Focusing on the past is Dimitri things,even if it done badly in my opinion. )
Now if let say 3 House and Hopes get a anime, light novel or manga adaptation, then you can proper pacing the story much more because it being a passive form of media. As well as chose when you want to explore Edelgard and her past, making her the central character for let say the Episode, book chapter.
Something that you could also do with other character like let say Claude and going into his childhood and his toxic relationship with his sibling. Or Dorothea and her trying to survive on the street. Or Valery abuse of Bernadetta. You can better explore this character and who they are in these media better then in video games.
Crimson Flower and Scarlett Blaze in my opinion are the only routes that I feel would only be a net positive and wouldn’t have negative that would appear within their narrative unlike other routers. But I’m going to stop here as I basically shat on other routes and Dimitri for this segment.
I hope people had a nice read and I hope everyone has a nice day. ALSO HOW DO YOUR CROSS POST.
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2023.06.02 01:40 bjornbard $700 increase - removed good driver discount

I spent an hour on the phone with different people at Geico trying to solve this.
I moved to the States 3.5 years ago from Ukraine and while originally going through underwriting - truthfully said that I haven't had any at-fault accidents in the past. My total driving experience is 14 years.
This time of year, I received a note from Geico that they will increase my premiums by $700. I started looking through the quote and noticed that good driver and "subclass" discounts were no longer applied.
One phone call in, they told me they could not understand my foreign license (while it had both Ukrainian and English), and asked for a translation. Now they are telling me they need my driving abstract from foreign country that Ukraine cannot issue - they do not track/provide this kind of information.
Now I'm being told that I still need to provide this document although it doesn't exist - no exceptions. My colleagues that moved together with me when asked - only provided their foreign driver's license and that's it.
What's going on? How do I escalate this?
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2023.06.02 01:33 KryNight2908 Don’t forget is about the roaring

Let me go over the lyrics to show you what I mean:
“When the light is running low And the shadows start to grow”
In other words: “when the light is subsumed by shadow..”, or when there is an imbalance of light and dark
“And the places that you know; seem like fantasy”
Dark worlds make reality seem like fantasy, like a game, like a dream
“There’s a light inside your soul, that’s still shining in the cold”
Even in the dark abyss of the roaring, you will still be alive; the light inside you will still shine
“With the truth, the promise in our hearts”
Could either be poetic jibberjabber or some kind of promise/vow the three heroes of the prophecy take later in the game
“Don’t forget, I’m with you in the dark”
The speaker wants to remind you that they are still there, possibly meaning that the singer cannot physically be there, giving more credit to the singer being a darkner, potentially ralsei
But anyways, that’s just my two cents, and I’d like to hear your opinion
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2023.06.02 01:31 kylexyz001 23 [M4F] [Relationship] Ohio/Worldwide- Let's Be Each Other's Everything (Longest post ever?)

Brace yourselves, this is gonna be a long one.
Table of Contents
1…… The Main Goal
2…… What I’m Seeking
3…… Personality
4…… Interests
5…… Physical Characteristics (with pics)
6…… Expectations of You
7…… Living Situation
8…… Deal Breakers
9…… Closing Remarks
(1)
The Main Goal:
Well if you’re browsing this subreddit then much like me, you were alone this weekend and I’m sure you’d like to change that as much as me. I won’t lie, I am going through a rough part of my life right now. It’s difficult for me to find the energy for anything at the moment and I’m just really seeking affection in general, anything that will give me a push. I don’t want to be that person who brings everyone down but I could really use someone to talk to right now. I’d really like to find someone who’s similar to me so much to the point that we do everything together and talk about everything while not having to pretend to be interested. I want someone with whom we can mutually spew our emotions onto and have those feelings reciprocated. Not an emotional punching bag, but an emotional teddy bear to hug and cuddle until everything feels better as many times as we need. There’s people who I’m sure have told you the same, they’ll be there no matter how many times you need the support, no matter how many times the insecurities and bad thoughts come back but they don’t mean it. I will be the exception, I’m not so ignorant to think some nice words and tales of relating to you will magically forever heal whatever ails you then get mad when you seek the same support again. Mental ailments are rarely temporary and I don’t care about someone because they’re perfect, caring about someone means being there no matter how many times they need you to be. It doesn’t feel like a chore, it doesn’t get old, and it never will.
(2)
(2.a)
What I'm Seeking:
I will upfront let you know if I’m clicking better with someone else or if you’re the one, I’m not here to tread the sea of fish or keep my options open, I’m here for one singular person.
(2.b)
Relationship:
A relationship is difficult for me right now, it’s been nearly half a year since I got out of my last relationship and the reasons for it ending are partially responsible for how I’ve been feeling and why it’s so hard for me to seek the comfort I so desperately crave. I will tell you about it but for the sake of not treating the entirety of the internet as my therapist, it’ll be in private. I really need the comfort of intimacy and the warmth of someone who cares. I'm not going to feel better if I just sulk and don’t move on. This is my attempt to get better, I’ll admit I’m not great right now and I don’t expect you to be either. If we can help each other heal, then I’d be more than happy :) A relationship isn’t just being there for when someone’s at their best. Even if a relationship is hard at the moment, I do want a life partner and I don’t want to be alone. Things aren’t going to get easier without you so I don’t want to hesitate. I view my other as an equal, I don’t like categorizing us into specific roles. We take care of each other and treat each other how we like to be treated, whatever that is, it's as simple as that. I don't care if you're "successful" or not, living simple lives with our days filled with love is the ultimate measure of success to me.
(3)
Personality:
(3.a)
On the Surface:
As you can tell I can be rather… stoic but that’s largely due to my current stressors, I truthfully am goofy and fun loving but I just can’t find it in me right now. I want to return to that but without someone to light up my world it’s been difficult to just have fun and enjoy stuff. I’m definitely more introverted, you won’t catch me at any parties or really outside at all. I definitely prefer being home though the occasional outing is not out of the question and one day I’d like to travel to other countries because I think that kind of perspective is important.
(3.b)
The Core of My Being:
I like being a spectator to it all and if we bear witness to humanity burning or its miraculous recovery, I want to watch it with you. I enjoy watching humanity advance, less so when it devolves but I want to watch it to the end nonetheless. I’m both a realist and someone who lives with my head in the clouds dreaming of scenarios or worlds that don’t exist. I’m saying that I enjoy a good narrative and can suspend my disbelief to enjoy something but you won’t catch me refusing vaccines or ignoring blatant facts for the sake of some pseudo science or witch doctor’s remedy. I’m an atheist but I do not rule out existence after death, not because I’m agnostic but because due to the nature of potentially infinite time at some point after how many googol years with a googol amount of 0s after that, something’s bound to replicate your consciousness perfectly at some point. It’s actually a really fascinating topic I like talking about. If infinite time and infinite possibilities exist, does non existence exist? Though that’s an awfully existentially dreadful thought process considering the ramifications of infinite existence and infinite possibilities during said infinite existence. I would say I’m confidently left leaning and I don’t think I could truly get along with anyone right leaning, at least America’s definition of right leaning. Left and right seems to have just become; do people deserve to suffer or do they deserve to live good lives? Being political is not something I expected to become but how can you not be when crimes against human rights are being passed on a daily basis and at the end of the day, everything’s political. Oftentimes I imagine the perfect moment as relaxing with my significant other playing games or cuddling in a cold room under blankets.
I value that special someone above all of the existential thoughts, the bad of the world, the good of the world, they practically become my world. So many worries wash away when I’m with them. I don’t know if that’s the defense mechanism my brain created to not feel bad 24/7 but if it is, I’m currently without it.
(3.c)
Insecurities:
I talk of philosophy and politics here but really I spend most of my time just playing games, watching stuff, and trying to not be sleep deprived. I’m also nowhere near as well spoken, heck sometimes I feel like my speech is broken. I won’t claim to be something I’m not, I sit at home while I complain about the world doing nothing about it wishing I had someone here with me. I’m not noble nor do I really want to be, I have morals I uphold but much like most other hypocrites I acknowledge that my comfortable life is built on the suffering of others without doing anything about it. Why? My sleep problems? Am I depressed? Is that why I have no energy to do anything? Do I just think nothing I could do could help? I can’t nail it down myself, maybe it’s a mix of everything, maybe I’m just a bad person. I have always told myself that if I had wealth I would help people but if I get that kind of wealth will I just become a wealth hoarder who tries to justify my riches as something I earned rather than something given to me through incredibly lucky circumstances? If I do help people is it because I’m a good person or out of guilt? Will I die alone? I feel like I drive everyone away with my clinginess, I get paranoid often and need reassurance often. It’s something I want to work on, something I’ve been trying to work on. Hearing that someone cares about me just never gets old. I value self awareness even if it’s painful.
(3.d)
Socializing:
I’m definitely a socially anxious/awkward mess, especially around strangers. I do feel a large amount of anxiety in public, people can’t tell by looking at my face since I kind of go stone faced in an attempt to block everything out but yeah you’ll notice that if we go out in public. Growing up my pediatrician said I was probably autistic, never got a formal diagnosis so that’s just great. But yeah that explains why I can’t make eye contact with people, I kinda just stare at the ground and avoid their gaze at all costs. A lot of these social struggles go away to a great degree once I know you for a bit but yeah I apologize for how terrible I am at socializing at first. Don’t let my social struggles fool you though, I love cuddling and being close with my person.
(3.e)
Sexuality:
I am a heterosexual male, though I’m not very masculine like at all. I may even be a bit feminine sometimes. Not that I believe any activity or manner of acting belongs to a gender but I don’t know how else to describe it. I’m definitely super affectionate and love it when my partner is too. I am open to dating demi people but I do have a libido so I don't think asexual would work out.
(4)
Interests:
(4.a)
Video Games:
As stated before, I do spend a lot of my time playing video games. It’s been hard lately with me having no energy but I really do want to play more games and have a good time playing them with you! I primarily play on PC though I do have a switch. I’m primarily into platform fighters, roguelikes, open world, survival, and sandbox games. As for single player story games, I enjoy watching them through twitch or youtube but for the most part I don’t play them myself. I’d watch you play them though!
Here’s a list of games we can play:
-Minecraft (Java)
-Risk of Rain 2
-Gunfire Reborn
-Roboquest
-7 Days to Die
-Phasmophobia
-Rust
-Unturned
-Bloons TD 6
-Platform fighters: Super Smash Bros. Melee, Slap City, Multiversus, Flash Party, Fraymakers
Whatever you want to play I’ll give it a shot! I will say that League bores me to death but I’ll play it for you :) I try to avoid MMOs, not because I don’t like them but because of how addicted I can get to them. I enjoy learning games in-depth so MMOs can be a fast track to addiction.
I recently got Kerbal Space Program 2 and ehhh not really worth it right now but hopefully later it will be? I’m super excited for Tears of the Kingdom! In the far off future I’m excited for Rivals of Aether 2 which is a platform fighter releasing in 2024, let me know of your most anticipated releases and I’ll see if I could play them with you!
Also I never got into FPS games but I could totally see myself playing like CoD with you or Escape From Tarkov. Any FPS really, I’m down.
I am a fan of Pokemon but with how things have been lately I don’t know how long that will last. Pixelmon is a common Pokemon mod I play for Minecraft if you want to play that! Also if I say I want to play something with you I mean it but there are often times when no matter how much I want to I'm just drained and can do little more than lay in bed so please don't think I'm making an excuse.
(4.b)
Science:
I really enjoy keeping up with the latest advances in pretty much everything, it could be biology, technology, astronomy, anything! I love seeing progression and I love talking about it! Really I could go on and on about what I’m obsessing about that day. I particularly love technology, ask me for my laptop specs I dare you. When I was little I always wanted to be a scientist of any kind but then insomnia and fear of college stuff hit me like a truck aaaand that’s the end of that dream.
(4.c)
Anime:
You got me, I like anime but I’d like to think my tastes are benign.
Here’s some of my favorites I can list from the top of my head:
- To Your Eternity
- Vinland Saga
- Spice and Wolf
- Re:Zero
- Mob Psycho
- Dr. Stone
- Attack on Titan
- Spy x Family
- My Hero Academia
- Ranking of Kings
- Demon Slayer
Okay I can go on and on but I will say I don’t like pointless fan service and the spamming of cliche anime moments. I mostly enjoy action and anything well animated if it doesn’t have a potato story. Heck Demon Slayer could be my top 3 out of season 2’s animation alone. I don’t watch slice of life often or romance but I would with you!
(4.d)
Misc:
I’m not going to go on and on about the tiniest little things when the main ones are covered but I’ll watch pretty much any show with you and anything really. I like random youtube videos that explain some kind of lore or mystery, sometimes mini documentaries too.
As for food I looove sushi and I’m a sucker for fast food. Okay and candy, definitely candy.
I used to play tennis but haven’t really had the opportunity nor friends to play it with and I’m way too socially anxious to seek it out. Also I will say that when we move to something like discord I type waaaay more casually. I’m not going to expect long paragraphs back and forth like we’re writing English papers for each other, I do enjoy long conversations but seriously don’t worry about having to put the utmost effort into every response, I just like making good first impressions I guess.
(5)
(5.a)
My Physical Characteristics:
I’m 5’8 (172cm), 128 pounds (58kg), with curly brown hair and blue eyes. I like keeping my hair long in the winter and cutting it in the summer. I’m pretty slim in general so if you’re looking for someone large, that’s not me. I don’t work out but my work is pretty physical so at least I’m not totally inactive. I don’t have the urge to work out or gain muscle but I do want to maintain my slim figure so if I start losing control of that I’ll work out. I like to keep my face shaved because I don’t think I look good with a beard/mustache so if you’re into those I apologize. I have an average amount of body hair? I’d prefer to be completely shaved but it’s easy to lose motivation with that battle, if you prefer shaved then I’d have no problem complying. Anyways here’s what I look like: https://imgur.com/a/MZZgf2t
(5.b)
My Physical Preferences:
Having physical preferences makes me feel shallow, if I could make myself not have them I would but unfortunately that’s now how that works. I don’t care if you’re shorter or taller than me and I don’t care if you weigh more or less than me. All I ask is that you’re slim-average weight. I would never ask for someone to be something I’m not. I don’t care about tattoos or piercings.**(6)Expectations of You (Relationship Only):**I am not looking for someone “exciting” or someone to “keep me on my toes” I’m not looking for someone to cater to my every whim or anything like that. I don’t care if you’re “boring” or if you aren’t “successful”. I know it’s a common thing for people to not want a “boring” relationship and to seek something argumentative or something with constant challenges but I just want to be with you. During the exciting times, the boring times, and everything in-between, all of it will be great with you! Maybe we do argue sometimes or maybe there will be challenges but that will never be something I purposefully seek out and I don’t want that to be something you seek out either. I will not play tricks on you and I will not play mind games, I expect the same from you. We all have personal measures of success we may or may not have lived up to but what I care about most is our commitment to each other. If we have each other we can get through tough times, near the ends of our lives I want us to look back and feel that this life together was worth more than anything. That’s not saying I want us to be haphazard, I don’t want us to make poor decisions for the sake of yolo and I want us to always be rational, especially with each other. I want you to be someone I can trust to make decisions and weigh the options with a level head, I’ll try my best to live up to the same for you. Most of all I want empathy, understanding, someone to feel the utmost comfort and trust in.
(7)
Living Situation:
Currently my life is pretty relaxed, I work 3 times a week as a night shift stocker. I currently live in a 2 bedroom apartment with my roommate but we’re looking to move into someplace larger by the end of the year if everything works out. The internet is weirdly great for Ohio too like I have fiber and later this year we’re supposed to be getting dedicated fiber so that’s neat. I’m not attached to Ohio so the ultimate goal living location wise is probably moving to a country that won’t send you into a lifetime of dealing with the repercussions from one medical emergency.
(8)
Deal Breakers:
Might as well make this simple and make it a list.
- Anti-vaxxers
- Unironically believing astrology
- Right wingers
- Hard drugs (occasional 420 and alcohol is fine, may even join you)
- Wanting children, there was a time when I was younger when I wanted children but with the state of the word that’s a definite no and I feel like I wouldn’t be able to handle the stress. I’d love a stress free life with as much time with you as possible.
- Homophobic
- Transphobic
- Racist
- Super Religious
- Don’t be a bigot and don’t deny facts.
(9)
Closing Remarks:
Well you made it, I was thinking that finding someone I’d be willing to put a lifetime of effort into at least required this much effort. If I think of anything more I’ll update the post. Also about timezones, it really doesn’t matter where in the world you are. I don’t have a sleep schedule and I have most of the week off from work so it really doesn’t matter.
I request that in your response you do put effort into it, it doesn’t have to be anywhere near as long as this but at least enough so I know that you read this and enough about you so I know why you saw potential compatibility. I will seriously read all of it and respond the best I can. I do also request a pic included in your response (sfw please) or one soon after we start talking to prove identity, I’ll send identity proving pics too. As long as this post is up, you can send a reply!
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2023.06.02 01:30 kylexyz001 23 [M4F] Ohio/Worldwide- Let's Be Each Other's Everything (Longest post ever?)

Brace yourselves, this is gonna be a long one.
Table of Contents
1…… The Main Goal
2…… What I’m Seeking
3…… Personality
4…… Interests
5…… Physical Characteristics (with pics)
6…… Expectations of You
7…… Living Situation
8…… Deal Breakers
9…… Closing Remarks
(1)
The Main Goal:
Well if you’re browsing this subreddit then much like me, you were alone this weekend and I’m sure you’d like to change that as much as me. I won’t lie, I am going through a rough part of my life right now. It’s difficult for me to find the energy for anything at the moment and I’m just really seeking affection in general, anything that will give me a push. I don’t want to be that person who brings everyone down but I could really use someone to talk to right now. I’d really like to find someone who’s similar to me so much to the point that we do everything together and talk about everything while not having to pretend to be interested. I want someone with whom we can mutually spew our emotions onto and have those feelings reciprocated. Not an emotional punching bag, but an emotional teddy bear to hug and cuddle until everything feels better as many times as we need. There’s people who I’m sure have told you the same, they’ll be there no matter how many times you need the support, no matter how many times the insecurities and bad thoughts come back but they don’t mean it. I will be the exception, I’m not so ignorant to think some nice words and tales of relating to you will magically forever heal whatever ails you then get mad when you seek the same support again. Mental ailments are rarely temporary and I don’t care about someone because they’re perfect, caring about someone means being there no matter how many times they need you to be. It doesn’t feel like a chore, it doesn’t get old, and it never will.
(2)
(2.a)
What I'm Seeking:
I will upfront let you know if I’m clicking better with someone else or if you’re the one, I’m not here to tread the sea of fish or keep my options open, I’m here for one singular person.
(2.b)
Relationship:
A relationship is difficult for me right now, it’s been nearly half a year since I got out of my last relationship and the reasons for it ending are partially responsible for how I’ve been feeling and why it’s so hard for me to seek the comfort I so desperately crave. I will tell you about it but for the sake of not treating the entirety of the internet as my therapist, it’ll be in private. I really need the comfort of intimacy and the warmth of someone who cares. I'm not going to feel better if I just sulk and don’t move on. This is my attempt to get better, I’ll admit I’m not great right now and I don’t expect you to be either. If we can help each other heal, then I’d be more than happy :) A relationship isn’t just being there for when someone’s at their best. Even if a relationship is hard at the moment, I do want a life partner and I don’t want to be alone. Things aren’t going to get easier without you so I don’t want to hesitate. I view my other as an equal, I don’t like categorizing us into specific roles. We take care of each other and treat each other how we like to be treated, whatever that is, it's as simple as that. I don't care if you're "successful" or not, living simple lives with our days filled with love is the ultimate measure of success to me.
(3)
Personality:
(3.a)
On the Surface:
As you can tell I can be rather… stoic but that’s largely due to my current stressors, I truthfully am goofy and fun loving but I just can’t find it in me right now. I want to return to that but without someone to light up my world it’s been difficult to just have fun and enjoy stuff. I’m definitely more introverted, you won’t catch me at any parties or really outside at all. I definitely prefer being home though the occasional outing is not out of the question and one day I’d like to travel to other countries because I think that kind of perspective is important.
(3.b)
The Core of My Being:
I like being a spectator to it all and if we bear witness to humanity burning or its miraculous recovery, I want to watch it with you. I enjoy watching humanity advance, less so when it devolves but I want to watch it to the end nonetheless. I’m both a realist and someone who lives with my head in the clouds dreaming of scenarios or worlds that don’t exist. I’m saying that I enjoy a good narrative and can suspend my disbelief to enjoy something but you won’t catch me refusing vaccines or ignoring blatant facts for the sake of some pseudo science or witch doctor’s remedy. I’m an atheist but I do not rule out existence after death, not because I’m agnostic but because due to the nature of potentially infinite time at some point after how many googol years with a googol amount of 0s after that, something’s bound to replicate your consciousness perfectly at some point. It’s actually a really fascinating topic I like talking about. If infinite time and infinite possibilities exist, does non existence exist? Though that’s an awfully existentially dreadful thought process considering the ramifications of infinite existence and infinite possibilities during said infinite existence. I would say I’m confidently left leaning and I don’t think I could truly get along with anyone right leaning, at least America’s definition of right leaning. Left and right seems to have just become; do people deserve to suffer or do they deserve to live good lives? Being political is not something I expected to become but how can you not be when crimes against human rights are being passed on a daily basis and at the end of the day, everything’s political. Oftentimes I imagine the perfect moment as relaxing with my significant other playing games or cuddling in a cold room under blankets.
I value that special someone above all of the existential thoughts, the bad of the world, the good of the world, they practically become my world. So many worries wash away when I’m with them. I don’t know if that’s the defense mechanism my brain created to not feel bad 24/7 but if it is, I’m currently without it.
(3.c)
Insecurities:
I talk of philosophy and politics here but really I spend most of my time just playing games, watching stuff, and trying to not be sleep deprived. I’m also nowhere near as well spoken, heck sometimes I feel like my speech is broken. I won’t claim to be something I’m not, I sit at home while I complain about the world doing nothing about it wishing I had someone here with me. I’m not noble nor do I really want to be, I have morals I uphold but much like most other hypocrites I acknowledge that my comfortable life is built on the suffering of others without doing anything about it. Why? My sleep problems? Am I depressed? Is that why I have no energy to do anything? Do I just think nothing I could do could help? I can’t nail it down myself, maybe it’s a mix of everything, maybe I’m just a bad person. I have always told myself that if I had wealth I would help people but if I get that kind of wealth will I just become a wealth hoarder who tries to justify my riches as something I earned rather than something given to me through incredibly lucky circumstances? If I do help people is it because I’m a good person or out of guilt? Will I die alone? I feel like I drive everyone away with my clinginess, I get paranoid often and need reassurance often. It’s something I want to work on, something I’ve been trying to work on. Hearing that someone cares about me just never gets old. I value self awareness even if it’s painful.
(3.d)
Socializing:
I’m definitely a socially anxious/awkward mess, especially around strangers. I do feel a large amount of anxiety in public, people can’t tell by looking at my face since I kind of go stone faced in an attempt to block everything out but yeah you’ll notice that if we go out in public. Growing up my pediatrician said I was probably autistic, never got a formal diagnosis so that’s just great. But yeah that explains why I can’t make eye contact with people, I kinda just stare at the ground and avoid their gaze at all costs. A lot of these social struggles go away to a great degree once I know you for a bit but yeah I apologize for how terrible I am at socializing at first. Don’t let my social struggles fool you though, I love cuddling and being close with my person.
(3.e)
Sexuality:
I am a heterosexual male, though I’m not very masculine like at all. I may even be a bit feminine sometimes. Not that I believe any activity or manner of acting belongs to a gender but I don’t know how else to describe it. I’m definitely super affectionate and love it when my partner is too. I am open to dating demi people but I do have a libido so I don't think asexual would work out.
(4)
Interests:
(4.a)
Video Games:
As stated before, I do spend a lot of my time playing video games. It’s been hard lately with me having no energy but I really do want to play more games and have a good time playing them with you! I primarily play on PC though I do have a switch. I’m primarily into platform fighters, roguelikes, open world, survival, and sandbox games. As for single player story games, I enjoy watching them through twitch or youtube but for the most part I don’t play them myself. I’d watch you play them though!
Here’s a list of games we can play:
-Minecraft (Java)
-Risk of Rain 2
-Gunfire Reborn
-Roboquest
-7 Days to Die
-Phasmophobia
-Rust
-Unturned
-Bloons TD 6
-Platform fighters: Super Smash Bros. Melee, Slap City, Multiversus, Flash Party, Fraymakers
Whatever you want to play I’ll give it a shot! I will say that League bores me to death but I’ll play it for you :) I try to avoid MMOs, not because I don’t like them but because of how addicted I can get to them. I enjoy learning games in-depth so MMOs can be a fast track to addiction.
I recently got Kerbal Space Program 2 and ehhh not really worth it right now but hopefully later it will be? I’m super excited for Tears of the Kingdom! In the far off future I’m excited for Rivals of Aether 2 which is a platform fighter releasing in 2024, let me know of your most anticipated releases and I’ll see if I could play them with you!
Also I never got into FPS games but I could totally see myself playing like CoD with you or Escape From Tarkov. Any FPS really, I’m down.
I am a fan of Pokemon but with how things have been lately I don’t know how long that will last. Pixelmon is a common Pokemon mod I play for Minecraft if you want to play that! Also if I say I want to play something with you I mean it but there are often times when no matter how much I want to I'm just drained and can do little more than lay in bed so please don't think I'm making an excuse.
(4.b)
Science:
I really enjoy keeping up with the latest advances in pretty much everything, it could be biology, technology, astronomy, anything! I love seeing progression and I love talking about it! Really I could go on and on about what I’m obsessing about that day. I particularly love technology, ask me for my laptop specs I dare you. When I was little I always wanted to be a scientist of any kind but then insomnia and fear of college stuff hit me like a truck aaaand that’s the end of that dream.
(4.c)
Anime:
You got me, I like anime but I’d like to think my tastes are benign.
Here’s some of my favorites I can list from the top of my head:
- To Your Eternity
- Vinland Saga
- Spice and Wolf
- Re:Zero
- Mob Psycho
- Dr. Stone
- Attack on Titan
- Spy x Family
- My Hero Academia
- Ranking of Kings
- Demon Slayer
Okay I can go on and on but I will say I don’t like pointless fan service and the spamming of cliche anime moments. I mostly enjoy action and anything well animated if it doesn’t have a potato story. Heck Demon Slayer could be my top 3 out of season 2’s animation alone. I don’t watch slice of life often or romance but I would with you!
(4.d)
Misc:
I’m not going to go on and on about the tiniest little things when the main ones are covered but I’ll watch pretty much any show with you and anything really. I like random youtube videos that explain some kind of lore or mystery, sometimes mini documentaries too.
As for food I looove sushi and I’m a sucker for fast food. Okay and candy, definitely candy.
I used to play tennis but haven’t really had the opportunity nor friends to play it with and I’m way too socially anxious to seek it out. Also I will say that when we move to something like discord I type waaaay more casually. I’m not going to expect long paragraphs back and forth like we’re writing English papers for each other, I do enjoy long conversations but seriously don’t worry about having to put the utmost effort into every response, I just like making good first impressions I guess.
(5)
(5.a)
My Physical Characteristics:
I’m 5’8 (172cm), 128 pounds (58kg), with curly brown hair and blue eyes. I like keeping my hair long in the winter and cutting it in the summer. I’m pretty slim in general so if you’re looking for someone large, that’s not me. I don’t work out but my work is pretty physical so at least I’m not totally inactive. I don’t have the urge to work out or gain muscle but I do want to maintain my slim figure so if I start losing control of that I’ll work out. I like to keep my face shaved because I don’t think I look good with a beard/mustache so if you’re into those I apologize. I have an average amount of body hair? I’d prefer to be completely shaved but it’s easy to lose motivation with that battle, if you prefer shaved then I’d have no problem complying. Anyways here’s what I look like: https://imgur.com/a/MZZgf2t
(5.b)
My Physical Preferences:
Having physical preferences makes me feel shallow, if I could make myself not have them I would but unfortunately that’s now how that works. I don’t care if you’re shorter or taller than me and I don’t care if you weigh more or less than me. All I ask is that you’re slim-average weight. I would never ask for someone to be something I’m not. I don’t care about tattoos or piercings.**(6)Expectations of You (Relationship Only):**I am not looking for someone “exciting” or someone to “keep me on my toes” I’m not looking for someone to cater to my every whim or anything like that. I don’t care if you’re “boring” or if you aren’t “successful”. I know it’s a common thing for people to not want a “boring” relationship and to seek something argumentative or something with constant challenges but I just want to be with you. During the exciting times, the boring times, and everything in-between, all of it will be great with you! Maybe we do argue sometimes or maybe there will be challenges but that will never be something I purposefully seek out and I don’t want that to be something you seek out either. I will not play tricks on you and I will not play mind games, I expect the same from you. We all have personal measures of success we may or may not have lived up to but what I care about most is our commitment to each other. If we have each other we can get through tough times, near the ends of our lives I want us to look back and feel that this life together was worth more than anything. That’s not saying I want us to be haphazard, I don’t want us to make poor decisions for the sake of yolo and I want us to always be rational, especially with each other. I want you to be someone I can trust to make decisions and weigh the options with a level head, I’ll try my best to live up to the same for you. Most of all I want empathy, understanding, someone to feel the utmost comfort and trust in.
(7)
Living Situation:
Currently my life is pretty relaxed, I work 3 times a week as a night shift stocker. I currently live in a 2 bedroom apartment with my roommate but we’re looking to move into someplace larger by the end of the year if everything works out. The internet is weirdly great for Ohio too like I have fiber and later this year we’re supposed to be getting dedicated fiber so that’s neat. I’m not attached to Ohio so the ultimate goal living location wise is probably moving to a country that won’t send you into a lifetime of dealing with the repercussions from one medical emergency.
(8)
Deal Breakers:
Might as well make this simple and make it a list.
- Anti-vaxxers
- Unironically believing astrology
- Right wingers
- Hard drugs (occasional 420 and alcohol is fine, may even join you)
- Wanting children, there was a time when I was younger when I wanted children but with the state of the word that’s a definite no and I feel like I wouldn’t be able to handle the stress. I’d love a stress free life with as much time with you as possible.
- Homophobic
- Transphobic
- Racist
- Super Religious
- Don’t be a bigot and don’t deny facts.
(9)
Closing Remarks:
Well you made it, I was thinking that finding someone I’d be willing to put a lifetime of effort into at least required this much effort. If I think of anything more I’ll update the post. Also about timezones, it really doesn’t matter where in the world you are. I don’t have a sleep schedule and I have most of the week off from work so it really doesn’t matter.
I request that in your response you do put effort into it, it doesn’t have to be anywhere near as long as this but at least enough so I know that you read this and enough about you so I know why you saw potential compatibility. I will seriously read all of it and respond the best I can. I do also request a pic included in your response (sfw please) or one soon after we start talking to prove identity, I’ll send identity proving pics too. As long as this post is up, you can send a reply!
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2023.06.02 01:28 Mkhuseli5k WE ARE 共産党! - We are the Communist party - English lyrics -

WE ARE 共産党! - We are the Communist party - English lyrics -
Japan Communists make good music. Stalin would be proud.
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2023.06.02 01:10 Squez360 I was raised to fail [Long Post]

I'm thirty-one and realized my parents ruined my life from the beginning. I have struggled so much and felt so alone because of them. I grew up in a poor household raised by two Mexican Immigrants. I was neglected, emotionally, and physically abused at home. My parents ignored me during the early developing stages of my childhood. When I first learned to speak Spanish and I struggled, it was apparent to my parents as well. They didn't seem to care since my parents rarely talked with me. There were many words I couldn't pronounce and use the right words, and my communication was incoherent. Only my parents - mainly my mom - generally knew what I was trying to say, and yet she never tried to correct me. I remember when my mother wanted me to speak to my grandma over the phone. My mom would hand me the phone. I would try to say something like, "Hi, grandam! I hope you're having a good day!" and a few details about my day. She would understand none of it. I sounded gibberish to her. My mother had to translate my incoherent Spanish into regular Spanish, so my grandma could understand. It made me feel constantly inadequate because I couldn't communicate my thoughts or feelings. This miscommunication not only happened with my grandmother but also with other family members. Due to my inability to express myself adequately, I never had deep conversations with my parents, merely superficial ones.
Since I could not connect with anyone, over time, I believed that no one liked me, nor was anyone interested in what I had to say. I became an observer and watched people talk to each other. It blew my mind when talking comes so naturally to people. I always got confused looks every time I opened my mouth. The negative feedback I got from people only caused me to freeze up and panic whenever I had to talk, which worsened my communication. As a result, I was hypersensitive to social environments because I knew, I felt that no one would like me. So, I used to overcome these difficult moments of social interactions by ignoring them and isolating myself. Soon after that, I developed social anxiety and became anti-social from this. I always told myself that I preferred to be alone. Even though I always wondered why I was so different from everyone else and why the world around me seemed foreign to me. I felt alone and trapped. I knew deep down I was competent, but I couldn't show it. I wished someone could understand me. Since I could not communicate well, I learned to say a few words in a very soft and quiet voice, but mostly I learned not to speak. I trapped myself in a cycle. I didn't want to attempt to make any conversations because I sounded incoherent, but by not talking, my communication just got worse.
As I started learning English, I had the same difficulties I had with Spanish because I had no one to practice with at home. I only learned English at school, but even then, I didn't speak much. I remember teachers praising me for being quiet. If only they knew the truth. I spoke broken, unintelligible English at school and spoke broken, unintelligible Spanish at home. Whenever I wanted to make friends, there was always a miscommunication and I was left alone. I had difficulty opening up to other kids because I didn't want to look stupid. I avoided everyone who couldn't understand me. Therefore, at school, I never learned how to socialize or make friends. As time went on, I got used to being alone and never talking.
While attending primary school, another problem arose. I noticed that my eyesight was blurring, so I had to get prescription glasses, but I never wore them. The whole world around me was blurry, but I didn't care as long as I wasn't laughed at for wearing glasses. My parents didn't care that I could see. My mother also has glasses, but she doesn't wear them. I lost the ability to notice many non-verbal social signals at this vital stage because I could not see people's faces. I couldn't make eye contact even if I wanted to. I didn't learn much in school because I couldn't see. It was not until much later that I realized I made a big mistake by not wearing glasses.
In middle school, we used to read aloud during English class. I struggled a lot. In general, I had difficulties in school, but English class was the worst. It was a combination of not reading aloud and not reading much in general. Even if I knew what a word read in my mind, I couldn't pronounce it. I did not grow up with books, so reading was not my best skill. Every time I had to read in class, I got very anxious because wasn't reading at the same level as everyone else. I got corrected almost every sentence. I would always read ahead to check if I knew what each word said, and because of this, I never followed the lesson that day. Although I was never fond of books, I tried to read more, but I could not find books that interested me in my school library. I eventually found a few books to read, but every time I encountered an unfamiliar word, I had no one to read it or explain its meaning to me. Eventually, I started writing down all the words I did not know.
At the same time, in middle school, I tried to fit in, but I still struggled because of the language barrier. Then I started watching many TV programs to learn the way some people or characters on TV communicated. I started writing down every sentence I thought would be nice to say in social contexts. I filled a whole notebook, but unfortunately, I was an awkward kid who only knew how to say a few phrases in good English. A friend from school asked me why I could not speak Spanish or English well. At the time, I didn't know how to answer him because I didn't know why I was so bad at speaking both languages either.
In high school, I got better with simple talk, but if I talked too much, I would run the risk of stumbling over my words or making less sense. Since I couldn't hide this, most people could sense something was off about me. I knew it too, so I was obsessed with making every conversation perfect or figuring out what I could say instead. This only made me more anxious and overwhelmed. Ultimately, I learned it was better if I didn't talk. I avoided family events because everyone there only knew Spanish. I was comfortable speaking in English to people one-on-one. When I went out with a group of friends, I didn't speak at all. I was too overwhelmed by what people thought about me. And it was not just a language barrier; most of the things they talked about were experiences and events that I could not relate having had a rather limited and isolated life. These friends who were heading to college were having complex conversations. These high school teenagers were ready to become social adults, while I felt hopelessly stuck and left behind.
I was right. After high school, I struggled to connect with people. Most of my conversations don't go beyond small talk. Even though my English sucks, my Spanish is still worse. I still have trouble pronouncing words, using the right words, speaking slowly, and sounding coherent. None of my conversations flow. Misunderstanding happens a lot. I always hesitate to talk. My interpersonal skills are atrocious. I sometimes struggle to understand people. Even though I graduated from high school, I probably read, write, and speak at an eighth-grade level. Because I do not speak much, my vocabulary is limited in person. Because of this, I am easily intimidated by intelligent and sociable people.
The most difficult part of being an adult was finding a job. Most jobs would not hire me because many perceived that there was something wrong with me during interviews. Most jobs I got became toxic environments because of my communication difficulties. I learned people like you if you click with them and show good communication skills. I had bosses and coworkers behave very demeaning to me and, in some cases, be extremely rude to me. I could never understand why since I was trying my best. At first, I hated everyone. I was constantly bullied because I was not like them. I came to the conclusion that these people had their own problems, but I know that if I had a normal upbringing, I would not have been treated that way. I was always told that hard work matters. That's a lie. I learned that in life, communication matters more than hard work. I have seen unstable and lazy people get promoted and have a good life because they can communicate and be sociable with their bosses and colleagues.
I have missed many great opportunities in life. Communication is so essential in our society. People avoid me because I am unable to build rapport with them. It is frustrating that I will never be able to have a relationship, have real friends, get a good job or have a normal life. I am alone. Every birthday I would wish I was as smart as everyone else. I hate my parents for not doing a better job of raising me and making me normal. I could have a perfect life. I wish I could naturally articulate and express myself with the right words in seconds without the anxiety of being misunderstood and build rapport with people. The only thing I understand is that I was raised to fail.
TL:DR I have trouble being a productive member of society because of my parent's neglect
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2023.06.02 00:26 maxenkarambolage The entire culture festival performance of "If I could be a constellation" without the anime voiceover and both guitar solos + English, Japanese and Romantized subtitles/lyrics! :3

The entire culture festival performance of
I couldn't find this anywhere so I figured i'll do it myself and I also added lyrics in English and Japanese, aswell as the voice lines of the anime and romantized lyrics. I hope y'all enjoy
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2023.06.02 00:07 newmusicrls Beatport Tech House Top 100 June 2023

https://minimalfreaks.co/2023/06/beatport-tech-house-top-100-june-2023/
  1. ESSEL – Sweat (Extended Mix) 05:04 127bpm Ebm
  2. Vintage Culture – Rock The Casbah (Extended Mix) 04:04 128bpm Am
  3. Aluna, Chris Lake – Beggin’ (Extended Mix) 05:28 126bpm Eb
  4. Biscits – Don’t Stop (Original Mix) 05:04 127bpm Dbm
  5. MK, Dom Dolla – Rhyme Dust (Extended) 05:30 128bpm G
  6. Westend, Noizu, No/Me – Push To Start (feat. No/Me) (Original Mix) 05:31 128bpm Ebm
  7. Joshwa – Magalenha (Extended Mix) 06:30 128bpm Am
  8. Kevin McKay – Get Busy (Extended Mix) 05:12 126bpm Fm
  9. Superchumbo, Ben Sterling – All Over My Body (feat. Superchumbo) (Original Mix) 06:36 126bpm E
  10. Matroda – Throw Your Hands (Original Mix) 04:34 126bpm Ebm
  11. Westend – Maracuya (Extended Mix) 05:37 126bpm D
  12. CID, Sage Armstrong – The Function (Extended Mix) 05:32 127bpm Gm
  13. Audio Bullys, Michael Bibi, KinAhau – Different Side (Original Mix) 05:32 128bpm C
  14. Mau P – Gimme That Bounce (Original Mix) 05:21 126bpm Eb
  15. Vintage Culture, Meca, Bhaskar, The Vic – Tina (Extended) 05:34 128bpm F
  16. Junior Jack, Juliet Sikora, Flo MRZDK – Thrill Me (Extended Mix) 06:02 128bpm Gm
  17. Loco Dice, VLTRA (IT), Francis De Simone – Flowcito (Original Mix) 06:30 129bpm Bm
  18. Bootie Brown, Tame Impala, Gorillaz – New Gold (feat. Tame Impala and Bootie Brown) (Dom Dolla Remix Extended) 06:03 127bpm Em
  19. Kevin McKay, Pupa Nas T, Denise Belfon – Work (Extended Mix) 05:48 128bpm Ebm
  20. Camille Doe – Alright (Extended Mix) 06:33 128bpm D
  21. Manda Moor – Picante (Original Mix) 05:44 131bpm Abm
  22. TECH IT DEEP – Maria Maria (Extended Mix) 06:09 128bpm Dm
  23. Matroda, Dino DZ – Saturday Love (Original Mix) 04:06 125bpm F
  24. El Chuape, Hugel, Ryan Arnold – Pa Lante (Extended Mix) 04:21 126bpm Am
  25. Truth x Lies – Dos Gardenias (Original Mix) 04:56 127bpm Em
  26. Dimitri Vegas, Steve Aoki, Chapter & Verse – Friends (Extended Mix) 04:20 127bpm Am
  27. Bruno Furlan – Bongoloco (Original Mix) 04:48 128bpm Gbm
  28. FISHER (OZ) – Yeah The Girls (feat. MERYLL) (Extended Mix) 06:21 126bpm Ebm
  29. Damelo – Afters (Extended Mix) 05:28 130bpm Fm
  30. R3WIRE, NuKey – Transition (Extended Mix) 05:05 126bpm G
  31. Jack Orley – BUM! (Extended Mix) 04:45 128bpm Em
  32. White Sheep, Curol – Vamos a Bailar (Original Mix) 05:56 124bpm Am
  33. James Haskell – Check It Out (Extended Mix) 06:10 126bpm Gbm
  34. Chris Lake, Aatig – In The Yuma (feat. Aatig) (Extended Mix) 06:06 126bpm B
  35. AKA AKA, Artenvielfalt – Let Me Show You (Extended Mix) 04:33 128bpm A
  36. TOBEHONEST – Conga (Original Mix) 06:48 127bpm Cm
  37. Jose De Mara – To My Beat (Extended Mix) 05:34 128bpm A
  38. David Amo, Julio Navas, Gustavo Bravetti, Tony Romera – Raw (Tony Romera Extended Mix) 05:00 128bpm F
  39. Joshwa – Bass Go Boom (Original Mix) 06:28 129bpm Am
  40. Kim English, Schak – Moving All Around (Jumpin’) (John Summit Remix) 05:33 128bpm Bbm
  41. Merk & Kremont, Hugel, Lirico En La Casa – Marianela (Que Pasa) (Extended Mix) 04:07 124bpm C
  42. Craze, Black V Neck – Ride That Thang (Original Mix) 05:15 128bpm B
  43. Dom Dolla, Clementine Douglas – Miracle Maker (Extended Mix) 06:04 128bpm Bb
  44. Matt Sassari, SoShy – Back To This feat. SoShy (Extended Mix) 05:09 126bpm Abm
  45. Jerome Robins, Sinner & James – You’re Not Alone (Sinner & James Remix) 06:09 130bpm Gm
  46. Nolek – Con Todo (Extended Mix) 04:44 125bpm Db
  47. Mau P – Drugs From Amsterdam (Original Mix) 05:23 125bpm Eb
  48. Loco Dice, VLTRA (IT), Francis De Simone – Flowcito (Loco Dice Remix) 06:04 129bpm Bm
  49. BLOND:ISH, Nfasis, Hugel – Tra Tra (Extended Mix) 05:25 124bpm Fm
  50. MK, Dom Dolla – Rhyme Dust (Nic Fanciulli Extended Remix) 06:46 128bpm Bm
  51. Majestic, Sara Sukkha – Dance All Night feat. Sara Sukkha (Extended Mix) 04:42 126bpm Am
  52. Prophecy, Crusy – Pills (Extended Mix) 06:05 124bpm A
  53. Green Velvet, Chris Lake – Deceiver (VIP) (Extended Mix) 06:28 124bpm Em
  54. Siege – Rhymes (Extended Mix) 06:08 128bpm Db
  55. Italobros – Shopper (Original Mix) 06:18 127bpm Cm
  56. Cassi – Request (Original Mix) 06:43 129bpm D
  57. Devotionz – Tattoo (Extended Mix) 06:11 125bpm Ebm
  58. Mosby, Ric Waves, Freenzy Music, Jhonny Weezy – Takoflow feat. Mosby feat. Ric Waves feat. Jhonny Weezy (Original Mix) 05:42 129bpm Dbm
  59. Shiba San, AYAREZ – Twist It (Extended Mix) 04:50 126bpm Ebm
  60. Hugel, Westend, Cumbiafrica – Aguila feat. Cumbiafrica (Original Mix) 05:05 125bpm Gbm
  61. Noizu – Lost (Extended Mix) 05:03 128bpm Fm
  62. Raffa FL – Ritmo (HUGEL Extended Edit) 05:34 124bpm G
  63. Lil Wayne, SIDEPIECE – A Milli (SIDEPIECE Extended Mix) 03:30 128bpm Ab
  64. Sergio Mendes, Simon Fava, Yvvan Back – Magalenha feat. Sergio Mendes (Extended Mix) 04:51 126bpm D
  65. FISHER (OZ) – Losing It (Extended) 06:40 125bpm G
  66. Paul Johnson, Airwolf Paradise – Only Man (feat. Paul Johnson) (Original Mix) 05:31 128bpm Bm
  67. John Summit – La Danza (Extended Mix) 05:39 126bpm Dbm
  68. Marshall Jefferson, Solardo – Move Your Body (Extended Mix) 06:13 125bpm Em
  69. Beltran (BR) – Smack Yo’ (Original Mix) 05:06 127bpm G
  70. Mihalis Safras, Yvan Genkins – Las Solteras (Extended Mix) 05:15 132bpm Db
  71. TWENTY SIX – Stan (Extended Mix) 05:01 129bpm Ebm
  72. Wax Motif – Telugu Tech (Extended Mix) 04:48 130bpm Dbm
  73. Andruss, Fatboi – Agáchalo (Original Mix) 05:26 130bpm Em
  74. Chico Rose, Dot N Life – Trankilo (Extended Mix) 04:45 128bpm Gbm
  75. The Martinez Brothers, Tokischa – Kilo (Beltran Remix) 07:04 130bpm Db
  76. Danny Leblack, Saul Antolin – El Desorden (Extended Mix) 06:43 126bpm Dm
  77. DJ Snake, Wade, Nooran Sisters – Guddi Riddim (Extended Mix) 04:18 128bpm Abm
  78. Wax Motif, Riordan – La Samba (Original Mix) 04:27 130bpm Gm
  79. Ollie BC – Red Mercedes (Original Mix) 05:30 128bpm Bbm
  80. Seb Zito – Lights Down (Extended Mix) 05:40 130bpm G
  81. Martin Ikin, The Melody Men – Feel The Same (Extended Mix) 05:32 128bpm Abm
  82. RSquared – Kind of Lady (Original Mix) 06:07 126bpm Ebm
  83. CVMPANILE, Draxx (ITA) – WTF (Extended Mix) 05:00 128bpm Bm
  84. Sam Curran – Twilight On The Terrace (Original Mix) 06:08 128bpm B
  85. Joshwa – Supersonic (Original Mix) 06:35 129bpm A
  86. illusionize, NightFunk, EVEL!N – Body Shake (Original Mix) 05:48 127bpm Em
  87. Andruss, Lowderz – Dum Dum (Extended Mix) 05:29 130bpm Bbm
  88. ESSEL – Lennon (Extended Mix) 05:17 128bpm Gb
  89. Matt Sassari – Give It To Me (Full Vocal Mix – Extended) 05:39 126bpm Abm
  90. TOBEHONEST – Baila (Original Mix) 05:34 129bpm C
  91. Ferreck Dawn, The Melody Men – Vibe With It (feat. The Melody Men) (Extended Mix) 05:29 125bpm Abm
  92. Tom Santa – Rainfall (Praise You) (Extended Mix) 04:46 128bpm Gm
  93. Shaf Huse – Pacosó (Original Mix) 06:35 129bpm Dbm
  94. Plastic Robots – Tell Me Something (Original Mix) 05:30 125bpm Abm
  95. Mason Collective – A Little Affection (Extended Mix) 05:50 126bpm Dm
  96. Biscits – House All The Time (Extended Mix) 05:16 127bpm Fm
  97. BLOND:ISH, Amadou & Mariam, Francis Mercier – Sete (Original Mix) 06:35 125bpm Gbm
  98. The Martinez Brothers, Rema, GORDO (US) – Rizzla feat. Rema (Mochakk Remix) 05:21 129bpm Gm
  99. Jen Payne, Kastelo, Aaron Pfeiffer – Black & Yellow (Extended Mix) 05:21 126bpm Gm
  100. Roxe – Smack (Extended Mix) 05:15 128bpm D
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2023.06.01 23:59 Camilla0303 Should I(23f) try to forgive my bf(26m)?

Forgive any mistakes I’m very upset right now and English is not my first language.
So today my bf told me that he has been receiving and sending nudes with a woman online and also chatted with 4 other women. He did it on this international dating app and they were all women from other countries (or so he says, he deleted all the evidence). The only reason he told me, is because the last girl message on google chat and tried to blackmail him with his nudes.
I am extremely heartbroken. We have been together for 4 years and lived together for 1,5 years. I never thought he would do something like this, especially after all we have been through the last year. I am on sick leave with depression, his mom had cancer, his father was in the hospital after a work accident and he just went NC his best friend.
I know all of this is a lot, but that still doesn’t excuse what he did. And when he told me about it he lied to my face. It was only after pressing him for details that he admitted to the 4 other girls. He also admitted to chatting with them while I was right next to him on the couch.
I am extremely angry and upset and I don’t know what to do. My trust is completely broken and I still don’t feel like he has told me the whole truth. I just can’t believe he would do this. I know it has been hard with my depression, but I checked in with him multiple times making sure he was okay and if something didn’t work for him, then he should tell me.
But he chose to do this instead and I don’t know if I should try to forgive him?
TLDR: My bf cheated after we had a hard year and I don’t know if I should try and forgive him.
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