African fufu near me

I am just in the process of beginning to move from my “starter” base that’s lasted me nearly 60 levels lol. This has got me thinking what some must have qol things are for your base in VH.
There’s obvious things like an armoury of sorts for different gear sets, an auto smelting system, and a chunk loader. As well as more VH specific things like an auto gear smelting system, auto soul shard system, and an auto catalyst infuser. Also some great items like a test dummy, tool racks for quick gear swapping, and mailboxes & postboxes to send items to server mates.
Would love to hear some other things people have come up with that you now couldn’t live without at your base!

The Rome Statute of the International Criminal Court (ICC) is a treaty that established the ICC, the first permanent international criminal court to prosecute individuals for the most serious crimes Crimes that are considered of international concern include acts such as genocide,
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crimes against humanity, war crimes, and aggression. In 1998, the Rome Statute was ratified and it became effective in 2002. This article will provide an overview of the Rome Statute and its significance in int law
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History of the Rome Statute
On July 17th, 1998, the Rome Statute was adopted during the United Nations Diplomatic Conference of Plenipotentiaries which was held in Rome with the objective of establishing an International Criminal Court.
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The conference was attended by over 160 countries and resulted in the adoption of the Rome Statute by a vote of 120 in favor, 7 against, and 21 abstentions. The Rome Statute was open for signature on 18 July 1998 and was signed by 120 countries.
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Structure of the Rome Statute
The Rome Statute is divided into four main parts. Part I contains the establishment of the ICC and its jurisdiction. Part II describes the general principles of criminal law and the definition of crimes within the jurisdiction of the ICC. Part III outlines the organization and administration of the ICC, including the composition of the court, the election of judges, and the role of the prosecutor. Part IV contains provisions regarding cooperation with the ICC and the enforcement of its decisions.
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Significance of the Rome Statute
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The Rome Statute is significant in international law as it represents a major milestone in the fight against impunity for the most serious crimes of international concern. The ICC has the power to prosecute individuals who commit crimes under its jurisdiction, regardless of their nationality or the location of the crimes. The Rome Statute also contributes to the development of international criminal law, as it establishes a framework for the prosecution of international crimes and provides guidance on the elements of crimes and the procedure of the court.
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Criticism of the Rome Statute
The Rome Statute has been subject to criticism from some states and individuals. Some states have criticized the ICC for its perceived bias against African states, as most of the cases before the court have been against individuals from African countries. Others have criticized the ICC for its lack of enforcement powers and its reliance on state cooperation to execute its decisions. Some individuals have also criticized the ICC for its limited scope, as it only has jurisdiction over crimes committed after the entry into force of the Rome Statute and within the jurisdiction of states that have ratified the treaty.
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Impact of the Rome Statute
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The Rome Statute has had a significant impact on the development of international criminal law and the fight against impunity for international crimes. Here are some of the key impacts of the Rome Statute:
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Deterrence
The existence of the ICC and the threat of prosecution for international crimes has helped to deter individuals from committing such crimes. The Rome Statute sends a message that there is no impunity for international crimes and that those who commit such crimes will be held accountable.
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Accountability
The ICC has been responsible for prosecuting individuals for international crimes, which has helped to hold perpetrators accountable for their actions. The ICC has issued arrest warrants for several high-profile individuals, including Sudanese President Omar al-Bashir, who was charged with genocide, crimes against humanity, and war crimes committed in Darfur.
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Victim Participation
The Rome Statute recognizes the rights of victims to participate in ICC proceedings, including the right to seek reparations for harm suffered as a result of international crimes. This has helped to give victims a voice in the pursuit of justice and to provide some measure of redress for their suffering.
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Global Norms
The Rome Statute has contributed to the development of global norms against international crimes. The ICC has played a key role in promoting the rule of law and human rights around the world, and its work has helped to establish international criminal law as an important component of the international legal system.
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Challenges
While the Rome Statute has made significant contributions to the development of international criminal law, the ICC faces several challenges. Here are some of the main challenges facing the ICC:
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Limited Jurisdiction
The ICC’s jurisdiction is limited to four types of international crimes, which means that it cannot prosecute other serious crimes such as terrorism, drug trafficking, or corruption. This limits the ICC’s ability to address all of the most serious crimes of international concern.
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Lack of Universality
Not all countries have ratified the Rome Statute, which means that the ICC does not have jurisdiction over crimes committed in those countries. This limits the ICC’s ability to address all international crimes and can create a perception of unequal justice.
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Political Pressure
The ICC operates in a highly politicized environment, and it can face pressure from powerful states that seek to undermine its work. This can make it difficult for the ICC to carry out its mandate effectively and independently.
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Rome Statute In Conclusion
The Rome Statute of the International Criminal Court represents a significant achievement in the fight against impunity for international crimes. While the ICC faces several challenges, its work has contributed to the development of international criminal law, and it has played a key role in promoting accountability and the rule of law around the world. The Rome Statute provides a framework for addressing some of the most serious crimes of international concern, and its continued support is essential to ensure that perpetrators of international crimes are held accountable for their actions.
LAWEGAL

I’m nearly 18 and going to uni later this year which I’ve been looking forward to for ages because I’ll have so much more freedom than I do now, like I’ll be able to actually wear what I want and not have to worry about someone hearing me swear, just stuff like that.
I vent to my friends a lot about the church and how suffocating it is and they really don’t like the tithing part and neither do I. I started thinking that when I’m living on my own, will they check if I’m paying tithing or not? I really don’t want to and idk how strict they are with checking because this is something I can’t risk my parents finding out as it could result in me not being able to go to uni.
So is there any way I can not pay tithing but make the church think I am?

My college friends and I are planning to move to Miami once we graduate. I’m interest in learning what the best/safest places to live in Miami may be. We would prefer somewhere near the north part or Miami because one of us with be working in Sunrise.
Ideally we would like an area that is not as expensive but still safe and good location for young adults. Please let me know your suggestions!

I’m a novice rider but since my car recently died for good I’ve been considering replacing it with an e-bike, specifically most likely one of the Lectric’s, either the Xpedition or the Xpremium.
They’re both heavy bikes (~75lbs with the batteries in) and have 20” tires (3 or 4” wide). The Xpremium folds, the Xpedition does not.
My understanding is the rack on Metro buses only allows 55lb bikes or less, but that you can take a folding bike on Metro buses if it has 20” or smaller tires. Does that also apply to e-bikes? What’s folks experience taking their e-bike on Metro?
It wouldn’t be a deal breaker if I couldn’t use Metro buses, but it would be a knock against the idea. I’ve got a lot of trepidation anyway as I’ve actually learned to ride 3 times as a kid (you can forget if you only get to basic proficiency then don’t do it for years in between), and likely need to relearn yet again. I’m a big guy too (~340lbs) so crashes are probably gonna be riskier for me than most, and LA city streets don’t seem friendly per se to cyclists.
I live in DTLA near the Whole Foods and Ralph’s and work from home so it sort of makes having a bike just to get me around town for leisure activities seem maybe feasible? And a lot cheaper than a new car! Any tips or opinions on the feasability of this or riding in LA, taking your e-bike on metro, etc. would be appreciated!

Earlier I posted about how I was fighting the secret boss and he was absolutely kicking my ass, I couldn’t get past the first phase whenever the curse takes effect and it turns into a DPR check. I asked for advice and got a ton of it, so thanks to everyone who commented their tips and strategies! In the end I did a mix of sticking to a similar plan to that of my original, but making some slight optimizations and minor changes, and following the advice of others on my original post. I wanted to go over how I beat the boss so that,

1. Others who are potentially struggling can give this strat a try and see how it works for them.
   
2. I can document how I beat so I can remembered back on it in the future (I don’t fully remember how I beat him in the first game).
   

Disclaimer I wanna just say that this build is VERY unoptimized and I’m sure I could have done things sooooo much better, but this is what I came up with and it worked for me. Enjoy!
To start off my party comps were as follows
Phase 1: Throné (Warrior) Ochette (Apothecary) Osvald (Cleric) Agnea (Inventor)
Phase 2: Hikari (Arms Master) Castti (Cleric) Partitio (Arcanist) Temenos (Dancer)
Phase 1: The biggest thing with this phase is dealing with the souls as quickly as possible. I began with a step ahead on Agnea and used the spring boots on her so that she would always go first for the next few turns. Next round she would have full BP with boost start (as would everyone but Throné) and would then use the dancer divine skill on Osvald. On his turn is use a max analyze every enemy to insure I get all their weaknesses. On Throné’s turn I’d give a large pomegranate to Agnea, getting her back to near full BP and I’d have ochette use a Dotter’s charity. Next round is when things start happening. Agnea is up first and I instantly use her latent power and the elemental bomb bottle skill. Boosted this hits everyone elemental weakness multiple times and breaks the souls instantly. With the souls broken I’d go right into an Aeber’s reckoning with Throné. It’s worth knowing that I did this fight at night time so the buffs you get from Throné’s passive are still up. As such Aeber does a lot and sometimes kills, if it doesn’t I’d have ochette use a dotters boosted Large pomegranate and have Osvakd cast Aelfrics Blessing to let Throné go again at the end of her turn. With the souls defeated the main body is next.
Essentially my strat this phase is all about setting Throné up for big damage with Aeber’s. There are ways to increase its damage to, like getting her speed and physical attack up with her own skills (Abide, swift step) lowering defenses on the eye (I did this with the dreadwolf monster summon) and finally, using the critical scope with inventor to make all hits are critical. With my unoptimized build I was doing 70k per Aeber with the full set up and that would be twice per turn as long as I had Aelfrics up.
Depending on how much damage you do and when the main body is done being broken you can either go into the curse phase or you might skip it and get to the absorbed phase. Most of the time I got the curse phase, but despite my previous troubles, I was prepared. So long as I made sure that Agnea was rebuilding her inventions and had her latent power gauge up, things would be good. However, these souls have new weaknesses, and with the curse there’s no time to do the whole dancer skill into max analyze. Luckily for this part you don’t need to.
So long as someone goes before Agnea and Agnea is at max BP you should be good. Just have whoever is first use a wind soul stone, all the curse souls are week too wind. This’ll expose one weakness and allow Agnea, with a max boosted bottle, to break both the souls and the body. Follow these up with some more Aeber’s and the souls, and potentially the body as well, should be done for. As for me after a few Aeber’s and a latent power one true magic II from Osvald, I defeated phase 1 and made my way to phase 2….
Phase 2:
It took me while to work out my phase 1 strat, so when I finally got it to work only to be shown that my phase 2 strat was not optimal and have my ass handed to me again…. Well it was rough. Phase two is a whole different game to phase 1. Where phase 1 was a game of a abusing weaknesses and breaks, phase two tosses those to the side in favor of raw damage without break.
My original start was to try to fight this like any old fight, with arcanist Partitio doing the good old diffusion and sidestep combo, while Castti and Temenos healed and Hikari was the main damage dealer. However, Galdera is a little bitch and his second phase limbs are nasty and can mess you up. My first few attempts ended up being defensive fight with constant healing. Which in turn made it take longer to defeat the limbs, and the one thing the phases have in common is that you NEED to get rid of the extra enemies as quickly as possible, but my current set up wasn’t doing it, so I called in a favor from a certain accessory and a old friend of a strat from octopath 1.
That’s right it’s the good old 1HP and a dream warrior with the ability that lets you do more damage when your HP is low. This time the ability comes from the “Alpione’s Amulet” item which can be gotten by completing Alpione’s side quest in Gravell. Then all you gotta do is have hikari get down to 1 HP and throw him against a dark god and hope for the best.
For this phase EVERYONE had step ahead. The idea is to set up hikari to do as much damage as possible and to every foe, so long as temenos doesn’t go first, this is possible. First thing you gotta do is give temenos the BP needed to cast the dancer divine skill on hikari. Partitio went first for me followed by Hikari who had defend so he would go first next turn. I cast the spell with Temenos so that Hikari’s skills would hit all the limbs and with Castti I concocted to boost BP and physical attack to everyone. Then the moment of truth occurred….
On Hikari’s turn I max boosted Limb from Limb, an ability that hits a single (now every) enemy with a sword attack 4 times. Even with shields, a max boosted attack up 1HP Limb from Limb had each hit doing well over 15k, and with that… only the head died, and the sword and arm lived with low HP, a bit scary but none of them attacked Hikari and I was able to finished them off with Partitio.
Now with Galdera himself exposed I went about repeating the processes. I was able to pull it off again, but it didn’t kill and hikari ended up going down. I revived him, but decided that since I didn’t one shot Galdera I’d play it safe and keep the HP full and play the fight normally with a focus on getting Hikari strong. After some healing and buffing of Hikari, I pulled off some more LfL’s and got Galdera down to red. On my last turn, I buffed Hikari’s attack with Castti, and had Partitio give him all the BP he could with a donate. And with one final max boosted LfL I finally took down Galdera! Victory at last!
If you made it this far holy shit I’m sorry, I didn’t expect to write all this out, but it’s nice to revel in how I was able to overcome this challenge. I hope you enjoyed reading or at least the meme I made for this post. Thanks again to everyone who gave me advice on my last post!
Take care!

So it goes without saying that I haven’t really been around to do my part sifting through the shit and overtime the subreddit has become quite a zoo of shit posting.
As we have grown exponentially in such a short amount of time, with nearly 140k members and a million page views every week, our team in all honesty has just been out numbered.. Upkeep after such an influx of members has been overwhelming. The traffic to our page as well as dealing with personal life has caused complacency on my part. Because of this, we are looking for new Mods to try to give this page the jump start it deserves.
We're looking for people who;

• Understand our rules like the back of their hand and are able to use their own discretion to make unbiased decision regarding the Approval/ Denial of posts & eventually users.
• Preferably with some form of experience moderating.
• Knowledgeable when it comes to harm reduction is a huge plus.
• Common sense is required, and being able to separate yourself from the situation is a must (in other words, if you’re a moody bitch fuck off).

We need people who are willing to put energy into the subreddit and help stabilize the amount of shit posting as well as hopefully changing the way our community is viewed.
Requirements :

• Must be 18 years of age or older.
• Must have a minimum of 3 posts in meth.
• Must have overall karma of 250 or higher.
• Must be proficient in English as communication is key.

DM me directly[ u_warped ]letting me know a little about yourself, and what you believe makes you a good candidate for moderation.
Regards,

I (23F) wish my dad (57M) would stop bringing up my past mistakes. Whenever my dad and I argue, he brings up past mistakes that I made when I was a teenager. He thinks that I should be grateful to have a father like him because of the mistakes I made and because I’m a bad kid.
When I was a teenager (16), I had a secret boyfriend because of how strict my parents were. I exchanged some explicit text messages with him. My parents found out and were angry about it. That was a bad decision, but it was also nearly a decade ago. I apologized to my parents for it and acknowledged why it was wrong long ago.
My dad also doesn’t allow me to bring up anything he has done. If it’s something he’s done to me, he and my other family members tell me to move on and get over it. Like when he made fun of me for being in an abusive relationship a few months ago - I’m not allowed to bring that up. I asked my dad not to bring up things I did as a teen. My entire family thinks it was out of line for me to ask this and that I’m ungrateful.
I made a mistake, but it seems like there should be a point when we let go of things that happened when we were teenagers.

I am a firm believer that action films require a male lead in order to be effective in the action market. Nearly every one of these films is about revenge, taking on a spirit of vengeance, or taking on the role of justice. But the strange part of this is that both vengeance and justice are feminine deities in mythology, and at multiple levels. The male action hero is less about taking revenge or enacting justice and is more about understanding their role in taking revenge, which can result in not wanting revenge at all or realizing there is something more grand to the journey they enter. This is why mystery and whodunit stories appeal to women, because women enjoy aspects of revenge and justice, while being less interested in the more masculine aspects like enlightenment and the hero’s journey.
That statement alone is enough to set any wokescold’s blood a’boiling, because it’s a factual statement.
None of this means it’s impossible to make an action movie with a female lead, it just means it will be built differently with themes exclusive to the female role. I’ve talked about the movie Furie here and there when talking about female roles in stories because it’s a clear example of how to do it right when the female role is meant to be a tiger mother archetype. The story is simple: a mother has her child kidnapped by bad guys and she goes out to retrieve her child and save her from the dangerous world they live in. This kind of story is very primitive, with how it’s no different than if a tigress lost her cub and had to find it in the wilderness. The tiger mother finds her strength by being more feminine, closer to mother earth, and using her nurturing spirit to stay dedicated to her main goal: protect her cub.
Not only protect, but also allow her cub to flourish in the world by making sure her child studies hard, gets a good job, and gives the air of “not being good enough” because that is what the world tells us every day. We will never please the world and feel comfortable at any moment for any reason unless we willingly let our guard down, and that’s when the snake devours the cub. The tiger mother views the world as harsh, unforgiving, and a constant threat of corruption that will swallow their child whole. They are not paranoid, they are realistic. They are not carefree, they are careful. This mentality causes them to become very authoritarian, and so the tiger mother might as well be called the empress, because they are to be the empress of both their world and the world of their child’s.
A fury is one of the Furies from Greek mythology, who are the 3 goddesses of vengeance. Nemesis came before them as a goddess of revenge, but it is more like Nemesis handles anger between gods and the furies cast curses upon humans. In the movie Furie, there is a detective who is after the same villain, with the villain being this drug lady(as in female version of drug lord) and she is the dark sorceress of the streets. The Drug Lady represents the terrible chaotic side of the earth mother, with her minions being these evil demons who kill and rape anything in their path. The entire story of Furie was a mythological tale presented in modern day Vietnam in one of the most beautiful depictions of such a tale I’ve seen in a while.
This is not meant to be a hero’s journey other than the journey of the detective, who gains a gift from the tiger mother in the form of protection while he also saves her in the end, meaning there is a supportive synergy going on in their relationship. The authoritarian femme fatale assisting the masculine authority is a story about control between both family and society. An action movie like this is why I love action films when they have effort put into them, because there is deep subject matter being played out through simple interactions between individuals and between that we get epic fight scenes.
Let me tell you: these fight scenes are awesome.
It’s not just about a woman beating up a bunch of dudes. It’s about how she struggles to get through each fight but will still carry on because that’s what a mother does for her child. It’s no different than when a noir hero fights his way through hordes of goons in order to enact his revenge. All of these little fights represent thoughts in our head like “give up” and “go back”, which are meant to detract us from our main goal. Get hit too much or get surrounded and we are forced to play defense or hide behind something, which is no different than being like a turtle hiding in their shell. The turtle, the hermit, only works in isolation and it’s meant to be the moment of introspect.
All of that is a way of saying that the action hero should only play defense to plan a better attack, because the world around them will not give up on the onslaught. These are the moments in an action movie where someone is healing or planning a new attack, with the occasional doubt hitting them near the end. The movie Furie has these moments, specifically for the tiger mother to heal and make a plan to get her daughter back, which enhances the movie’s credibility. We need these high and low points of an action movie for rest, progression of story, getting to know the characters more, and also we don’t expect a budget to be constant expensive action all the time.
If anything, the furie in this movie is a representation of Alecto, goddess of unceasing anger, due to her dedication that goes beyond the death of those who wrong her. In the mythology, the furies are three sisters who live in the underworld, specifically Erebus(meaning darkness), which is why it’s appropriate to have this movie mostly at night and involve the criminal underworld. Whenever an action movie involves the criminal underworld as a setting, they are mirroring the underworld of mythology in a form of katabasis, a journey into the underworld. Think of something like Orpheus or Dante or Jesus making a trip into the underworld in order to achieve a goal. The underworld in this case is always related to something like a wilderness or a hedonistic primitive state of mind that’s full of everything unlawful because the primitive state is before society and order is established.
The male enters the underworld to become enlightened and the female lives there because it’s their domain.
Rape, murder, theft, drug use, kidnapping, everything that we are able to do as humans but only do once our shadow has taken over. The shadow, the darkness within us, is what is so present in the underworld that the entire world is enveloped in darkness, under this shadow. When taken symbolically, this movie works beautifully and it makes sense to have the evil villain kidnap the child of our tiger mother heroine and also try to harvest her organs. This villain, named Thanh Soi, appears to be something like a big bad wolf who goes around and devours children. Being a female antagonist, she represents the ruthless underworld and chaos that causes the world to be so treacherous and causes the tiger mother to be so dedicated.
I have nothing but praise for this first movie because it sticks so close to mythology and fits itself into an alchemical form of storytelling. It’s no surprise this movie was nominated for awards and it probably would have won a lot of them if people respected the beautiful choreography and neon noir aesthetics. I would even go far enough to say that it’s one of my favorite action movies of the decade, if not in the top 10 of all time. It provides a female action heroine in a way that works because she is entirely feminine in her approach to everything, down to her not really having a hero’s journey because that’s reserved for the male assistant she has, who is in the form of a detective.
Sadly, thanks to the colors pink and purple always being present in these neon noir movies, we have encountered a massive issue in how these kinds of movies will be made in the future.
For a quick reminder, noir is the film genre where a cynical hero enters an existentialist journey that changes them for the worst because they were touched by the darkest elements of the world. In noir, the femme fatale always aids in bringing this male hero to his downfall, because the femme fatale is a representation of Lilith and this existential crisis our hero enters represents the fallen state of Adam. These stories are aided by German expressionism and poetic realism, to both ground and extend the story into an almost surreal world that we can relate to. The inner mind of the hero gets reflected out onto the world to cause this expressionism, which allows aspects like elongated shadows and warped environments to symbolically fit into the story and make it look fascinating.
Neo-noir is a postmodernist form of this genre that takes some of the aspects of noir and tries to experiment with more current trends, keeping some of the aesthetics and aspects that resulted from decades of pulp stories being told and merged together in what I would like to call “mental slop” that is created in media by merging elements together after years of experimentation and deconstruction. No longer does it have to do with a cynical hero or an existential crisis, because now the barriers of the genre are removed and people simply recognize it as noir for some vague aspects that might relate to noir, such as dealing with a criminal underworld or the snappy way hardboiled dialogue would be written.
A good way to put it is that neo-noir holds noir “themes” and “sensibilities”.
This is further continued into neon noir, which is not a fully established genre quite yet, but is noticed recently with the increased popularity of retrowave and cyberpunk. The neon lights of the 80s are brought into this neo-noir story to create a contrast between two colors, similar to how noir was filmed in black and white. This is an aesthetic choice and is usually in the form of contrasting purple against a blue because these are complimentary colors. Lights are very present in this new genre, but the light is less of a source of clarity and more like a new form of obscurity. The expressionism in these movies are used for mood enhancing, due to the tranquility of blue and the excitement of red.
All of this is important to note because postmodernists will take everything that works about these factors and then try to avoid anything that makes sense about it. They go by whatever they feel and hope their experimentation doesn’t blow up in their face. Sometimes it works, like in the case of the movie Drive, and other times it doesn’t like in the sequel to Furie called Furies.
Everything was set up for this sequel. There was no way for it to be worse. It had more money, it had Hollywood investing in it, and the concept of the tiger mother can be used as much as any typical action hero setup could be used. Just have a villain who runs a crime syndicate, have a person who was wronged by this crime lord, they seek out revenge, and it ends with the villain being defeated.
Simple, right?
Well… this movie didn’t do that. I mean, it did, but it didn’t in the way that works. There’s a villain, a male drug lord who runs a casino and kidnaps women to sell their bodies for sex. There is a person who is wronged, who is a woman that lost her husband and child at the hands of this drug lord. This woman is seeking revenge and she defeats the villain at the end.
But she’s not the protagonist. She’s not even A protagonist. In fact, they made her the actual villain of the story. The villain… kills the villain. They probably thought they were doing a “Darth Vader killing off the Emperor” kind of thing, but they weren’t.
We are told in the beginning that this woman is to be like a mentor, the fairy godmother who protects our protagonist and guides her through this treacherous world. She’s meant to be a sort of adopted tiger mother, the way lesbians do it, and instead turns into the wicked stepmother by the end. But it seems I’m getting ahead of myself, so I’ll explain this story in a more coherent manner.
This sequel is a prequel. It happens before the first movie. We are introduced to a character named Bi(pronounced like BEE) who claims in a monologue that she was “destined for darkness”. Hey, makes sense. The Furies were born from Nyx in one of the mythologies, so being born from night to be destined for darkness is a sort of match made in heaven for this kind of character.
She becomes a homeless wreck after a drunk man tries to rape her and killed her mother. She killed him and is forever reminded of that moment every time she gets blood on her hands(a running theme we will see later). This is where a lady named Jacqueline finds her and brings her under her wing, hiding her with two other girls. Symbolically, we can determine these three girls are meant to be the furies: Alecto (“Unceasing in Anger”), Tisiphone (“Avenger of Murder”), and Megaera (“Jealous”).
Already, this entire thing fell apart and deviated from the mythology.
I say this because the other two girls are nothing like the furies of mythology and I can only assume Bi is meant to be Tisiphone because her mother was murdered. But she already got her revenge, so there’s not much for her to do in that regard. The girl named Hong is meant to be a cute Harley Quinn style psycho and the girl Thanh Soi is meant to be a butch biker. The two girls want their own forms of revenge against the drug lord that runs the streets they live in, mostly because both used to be slave girls and want to free their fellow women who have been enslaved. Jacqueline convinced them that she wants to free the slave girls as well, and all of this training that she puts them through is for this mission, but there’s a catch.
Jacqueline kept her relationship with this drug lord secret, because she was working with him and ended up having her husband and child killed by this drug lord. For years, she planned out revenge and set up several spies within his ranks, including the boyfriend of Hong. All of this is revealed in the end, so we go through the whole movie believing they are out for vigilante justice against crimes, specifically against women, when it was all because a bitter mother was betrayed after trusting a man too much. Already, this sounds like a mess, and it is. This prequel makes such a simple story incredibly convoluted and tries to use twists as a plaster for weak narrative and symbol subversion. But there’s a reason for this.
The woman who acted as the main heroine in the first movie also plays the role of Jacqueline. These are two different women in the movie’s setting, being played by the same woman. On top of that, the first movie was directed by a man and now this prequel is written and directed by… this same actress in question, Veronica Ngo. That’s right, she decided to play the villain after she wrote the script and directed the entire thing.
It was designed for this woman to crank herself silly.
And boy does it show in the movie. Quite literally in every scene. I say this because the first movie held shots for a while and had the simple story unfold slowly, with long moments to settle down and let the beautiful environment sink in. In the prequel, we are supposed to enjoy flashing colors as every scene is cut and edited like a movie trailer. I’m not kidding when I say that.
Every. Single. Scene.
Even the scene where Bi is being raped by a drunkard is treated like a movie trailer, with the camera changing all over the place and music playing as she monologues about how everything sucks. This camera is a massive pain to sit through, because it’s either constantly moving, getting splashed with CGI blood, zooming over people’s shoulders, or switching between 5 different conversations before a single thought could be finalized. It does that thing where someone is talking in a different scene and then a few seconds later the camera goes to where the person is talking, as if the transition was meant to be meaningful, but it would be for any little thing.
This is the sign of someone trying to experiment with things but are completely incompetent in what they’re doing. It gets worse when we enter fight scenes that look like they were edited frame by frame to hide the fact that they didn’t know what they wanted the fights to look like. The only time a camera holds for longer than a second is when someone dies off screen or Bi starts to suffer from her PTSD. And boy does she suffer.
They have a moment where she kills a random goon, gets blood on her hands, and when they return to their hideout, she vomits in the sink. She gets flashbacks to her first assault and the day her mother dies, which results in her trying to fight Thanh when she tries to calm Bi down. They fight in the bathroom and one of them knocks a valve loose, which causes the shower to turn on and shower both of them as they try to grapple and fall to their knees. This moment is meant to be a loving embrace between sisters during a time of need and support, with Thanh being a protective sister who is dedicated in making sure the new sister is able to get through harsh mental anguish whenever she is triggered.
This, my friend, is the entire problem with this movie.
I understand it’s meant to be emotional and heartfelt. I don’t deny there is thought put behind a moment like this. The music swells, the colors are somber, the water slowly falls on them as if to say the water purifies their thoughts and cools their head. I get it. But what the hell does any of that have to do with being a fury?
This isn’t about taking vengeance, this all feminist woes being presented for the sake of representation. Hong later on has a birthday party and they all celebrate by singing 90s songs(because this movie is meant to take place in the 90s) and when Bi came into the picture they had a makeover montage. This is an action movie written like a teen romcom without the romance and nothing in it is meant to be comedic. There are light hearted moments, sure, but I would never call it a comedy except for this one moment where a drug addict begs for drugs and the drug lord throws it on the ground for him to snort it, and then the drug lord pisses all over him.
To me, that is funny, but it’s treated as a horrible moment to make us hate the villain who doesn’t even really do anything. One of the most disappointing moments is when the furies sneak into a bedroom with him by disguising themselves as club whores and they have the perfect moment to kill him. Bi messes up by being too obvious with her stab attack and he runs away with a slight wound. This is where we have a fight that is meant to be a key moment: a hallway decorated with silhouettes of dancing women as the place fills up with black suited goons.
This moment is meant to show how brave and powerful the girls are, and all it does is accidentally present a massive stereotype where women can't get the job done and they are granted luxuries by having beautiful bodies while wearing a lot of makeup. When I saw this, I figured at least the action scenes will make up for the lack of theme, and… boy was I wrong.
These action scenes, as I said before, are a mess. Everything is a close up so we can’t see what’s going on and every attack is a wide swing that gets blocked by an arm that comes up 5 seconds too early. There is this back and forth that happens with each fight that makes it look functional and the music keeps it pumping, but it always looks like the fight coordinador told them to do everything wrong as a joke and the director was none the wiser. There are even moments where they use the wrong sound effect, like when someone gets punched and it does the stabbing sound effect.
Sure these are tiny technical things, but it gets worse when I am forced to mention the infamous bike scene.
So, Hong dies at the hands of this guy called Son, who is meant to be the dragon below the drug lord. Her boyfriend sees it, with her boyfriend acting as a spy who has infiltrated the drug lord’s ranks, so he’s standing there shocked and everyone ignores him. The remaining two sisters decided to run away on a bike and ensue in a chase sequence that is some of the worst CGI fighting I’ve seen in a while. There was no reason for any of this, they just put it in because the director thought it would look cool. I have no idea what it is with women and motorcycle chases, but there’s something where a woman on a motorcycle is seen as a “sexy” thing, specifically for women.
Not sexy to be sexual, but it’s something that women find aesthetically pleasing, and I can only imagine that it has something to do with the feeling of a bike vibrating between their legs. It also has to do with the idea of danger, because it’s easier to fall off a motorcycle than it is to fall out of a car with the doors closed. That, and I think it’s a fantasy for women to actually ride them without crashing. It’s the director’s way of saying “See! Women can ride motorcycles too!”, as if refraining from instantly crashing is an achievement.
But considering these are women and they are Asian, the fact they are not crashing instantly is a miracle.
What makes it funny is that in order to say “women can ride motorcycles too”, they put these women on a motorcycle and then transition it into a CGI race through the city with the motorcycle sitting in place in front of a greenscreen. We can easily tell this is happening because the wheels aren’t moving and there is the world’s fakest looking background flying by with whacky angles and movements being made with the camera. Bad guys fly into the screen from behind like TIE fighters in the old Star Wars movies, clearly breaking through the scenery, and I could not stop laughing at how terrible it all looked. And they somehow managed to make it worse by having a moment where one of the girls gets knocked off the bike and the other keeps riding to go up a ramp and onto a roof, only to get knocked off the bike herself and the bike flies off the roof and explodes in a corner.
I think I forgot to mention this but EVERYTHING EXPLODES in this movie. It’s as if the direct thought “hey, this part doesn’t have much substance to it, let’s fill it up with explosions.” There’s even a part earlier where they light a building on fire because it was a place where girls were being held captive. They throw lighters in random areas that have lamp oil or alcohol conveniently placed for them and random areas of the building start blowing up. What are you guys lacing in your cocaine over there, nitroglycerin?
Finally, we come back to the ending, the part of the story that ruined it for the movie. Bi and Thanh go to the drug lord’s hideout, they seek revenge for their lost sister, and meanwhile we have Hong’s boyfriend kill Son because… he was her boyfriend and had sex with her. Way to go movie, that sure shows what men care for. We only fight for those we bang and the sex was really that important for him. Forget meaningful things like a firmly built relationship or a child being made between a man and a woman, those aren’t important to a man. It’s all about the dedication someone has to a girl who sold her body for money.
But you know what? His motives and story aren’t important because we don’t even really see him. In fact, they bring in several characters that we’ve never seen before and act as if we’re supposed to know them. This is when they enter the drug lord’s underground casino, with the casino representing a massive gamble that this entire mission has been taking. However, the concept of gambling doesn’t mean much since the story repeatedly hits us with talk about fate, which is meant to relate to the sisters of fate in Greek mythology. I thought we were going to get some kind of motif going on every time they mentioned fate, but they just said “this is our fate” and that was it.
So they enter the casino and start shooting up the place. I don’t know what guns they are using, but they have enough ammo in their magazines to practically be infinite. There’s even an editing flub where they were supposed to show one of the girls reload, but they just show her pulling the slide back to load a bullet in the chamber, as if that’s enough. At least this part of the movie tries to implement gun-fu, but the way they do it is surreal because it’s entirely for show and there’s nothing practical in any of their attacks. They come with limited ammo and see themselves outnumbered, but they end up shooting people in the hands and feet while fighting as a way to ease off some attacks, to then shoot the enemy in the head.
Fast forward a bit and we have one of the stupidest twists enacted on screen. Jacqueline came with the girls to finish this once and for all, and while fighting she is seen getting stabbed in the back by a henchman. The drug lord watches it happen on a CCTV and celebrates. This looks like a perfect time for Bi to get her revenge on the main villain. But no, that would be the smart thing to do.
Instead, they have Bi and Thanh held at gunpoint in a room after a surprisingly difficult fight against a crackhead armed with a syringe who walked up to them like a zombie, and no I am not making that up. It sounds stupid, because it is, but they put that into the movie because someone decided it would be a good time to include something zombie related in a movie that has nothing to do with zombies. So, they’re held at gunpoint and then Jacqueline barges in and shoots the drug lord’s limbs to make sure he suffers. The boyfriend of Hong also comes in and is like “yeah, let’s get our revenge on this sick bastard”.
Then Jacqueline shoots the boyfriend of Hong. Everyone in the room is like “what the hell is going on?!” and Jacqueline kills off the drug lord and goes “Ok, now Thanh has to kill Bi” and both of them are just as confused as the audience. Even if Jacqueline was this new villain who becomes the new drug lord, it’s not like either of the girls would join her if she continued the sex trade. So, Thanh does the expected and tries to shoot Jacqueline instead, but was too slow and gets shot herself. The final fight is between Jacqueline and Bi, with Bi shooting Jacqueline several times.
But this is the part that made me really pissed: they fire the same gun over 30 times without reloading and then the second the gun is trained on Bi’s head… it’s empty.
The only way for this to be more convenient for Bi is if a bird flew in and airdropped a white turd into the eye of Jacqueline and had it explode for good measure. But because that didn’t happen, we have Bi tired as all hell and she collapses in a room full of dead bodies. Police come in and find her alive, arrest her, and then imprison her for 15 years. The big twist of this, the reason this is a prequel is revealed in this single moment where we see her leave her jail cell.
Who was Bi this whole time?
She was the villain of the first movie: Thanh Soi.
Apparently, the name is meant to be something like “she-wolf” and she took the name in honor of her dedicated sister in battle, Thanh Soi. This means that this entire time, the one we’re to be rooting for ends up being this horrible monster from the first movie that was kidnapping children and harvesting their organs. All because she… didn’t like to get blood on her hands.
If you think that none of this makes sense: welcome to the club.
The first movie was brilliant and coherent all the way down to a mythological level. It hit us deep in our unconscious and is something to be remembered years after watching it for how heartfelt each scene was made. It even brought some sympathy to some of the villains with how one of them was spared by the tiger mother because the guy’s own mother was present. It followed a theme of motherhood, while the second movie tried to follow a theme of sisterhood.
Where motherhood was filled with morals and justice, the sisterhood was filled with contradictions and partying.
I do not believe this was done out of a lack of budget or a rushed job. This was the result of how wokeness infiltrates even some of the least western influenced countries to create senseless garbage that nobody likes. We are not only to sympathize with one villain, but we are told that we have to sympathize with two, while the male villains are completely reprehensible. This movie was designed with woke Charlie’s Angels in mind and it shows with how they took three women to fight for a mentor and the only male on the team is treated like a bag of meat. What makes it more hilarious for me is that I’m constantly told by the woke that it’s bad to give women tragic backstories for why they become villains and there’s no excuse for having rape as part of this tragic backstory.
This is the feminism that is designed to trigger western feminists while hoping that Hollywood accepts it as “feminist enough”. This movie was not designed with men in mind, because female action movies are always plagued with over edited fight scenes, girl power moments, and romcom montages. I wish I was kidding, but I have yet to see a female focused action movie that refrained from doing these pointless representation calls, because the goal is to represent in this way.
She Hulk, Charlie's Angels, feminist Ghost Busters, Men in Black International, Atomic Blonde, Captain Marvel, Gunpowder Milkshake, Lucy, Jupiter Ascending, Disney Star Wars, basically every Disney and Pixar movie now. All of these movies are designed specifically to say women can do stuff guys can and then fail to show them doing stuff guys can. Then they wonder why these movies flop and get memed into oblivion. The only people who care about seeing a woman beating up men are angry women, because that is a low resolution view of what the movie is even supposed to say. The only people begging to see that on screen are women who hate men enough to want to beat them up.
This is not a lot of people. This is surprisingly a small fraction of the population and this is who these movies are trying to appeal to. Everything else around this low resolution declaration is meant to be spectacle for the sake of spectacle.
Why did the motorcycle explode? Because explosions are cool.
Why did the girls light a building on fire? Because fire is cool and it leads to explosions.
Why are they shooting the limbs of people? Because shooting limbs is cool.
Why does the camera get covered in CGI blood every 5 seconds? Because blood splatters are cool.
I’m not going to sit here and say something like that lacks style. It has style and it is spectacular. But when placed in a movie with zero meaning and zero purpose, this baseless spectacle gets lost in a sea of nonsense and there’s nothing to hold onto other than the possible impressive choreography or the impressive practical effects. This movie had a little bit of something, but it could never hold a candle to the dedication and effort put into the first movie. I also want to mention the camera work because this is also tied into woke ideology.
Every time the plot is trying to be expressed or shown, the camera and scenes are given the smallest amount of lingering. For example, a turf war begins after they blow up the slave holding… place and it’s shown as a turf war in two events. A person gets shot and people start getting attacked by random. These events lasted for about 5 seconds each. We’re told that Bi is homeless and fighting the local gang by having her steal a wallet and then have someone shout “hey, this is our turf!” all in the span of 5 seconds. We go from the girls going through an outfit montage during a plan to the girls working at the club of the drug lord in about 5 seconds.
If you didn’t get it by now: everything in this movie goes by the 5 second rule, but only when it is about the plot.
Do you want to know what lasts longer than 5 seconds? Moments where the girls are talking about stuff they like and parts where they pose together to present girl power. So to the woke, it takes the tiniest amount of time to show how someone enters the worst stage of their life, but it takes minutes to let us know that these girls plan to stick together and fight side by side. Everything important is done with quick flashes and everything unimportant is lingered on. This is a tactic of the woke to bring the mundane into the essential.
The goal is to feature tiny bits of important things to let the viewer understand why they are in that position, and then hammer in the idea of wokeness that the director or writer wanted to virtue signal for. The woke do not dedicate their focus on the themes of the story that matter to the audience and instead force the viewer to put up with things the woke writer is focused on so that the propaganda is viewed in the first place. We are promised a story about a mother seeking revenge and instead we are treated with the rise of a villain who became that way because she was abused as a child.
Using the woke lens of intersectionality and critical feminist theory, we can determine that the themes of this movie dwindled into arbitrary concepts like PTSD and girls trying to stay friends till the end. All of these are the result of mental weakness and toxic behavior that is now being given an excuse because the context of why they do these toxic actions are presented, even if it’s for 5 seconds. Now a woman like Bi is able to be excused for harvesting the organs of children and even blame men because it all started when her mother was a prostitute and a random drunk guy raped her. This is the polar opposite from how a tiger mother acts, because we are not trying to give excuses for a dedicated mother doing what a dedicated mother does. The tiger mother is a big part of what causes us to survive and is something to strive for because that’s what allows us to reproduce.
Being raped and then suffering PTSD over it doesn’t.
Thanks to intersectionality, the woke demand to present vices as virtuous and weakness as strength because this is how they take the outliers and bring them to the center. This goes beyond postmodernist subjectivity. It becomes subjective advocacy to obfuscate reality itself and pretend it’s incoherent just because their own agenda is incoherent. This is why every time there is a rule, they will pretend there is an exception to it, just because they don’t understand what that rule is or it’s not detailed in a way that prevents horribly bad faith takes. Every established rule for writing established doesn’t have an exception, just an attempt to reject what’s actually effective. These rules were established because they work and because people respond to them positively.
The woke hate positive results because those are the results that signify the rules work.
I don’t mind a female lead in a movie. I also don’t mind when a female lead is in an action movie. I don’t even mind a sisterhood or girls having magic powers or anything like that. Those things make sense to me when they are done properly, which the movie Furie did when they had the tiger mother as the protagonist and a harvester of child organs as the antagonist. That makes 100% sense to me, both symbolically and entertainment wise.
What I don’t like is when wokeness barges into established IPs and tries to change everything to say absolutely nothing of value. I’ve noticed that these feminist and LGBT stories always try to deal with the same nonsense that is done in a sad attempt to connect with some sort of audience they have in mind. Sexual abuse, PTSD, feeling oppressed, mental disorders, spousal abuse, prostitution, sexual deviancy, leaving their family to be with a sexual partner, drug abuse, being found by a guardian lesbian to feel protected, entering a sisterhood or a group of fellow LGBT agents of destruction.
These types of stories don’t mean anything to normal people. We can see some of these things as a terrible thing to have happen and we can attach a negative symbol to these things, but there’s no way in hell a person who’s never experienced any of this feels represented. The representation of a minority, that just wants to claim oppression because of their own choices or because of something that rarely happens, is a losing game. Normal people will either hate it or not care. I have every reason to blame the director for these horrible decisions and I have every reason to claim her poor decisions are because she fell for woke nonsense as a woman.
But no matter what, I refuse to let such an issue deter me from liking the first movie, even though she’s the main actress. The people featured in a story mean nothing to the story outside of how well they can act the part and be the character. Now we even have to say that the actor must retain the source material and culturally make sense, all because the woke want to bring the outliers to the center and turn every Disney character black. Especially the red heads. I only covered the feminist aspect of wokeness here, so we can leave woke race swapping for another time.
Furie is an amazing movie that will be remembered positively for years to come.
Furies is woke trash that will only be remembered for how terrible it was.

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Currently 1:02 am, I just finished jerking off and in the midst of drinking for the second time today. I feel so lost and not sure what to do, it's been like this for a while now. Felt like I should seek out to others, maybe it'll help somehow, at least that thought was one of many in my head. Let me tell you about my situation.
I am currently 17 years old (just turned 17 in february), last yeasemester of high school. Steady grades, have an accepted offer to a great university next year. My individual net worth around ~$70k, stocks/cash/other various assets. No job, but I am currently making about ~$300 a day, 5 days a week, so about $6,000 a month. Been making $300 a day, a three months ago or so (Note that this income I generate with less than an hour of days work, not much labor, just analysis). Happy family, two little siblings I have good relationships with, parents whom I have good relationships with. Household income ~$150,000 or so, needless to say my parents provide me a comfortable lifestyle. I have a beautiful girl I am very happy with. I have a good circle of friends who are there to support me and whom I can trust with my life. My health is good, I workout 5-6 times a week, no sicknesses in the last 9 months and I've been eating a healthy diet. I play sports, basketball & volleyball which seasons for both have ended now, so not currently in sports. I read books, self-help, philosophy, business/finance. I do not feel overworked, or exhausted physically or mentally. I do not ever feel overwhelmed by things going on in my life. All in all, I would say I'm doing pretty good for myself. But these issues still arise, issues in which I will explain in the next paragraph.
So, if you're still here, I appreciate you very much for reading all this. I will be going on a rant about things I feel are rather odd in my life. Let's begin. Starting things off, I will speak about my head.. haha bizarre to say isn't it? Anyway, even after all the things I told you about myself, my situation which my friends envy, and tell me that I am doing quite "amazing' for someone my age, same words spoken by those I know whom are older than me. I feel like absolute shit, I feel like NOTHING. I FEEL AS IF IM NOT ENOUGH, I NEVER FEEL SATISIFED, WHAT MORE CAN I DO?????? LIKE FUCK, I HAVE MONEY, I HAVE AMAZING FRIENDS, THE BEST GIRLFRIEND, A GOOD FAMILY, MVP/STARTERS ON MY SPORTS TEAMS, WHAT MORE CAN I ASK FOR, I DONT FUCKING KNOW. im sorry, i kind of went off on a tangent and let my feelings get the best of me, i apologize. but yeah, i feel as if im not enough, i dont eveer feel satisifed, i feel like im not doing enough, that i am so behind in life. like a couple hours ago, i was on a daily call i have with my girlfriend, i was experiecing an anxiety attack and ranting to my girlfriend about how i feel worthless and that im not shit, that im a fucking loser. thats how i feel about my situation. moving on to the next issue, i think i have mental health issues, not quite sure, never diagnosed and i prefer not to self diagnose because thats stupid. but there's times i speak to myself, i know everyone does that. but i speak to a voice in my head, sometimes theres multiple, i speak to them, to other "me's", i also do not experience guilt for anything i do, i dont mind seeing others hurt if i were to gain. if i would be quite frank, i enjoy seeing others in pain. i savor it when i do get the opportunity, i LOVE inflicting pain on others, whether it be emotional or physical. i also am quite narcisstic, i do not thing any of my peers can measure to who i am, i look down on everyone. even some adults i know. sorry, let me correct myself, MOST adults, actually MOST PEOPLE i know, i look down on. i look down on others but i quite honestly hate myself, but i love myself at the same time. i feel like a walking paradox. on to the next topic, my addictions. nicotine & alcohol. the only things that make me feel okay, other than my girlfriend of course, being with her in person really does bring me peace. But I do smoke cigarettes, going through a pack a week, probably would be more if I didn't always have a vape on hand. As for alcohol, I drink nearly everyday, beer for breakfast, something hard after dinner. I believe an important thing to note is that my parents are not aware of these addictions. Okay, I think I've covered most of the bases as for my issues, at least a general idea for each one.
To sum this all up, I have some issues I desire get rid of, but I do not know how. What do I do? I feel lost, I need help. someone please, im nearly on my knees begging, someone please tell me what to do, explain to me why im like this, explain why i cant be happy, why cant i just experience peace. its been months almost a year now that ive felt like this. im so fucking tired.

The first time was when I was 12 and it failed because: dumb kid.
The second time was when I was 19 and it failed because: dumb luck (also, way too wasted to do anything competently)
The third time I guess I didn't really try. But I planned.
I had been being sucked further and further into the hole for coming on a decade. Jan 1, my new year resolution was that I wouldn't see the next Jan 1 unless something significant changed. I made a plan, swore to myself that I would take active steps to make the necessary changes but would prepare for the date I had chosen, Dec 20 (there was a reason for that date). The year was passing, and everything I tried to get help or make changes hit a dead end. Somehow it felt even more hopeless than before.
Around the end of May I started reaching out to friends (and special places) to say goodbye. They didn't know that of course. Kept trying. But solidified plans which were designed to make sure a) I succeeded, b) it was indistinguishable from an unfortunate accident to reduce the impact on family, and c) maximized pay out to support the family I left behind.
October came, and nothing. Confirmed insurance etc in place. Made the arrangements needed to execute my plan on the date specified. Reviewed the plan, did some research to make sure it would work. Started recording messages for my kids.
Dec came. I planned some extended leave to maximize the last time with my family. I suggested to my wife that we go out for a special supper while I was off. For me to say goodbye, obviously, though she wouldn't know that.
Her reaction...broke me. It was hostile, demeaning. Basically called me childish for thinking it was normal to have a romantic evening with my wife, and inconsiderate to think that just because I had time off work she was free to just drop everything for an evening.
I was back at work the next day, and in a state I can see now was dissociative. A moment came when I nearly scuppered my careful plans . It was like I was a passenger in my body, and the urge to just do it and do it now was like a pressure behind my eyes.
Good news is I didn't do it. That moment scared me so much (not a fear of dying, a fear of it happening out of my control) and in the time until my "deadline" I finally managed to get the kind of help I needed.
That was Dec 2017. Meds and therapy later, I guess I'm in a better place. But there are still days where I am way too close to the ragged edge. Today I had to close the door to my office and pretend to be in a call so I'd have time to fight down the urge to cry and self-harm.
I feel worthless and filled with guilt and like a failure on a nearly daily basis.
They see a successful, popular professional. I slap on a smile for the public. I joke and treat my reports as kindly as I can. I take the shit before it gets to them because I don't think they deserve it....but I do. My ex-wife thinks I left her because I didn't like married life, but it's because the things she said to me - especially after she learned I was in treatment - both broke my trust and underlined things I already hated myself for. And the shame of leaving my children eats me every single day.
No one has a clue how bad I feel inside except my doctors. I have no one to tell. And I'm not sure how much longer I can stay in this "better" place, or if it's even worth it.

Currently 1:02 am, I just finished jerking off and in the midst of drinking for the second time today. I feel so lost and not sure what to do, it's been like this for a while now. Felt like I should seek out to others, maybe it'll help somehow, at least that thought was one of many in my head. Let me tell you about my situation.
I am currently 17 years old (just turned 17 in february), last yeasemester of high school. Steady grades, have an accepted offer to a great university next year. My individual net worth around ~$70k, stocks/cash/other various assets. No job, but I am currently making about ~$300 a day, 5 days a week, so about $6,000 a month. Been making $300 a day, a three months ago or so (Note that this income I generate with less than an hour of days work, not much labor, just analysis). Happy family, two little siblings I have good relationships with, parents whom I have good relationships with. Household income ~$150,000 or so, needless to say my parents provide me a comfortable lifestyle. I have a beautiful girl I am very happy with. I have a good circle of friends who are there to support me and whom I can trust with my life. My health is good, I workout 5-6 times a week, no sicknesses in the last 9 months and I've been eating a healthy diet. I play sports, basketball & volleyball which seasons for both have ended now, so not currently in sports. I read books, self-help, philosophy, business/finance. I do not feel overworked, or exhausted physically or mentally. I do not ever feel overwhelmed by things going on in my life. All in all, I would say I'm doing pretty good for myself. But these issues still arise, issues in which I will explain in the next paragraph.
So, if you're still here, I appreciate you very much for reading all this. I will be going on a rant about things I feel are rather odd in my life. Let's begin. Starting things off, I will speak about my head.. haha bizarre to say isn't it? Anyway, even after all the things I told you about myself, my situation which my friends envy, and tell me that I am doing quite "amazing' for someone my age, same words spoken by those I know whom are older than me. I feel like absolute shit, I feel like NOTHING. I FEEL AS IF IM NOT ENOUGH, I NEVER FEEL SATISIFED, WHAT MORE CAN I DO?????? LIKE FUCK, I HAVE MONEY, I HAVE AMAZING FRIENDS, THE BEST GIRLFRIEND, A GOOD FAMILY, MVP/STARTERS ON MY SPORTS TEAMS, WHAT MORE CAN I ASK FOR, I DONT FUCKING KNOW. im sorry, i kind of went off on a tangent and let my feelings get the best of me, i apologize. but yeah, i feel as if im not enough, i dont eveer feel satisifed, i feel like im not doing enough, that i am so behind in life. like a couple hours ago, i was on a daily call i have with my girlfriend, i was experiecing an anxiety attack and ranting to my girlfriend about how i feel worthless and that im not shit, that im a fucking loser. thats how i feel about my situation. moving on to the next issue, i think i have mental health issues, not quite sure, never diagnosed and i prefer not to self diagnose because thats stupid. but there's times i speak to myself, i know everyone does that. but i speak to a voice in my head, sometimes theres multiple, i speak to them, to other "me's", i also do not experience guilt for anything i do, i dont mind seeing others hurt if i were to gain. if i would be quite frank, i enjoy seeing others in pain. i savor it when i do get the opportunity, i LOVE inflicting pain on others, whether it be emotional or physical. i also am quite narcisstic, i do not thing any of my peers can measure to who i am, i look down on everyone. even some adults i know. sorry, let me correct myself, MOST adults, actually MOST PEOPLE i know, i look down on. i look down on others but i quite honestly hate myself, but i love myself at the same time. i feel like a walking paradox. on to the next topic, my addictions. nicotine & alcohol. the only things that make me feel okay, other than my girlfriend of course, being with her in person really does bring me peace. But I do smoke cigarettes, going through a pack a week, probably would be more if I didn't always have a vape on hand. As for alcohol, I drink nearly everyday, beer for breakfast, something hard after dinner. I believe an important thing to note is that my parents are not aware of these addictions. Okay, I think I've covered most of the bases as for my issues, at least a general idea for each one.
To sum this all up, I have some issues I desire get rid of, but I do not know how. What do I do? I feel lost, I need help. someone please, im nearly on my knees begging, someone please tell me what to do, explain to me why im like this, explain why i cant be happy, why cant i just experience peace. its been months almost a year now that ive felt like this. im so fucking tired.

I just discovered this sub yesterday and wanted to let some things out. Potential TW for mental illness and su*cide.
I (F19) and my Nmom (F45) have been arguing since yesterday about money, adulthood and responsibility. We went on a walk and ran errands on the way. It all started because I told her that I don't really feel comfortable paying for an enormous water bill that GC (F11) is causing by her baths while me and my sister (F18) only ever take showers. I already pay my mother 600PLN per month for bills+rent since I'm 18, and I get 1200PLN per month from social support for disabled people. My sister pays 500PLN. Also Nmom demands money from me for random things like car repairs, vet bills for her cats or the GCs entertainment.
She flipped out ans said that as long as I live under her roof (she's renting from someone) I have to pay whatever she decides is fair, that I contribute to the water bill too, and that actually she should be charging me more because of inflation. So... I told her that I want to get a job and move out.
This triggered her. She went on a rant about me being immature, not independent, ungrateful. She constantly shits on me for being severely depressed at age of 12-16 and that she had to stay home and take care of me. Unfortunately for her, I learned in therapy that it's not my fault that I was sick and it's her responsibility to take care of her children when they're underage. She complains that she had to do everything for me because I was too scared (again, depression) even though for a good few years I'm learning to become more and more independent. She whined that she always has to make doctor appointments for me (she doesn't, I do that myself), drive me everywhere (I use public transportation), care and pay for my two rabbits (again a lie, I do that by myself) and so on.
She tried to "make me realize" how hard and expensive living alone is. She said I will never be able to afford it. When I asked what will she do if I move out, she said "I don't know, we will most likely have to move to a smaller apartment, sell everything we own, and when (not if, she just assumed) you come back crying to me, I will have no room for you to stay". Then she straight up admitted that she relies on my disability support money to keep us afloat!
I told her that me and my sister plan to possibly rent a place together when she finishes school and goes to university. She called us ungrateful brats. I said "what am I supposed to be grateful for, years of trauma?" She, I kid you not, said "I don't think I was the cause of your trauma." She literally told me to off myself multiple times when I was a kid, and that's just the tip of the abuse iceberg.
Then, we went into a certain building that helps us with my disability documents. She continued to berate me in the waiting room, and the lady that worked there came out and asked her to be quieter or wait outside. I headed outside. And what did she do? She started cursing out the lady. I had to drag her by the sleeve out of the building. She continued to talk shit about the lady on our way home.
When we got home and I went to my room to rest and calm down, she barged in (she always does that) and said the most bone chilling thing I could imagine.
"If not for me caring for you, you would be in an insane asylum or dead by now."
And she just left. I'm still trying to process all that, going to therapy today so I think I'll feel better soon.
Later that day I went to my aunt who specializes in papers and has a printer. She helped me make a CV/Resume. While working on it, a friend called her and when she told the friend what we were working on, the friend called back and got me a job interview at a restaurant! I'm going to the interview today, and I know it doesn't automatically mean I'll get a job, but still it's a big step forward!
My mother got pissed and tried to scare me with how uncomfortable and nasty working in a restaurant is (she never worked in one) and when I refused to give a flip, she stopped talking to me and started writing little notes to communicate. She wrote a little rant about how expensive it is for her to keep us three (even though I pay for the majority of my needs) and that "I don't need your money, you can just move out and leave us all behind to become homeless and starving". Then she made a little mathematic explanation of the bill expenses, which actually showed she was OVERCHARGING me.
Now she's calling her friends and whining about god knows what, and I'm getting ready for the interview. It's still a long way before I'm able to move out. Right now, 1200PLN is not nearly enough to rent, pay for my medical needs, food and my rabbits. I will do whatever I can to get a job and run from here as soon as I can afford it.

As of recently i've come to a realization how broken my life is how much i'm hated and how much i'm just generally disliked.
I've never been a talkative person, In school i've always been someone who was known by everyone but never "liked". I want to show case the main instances i've noticed people just don't care.
Family: a little background i'm the second of five boys and parents have always been together.
starting from when I was 12 my father always told me I was worthless piece of shit regardless of trying to live up to his standards. I started playing American football because of him, I loved football and I was good at it, I always started, never had a backup or was taken out of the game. our team was centered around me, but my father always told me I was terrible and I should give up at football I was yelled at after every practice or game by my father telling me i should give up and play basketball.
My mother Has never believed in me constantly calling me dumb in a passive aggressive way even though all my teachers have called me Genius, Idk if IQ is a real testament to intelligence but i have a 134 iq and had an act score of 34. despite iq or act score my mother would always make sure i had the lowest classes in each subject because she thought I couldn't handle the "tough" classes even though my teachers would nearly beg her to put me in them.
there came a point when i had a muscle injury that took me out of sports, and later on a head related injury that caused temporary amnesia and other issues. my parents thought i was faking even after being there with me in the hospital and doctor offices, the doctors always said there were ways to help and that i could get near to the point i used to be all these were turned down.
My brothers are the most neutral people towards me, but i think that's just because they feel pitty for me after seeing how my parents treat me compared to them. they were allowed to be in the higher classes even though they flunk half of them, they were always given the best treatment for any injuries they get no matter the cost. it's not as if we have no money we have plenty, but for some reason it's never really used on me in comparison (that feels greedy to type), but it's reality I paid for shoes, car, football, basketball, clothes. whereas all my brothers get everything they want. (you'd think i'm from a different family from my brothers) they look rich I look broke in the way we dress.
Friends: I've always been a very quiet person, not shy just quiet (i've always been told to only speak when spoken too). regardless of being quiet I was known throughout my schools and areas i've lived. i have had people who i have never spoken to dislike me but i asume thats normal, but not one of my friends i've ever had have stayed I would say I really never had a "best friend" i've thought i have but it wasn't really.
I've had plenty of people who i've felt very close to people i would consider brothers or sisters to me with how much I care about them, but i've come to the realization that they don't care about me. I recently had a huge moment in my life where I was asked to give a speech I invited everyone I knew who lived nearby to this(it's an event that is always attended by friends and family.(don't want to share the exact details as it would give too much personal info). No one showed, not a single person i knew was there people i would give everything for, but no one not even family. the people who asked me to speak even asked me if i invited anyone... that hurt, when I finally mustered the courage to ask why, no answer.. then i started noticing this is how it always was. graduations,rewards,acomplishments no one was ever there.
the more i look back the more it hurts because the more i notice. where do i go from here I've always stuggled with depression for various reasons but never for anything like this, i feel like i've wasted my life by trying when i never should have. like honestly what do i do.

This is the perfect bedrock for anyone who would consider themselves an artist, for what are we if not the ultimate canvas to work upon?
We take what we see out there for granted as What It Is, yet it is truly a constant creative process of filtering out a near infinite amount of sensory data to form the appearance of a coherent reality, a coherent self and a coherent 'world out there'.
My condolences to those who didn't make it out of their journey intact, either dead or locked up by institutions who were unequipped to properly help, heal and rehabilitate those who fell through the cracks.
I even forgive those who persecute them for only doing what they've been told, surely if they knew better themselves they wouldn't participate in such an oppressive system, but they are doing what they convince themselves is necessary to survive, maybe even convincing themselves that they are helping out and doing good.
The duality of feeling like a helpless animal, yet simultaneously it's surrogate mother.
Primate programming, autopilot living or clear, relaxed awareness in the present.
Which side of the spectrum do you feel like you leaned towards today?
I don't know who or what I am, but an inference of character emerges when I observe my past actions, writing and speech.
I see someone with great potential who's only real obstacle was themselves, a shitty self-negative imprint that had to be broken apart through hard work, a Victim Complex to be Violently Crushed and replaced with a Victorious Champion mindset.
Much hard work to be done to restore my sense of worth.
I've deluded myself into thinking I was a legend in my own mind, it was just a pathetic coping mechanism.
I'm glad to feel like a miserable pathetic piece of shit, completely own it and use that as my basline to work on.
Grateful that I managed to cut weed out of my life and drop those old limiting beliefs that I require it to feel a certain way, although simultaneously I do think there is a price to pay in spending years of your life, especially teenage years activating certain circuits through drugs, with state dependant memory once you cut that drug out of your life you can feel like you've killed a part of yourself that you no longer have access to me.
It really pisses me off when I smoke weed for the first time in a while and I feel better than I have felt after months of sobriety, like clearly it's doing something therapeutic and beneficial as well but I also can't trust myself to re-introduce it into my life responsibly so I continue to abstain and spend my days in a depressive autopilot, gently nudging myself towards better habits whenever I feel possible.
Lucky I'm a stubborn bastard too with a grandiose naive view of how possible it is to transform yourself, so I still believe that I can overcome all this bullshit and not have to rely on taking some sort of medication everyday - nothing against those who do, I don't mean to hold that stereotypical cliche view of how all Western Medicine and Medication is bad and Psychiatry is a complete scam, although I might have those tendencies, I understand that it is a very nuanced and complicated topic and any remark I make I can easily undermine and find a handful of counter-arguments too - and I would prefer to cut off this incessant conceptual chatter and reconnect with the present moment, too much intellectual logical rational activity disconnects me from that, as I ironically write out this messy bullshit.
I've never worked hard in my life, far from optimally deprived - my creature comforts caused me to weaken and atrophy, psychologically and physically.
Although I isolate and distance, opportunities still fall in my lap in the strangest timing.
I ought to work up the courage to ask for the shrooms offered to me, since now would be a great time to break out of this mundane depressive reality tunnel that is making it so hard to barely function, let alone live in alignment with my highest goals.

Currently 1:02 am, I just finished jerking off and in the midst of drinking for the second time today. I feel so lost and not sure what to do, it's been like this for a while now. Felt like I should seek out to others, maybe it'll help somehow, at least that thought was one of many in my head. Let me tell you about my situation.
I am currently 17 years old (just turned 17 in february), last yeasemester of high school. Steady grades, have an accepted offer to a great university next year. My individual net worth around ~$70k, stocks/cash/other various assets. No job, but I am currently making about ~$300 a day, 5 days a week, so about $6,000 a month. Been making $300 a day, a three months ago or so (Note that this income I generate with less than an hour of days work, not much labor, just analysis). Happy family, two little siblings I have good relationships with, parents whom I have good relationships with. Household income ~$150,000 or so, needless to say my parents provide me a comfortable lifestyle. I have a beautiful girl I am very happy with. I have a good circle of friends who are there to support me and whom I can trust with my life. My health is good, I workout 5-6 times a week, no sicknesses in the last 9 months and I've been eating a healthy diet. I play sports, basketball & volleyball which seasons for both have ended now, so not currently in sports. I read books, self-help, philosophy, business/finance. I do not feel overworked, or exhausted physically or mentally. I do not ever feel overwhelmed by things going on in my life. All in all, I would say I'm doing pretty good for myself. But these issues still arise, issues in which I will explain in the next paragraph.
So, if you're still here, I appreciate you very much for reading all this. I will be going on a rant about things I feel are rather odd in my life. Let's begin. Starting things off, I will speak about my head.. haha bizarre to say isn't it? Anyway, even after all the things I told you about myself, my situation which my friends envy, and tell me that I am doing quite "amazing' for someone my age, same words spoken by those I know whom are older than me. I feel like absolute shit, I feel like NOTHING. I FEEL AS IF IM NOT ENOUGH, I NEVER FEEL SATISIFED, WHAT MORE CAN I DO?????? LIKE FUCK, I HAVE MONEY, I HAVE AMAZING FRIENDS, THE BEST GIRLFRIEND, A GOOD FAMILY, MVP/STARTERS ON MY SPORTS TEAMS, WHAT MORE CAN I ASK FOR, I DONT FUCKING KNOW. im sorry, i kind of went off on a tangent and let my feelings get the best of me, i apologize. but yeah, i feel as if im not enough, i dont eveer feel satisifed, i feel like im not doing enough, that i am so behind in life. like a couple hours ago, i was on a daily call i have with my girlfriend, i was experiecing an anxiety attack and ranting to my girlfriend about how i feel worthless and that im not shit, that im a fucking loser. thats how i feel about my situation. moving on to the next issue, i think i have mental health issues, not quite sure, never diagnosed and i prefer not to self diagnose because thats stupid. but there's times i speak to myself, i know everyone does that. but i speak to a voice in my head, sometimes theres multiple, i speak to them, to other "me's", i also do not experience guilt for anything i do, i dont mind seeing others hurt if i were to gain. if i would be quite frank, i enjoy seeing others in pain. i savor it when i do get the opportunity, i LOVE inflicting pain on others, whether it be emotional or physical. i also am quite narcisstic, i do not thing any of my peers can measure to who i am, i look down on everyone. even some adults i know. sorry, let me correct myself, MOST adults, actually MOST PEOPLE i know, i look down on. i look down on others but i quite honestly hate myself, but i love myself at the same time. i feel like a walking paradox. on to the next topic, my addictions. nicotine & alcohol. the only things that make me feel okay, other than my girlfriend of course, being with her in person really does bring me peace. But I do smoke cigarettes, going through a pack a week, probably would be more if I didn't always have a vape on hand. As for alcohol, I drink nearly everyday, beer for breakfast, something hard after dinner. I believe an important thing to note is that my parents are not aware of these addictions. Okay, I think I've covered most of the bases as for my issues, at least a general idea for each one.
To sum this all up, I have some issues I desire get rid of, but I do not know how. What do I do? I feel lost, I need help. someone please, im nearly on my knees begging, someone please tell me what to do, explain to me why im like this, explain why i cant be happy, why cant i just experience peace. its been months almost a year now that ive felt like this. im so fucking tired.

I made a post about this previous in friendship I believe as I was just venting about it, but it's gotten to a point where it's become genuinely upsetting, and I don't know what to do.
I (21F) have a friend who I've known for nearly a decade now. We had a period of a few years in our friendship where we didn't talk much (which is a story in and of itself,) but in the last half year or so we've been chatting and hanging out like normal. A few months ago she invited her friend to play some games with us. They've been friends for at least 6 years, and I met him back then as well. This guy is nearing his 40s. I told her 5 or 6 years ago that this guy made me uncomfortable, and she brushed me off. Very harshly, might I add. So when this guy started playing with us again, eventually I set a boundary that I wouldn't interact with him; the rest of the friend group was free to, but I would not under any circumstance. She then ghosted me for about two months, and now she's hanging out with us again like everything's normal. It's extremely frustrating. When I asked her if she was avoiding me she just said she wasn't and then that was that, but there were no more messages from her. I feel hurt. She started talking to the rest of our friend group before she said anything to me. She STILL hasn't said anything to me directly. I can't dictate her friends but it's so alarming to me that this dude befriended her when she was 14 and he was 30+. She was understanding when I told her but then she just disappeared. How can I bring this up with her? Is it even my place to say anything about it? I can't even begin to talk about our friendship without mentioning him since that was the catalyst for it.