1. 𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘁𝘆𝗽𝗲(𝘀) 𝗱𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘂𝘀𝘂𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆 𝘀𝗰𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝗮𝘀 𝗼𝗻 𝘁𝗲𝘀𝘁𝘀? So, let's start off with 16 Personalities. My very first result I can't remember what it was, but I feel like I had a purple avatar (I'm leaning towards INTP, hell maybe even INTJ) and can't remember if I was Turbulent or Assertive, but I was very likely Turbulent. Second time I took it I was INFP-T, and then a few more times still INFP-T. Few months later I got INTP-T. And when I take it nowadays I end up getting INFJ-T and INTP-T more. INTJ-T a few times though, INFJ-A and INTP-A once. Sakinorva I get INFJ and INTJ, Michael Caloz INFP and recently INTP, Keys2Cognition INFP and ISFJ, MistypeInvestigator I usually get INFP, but last time I did it I got INTP, IDRLabs usually INTJ or INFJ, but last time I took the test I got ISTJ or ISFJ with leading Si.
   
2. 𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗼𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗰𝗹𝗼𝗰𝗸 𝘁𝗼 𝗳𝗶𝘅 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴, 𝗮 𝗳𝗿𝗶𝗲𝗻𝗱 𝗼𝗳 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿𝘀 𝘀𝗶𝘁𝘀 𝗯𝗲𝘀𝗶𝗱𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗴𝗶𝘃𝗲𝘀 𝗮 𝗹𝗼𝘁 𝗼𝗳 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗶𝗱𝗲𝗮𝘀, 𝗻𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗺 𝗮𝗰𝘁𝘂𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆 𝗵𝗲𝗹𝗽 𝗼𝗿 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗿𝗲𝗹𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝘀𝗶𝘁𝘂𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻, 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝘆 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗳𝗶𝗻𝗱 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴. 𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗶𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻? 𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗱𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝗮𝘆? 𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗱𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗱𝗼? 𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁'𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝘁𝗿𝗮𝗶𝗻 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵𝘁? I would definitely talk about the interesting ideas, because I'd say I'm pretty open to others thoughts and opinions on things. Even though I'd be pretty anxious to get the thing that needs fixing done on time, my heart would probably be racing but still willing to talk to the person hearing their ideas out.
   
3. 𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝗼𝗳 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗺𝗼𝘀𝘁 𝗶𝗺𝗽𝗼𝗿𝘁𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘃𝗮𝗹𝘂𝗲𝘀? My most important values are my personal space, my family, friends, video games, technology, movies, TV shows, the internet, my car, food, drinks, and my college education.
   
4. 𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗶𝗻 𝗮 𝗰𝗮𝗿 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝗽𝗲𝗼𝗽𝗹𝗲, 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗽𝗲𝗼𝗽𝗹𝗲 𝗶𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗰𝗮𝗿 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝘁𝗮𝗹𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗴. 𝗦𝗼𝗺𝗲𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗺𝗮𝗸𝗲𝘀 𝗮 𝗰𝗹𝗮𝗶𝗺 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝗲𝗲 𝗮𝘀 𝗶𝗺𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗮𝗹/𝗿𝘂𝗱𝗲/𝗰𝗿𝘂𝗲𝗹. 𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗶𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗶𝗻𝘄𝗮𝗿𝗱 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻? 𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗱𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗸? 𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗱𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝗮𝘆? I'd most likely be quieter, wouldn't call them out directly for it, but give slight hints of why I'd disagree. I wouldn't flip out on the person because of it even if it would make me angry, but I would text my other friends after the car ride reflecting on why that one person said something like that.
   
5. 𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗶𝘁𝗶𝗲𝘀 𝗲𝗻𝗲𝗿𝗴𝗶𝘇𝗲𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗺𝗼𝘀𝘁? 𝗪𝗵𝘆? I'm energized by video games like Call of Duty, Fortnite, and Overwatch. I tend to be a bit more competitive when it comes to online games like that, and I value my performance in them. Same with when I used to play Tennis and Bowling. When I ride my Peloton bike, I prefer doing a lot of work in a short amount of time, rather than a long time. On the social aspect, I'm energized by hanging out with my friends sitting at a bonfire, engaging in intellectual/controversial conversations or conversations that about things that we're interested in. When I play Quiplash with my friends, I'm engaged by all the prompts and try to come up with the funniest/most shocking answer to get my friends to die laughing and vote for it.
   
6. 𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗶𝘁𝗶𝗲𝘀 𝗱𝗿𝗮𝗶𝗻𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗺𝗼𝘀𝘁? 𝗪𝗵𝘆? Very long physical activities, like if I were constantly playing a sport, walking, or biking for hours I'd feel so drained. I also can get drained by certain social situations, like I never want to stay long at things or be going out to different places all the time. I prefer being in one place with them.
   
7. 𝗗𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗯𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗲𝘃𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗿𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝗼𝗿 𝗲𝘅𝘁𝗿𝗮𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘁𝗲𝗱? 𝗪𝗵𝘆 𝗱𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗯𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗲𝘃𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁? (𝗣𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗲 𝗯𝗲 𝗮𝘀 𝗱𝗲𝘁𝗮𝗶𝗹𝗲𝗱 𝗮𝘀 𝗽𝗼𝘀𝘀𝗶𝗯𝗹𝗲) I'm definitely more introverted. I'm a very reserved guy, quiet, and shy person. Growing up as an only child was a pretty big part of this, and meeting new people was tough since it takes a lot of time for certain people to grow on me until I'm fairly comfortable with them. In school, looking back I thought I was just selectively mute. I remember just not saying a single word to people up until the 3rd grade. One of my best friends/neighbor (ENFP on 16P, could still be ENFP or ENTP) we'd get on the bus and it was weird that I just don't think I said anything until I got home, which is when I was talkative. I'd very much rather stay at home than going out everyday socializing, potentially engaging in bad behaviors. I never went to parties, American football games (being considerate of the international people here so there's no confusion :) ). My friends tried to get me to go one and wasn't sure, but once they started pressuring me I refused.
   
8. 𝗣𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗲 𝗱𝗲𝘀𝗰𝗿𝗶𝗯𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿𝘀𝗲𝗹𝗳, 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗱𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝗲𝗲 𝗮𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗴𝗿𝗲𝗮𝘁𝗲𝘀𝘁 𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗲𝗻𝗴𝘁𝗵𝘀 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗱𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝗲𝗲 𝗮𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗴𝗿𝗲𝗮𝘁𝗲𝘀𝘁 𝘄𝗲𝗮𝗸𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀𝗲𝘀? My greatest strengths are just being nice and kind towards others, being a loyal friend, good in emergencies, can be goal-oriented, and sensitive to others feelings. My weaknesses are that I can be passive-aggressive, too quiet, undisciplined (as far as school work ethic goes, I'm disciplined in my behavior), in my head a lot not focusing on what's infront of me too much, bottling up emotions, avoidant, feeling like I can't facing my problems, a bit stubborn at times, can be unmotivated, and wasting time alot with my interests when I should be doing something productive.
   
9. 𝗣𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗲 𝗱𝗲𝘀𝗰𝗿𝗶𝗯𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿𝘀𝗲𝗹𝗳 𝘄𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗲𝘀𝘀𝗲𝗱. 𝗛𝗼𝘄 𝗱𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗰𝘁 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘄𝗵𝘆? 𝗥𝗲𝗮𝗹 𝗹𝗶𝗳𝗲 𝗲𝘅𝗽𝗲𝗿𝗶𝗲𝗻𝗰𝗲𝘀 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝘄𝗲𝗹𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗲. I'd say there's a few stages of my stress. I'm usually at Stage 1 or 2, which is not outwardly showing it but internally I can feel very stressed/frustrated. Stage 2 is more panic, and I start to show it more. Stage 3 I start completely panicking, getting frustrated/more emotional especially if I'm right at a deadline and I need a certain grade to maintain good numbers. Stage 4 (doesn't happen very often) I'll have a breakdown of frustration and starting hitting things in anger and crying after.
   
10. 𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗶𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 "𝘀𝗼𝗳𝘁 𝘀𝗽𝗼𝘁"? I have a soft spot for things I'm nostalgic about. I love going back to watching old ROBLOX videos from when I played consistently, and when I watched videos of before I started playing on Youtube. I love looking back on Google Earth of places I'm familiar with and try to go back in time as far as possible to see how different things were. Like noticing old buildings that aren't there anymore, cars, little details. And I love seeing old yearbook pictures of the schools I went to, it shows a different time, where I was younger or not even born, and what would be to come into the future where I actually attended those places.
    
11. 𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗺𝗼𝘀𝘁 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗶𝗱𝗲𝗮𝘀/𝘁𝗵𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵𝘁𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗴𝗲𝘁 𝗴𝗲𝗻𝗲𝗿𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆 𝗰𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗲𝗱 𝗮𝗿𝗼𝘂𝗻𝗱 (𝘁𝗿𝘆 𝘁𝗼 𝗲𝘅𝗽𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝘀𝘄𝗲𝗿𝘀 𝗮𝘀 𝗺𝘂𝗰𝗵 𝗮𝘀 𝗽𝗼𝘀𝘀𝗶𝗯𝗹𝗲)? My thoughts and ideas that I have are mostly centered around technology. Like for example, I love playing Xbox, and I would love if Microsoft got their hands onto the portable console market, like pack all of the power of a Series S into a device that I can hold in my hands, and play it on the go if I'm at college or somewhere else. I hope they do a portable console eventually, it'll literally change everything.
    
12. 𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁'𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗼𝗽𝗶𝗻𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝗼𝗳 𝗴𝗲𝘁𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗳𝗿𝗲𝗾𝘂𝗲𝗻𝘁 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗱𝗯𝗮𝗰𝗸 𝗼𝗻 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗱𝗼? (𝗦𝗼𝗺𝗲𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗽𝗼𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗶𝘀 𝗴𝗼𝗼𝗱, 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗶𝘀 𝗯𝗮𝗱, 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝘁𝗼 𝗶𝗺𝗽𝗿𝗼𝘃𝗲) 𝗜𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝗮 𝗹𝗶𝗺𝗶𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝗼𝗳𝘁𝗲𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗱𝗯𝗮𝗰𝗸? 𝗜𝗳 𝘀𝗼, 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗶𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗹𝗶𝗺𝗶𝘁? Feedback can make me very anxious, because if it's a bit harsh it'll put me off of something, but I feel like harshness is necessary because it's the truth. And I rather someone tell me the full truth about something so I can have clarity, and refer back to it for future feedback, and also it feels REAL. None of that sugarcoat crap to make me feel better and not learn anything from it.
    
13. 𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁'𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗯𝗲𝘀𝘁 𝗮𝗱𝘃𝗶𝗰𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂'𝘃𝗲 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝗴𝗼𝘁? 𝗔𝗻𝗱 𝘄𝗵𝘆? Treat others the way you'd like to be treated. I pretty much like everything and everyone to be fair, no one higher above the other or different emotional things weighing things down.
    
14. 𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗹𝘄𝗮𝘆𝘀 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗿 𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗽𝗮𝗿𝗲𝗻𝘁𝘀? 𝗪𝗵𝘆? 𝗘𝗹𝗮𝗯𝗼𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗲 There's not really anything that I wanted to hear from them exactly. But I just definitely want to maintain the good relationship that I have with them for as long they live.
    

𝟭𝟱. 𝗛𝗼𝘄 𝗱𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗽𝗲𝗿𝗰𝗲𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗹𝗱? I perceive the world as something that evolves through time. Technology is rapidly advancing, giving advantages to people, new things are being discovered, for the benefit, or worse for the world. So many things can change over time, like I said with Google Earth I love comparing how things are now compared to back then. It shows me how much civilization has evolved, and I love thinking about how things will look in the near and far future.

Aaaaaaand my period has landed. How wonderful for me. I mean if I didn’t get it it would be concerning, but at least I would know for a fact it would be a medical concern and not a baby concern. Unless god saw me to be a fit mother for his second child but that’s unlikely. That’s one positive about having no sex life, ZERO concern about pregnancy or STIs and stuff. Would I prefer to worry and get railed every now and again? Sure. But also lately I have zero sexual energy about me anyway, I just have such little interest in it. But anyway. I have my period and I have to go to the office so I’ve stocked up my handbag with ibuprofen and tea bags. Let’s see how it goes. I must remember to mark it off in my diary, it’s my attempted way of tracking it. I’d be curious to see how close my dates are to last month. I’m really failing with my 2023 diary, I had all these hopes and dreams for it and I even bought a… cover? I can’t remember the word for it. A leather cover with pockets and stuff. This is my issue and it applies to my whole life - I’ve used it sparingly and it’s March, so therefore I shouldn’t bother for the remainder of the year because it would just be weird to have a semi filled in diary. This is my f’ing ISSUE. Fuck. And for that reason alone I’m going to use this stupid diary and write lots of stuff in it. I shall not continue being the moron I am. I really truly f myself off sometimes.
I’ve got a reasonable amount of work stuff done today, it’s a lot easier at the office I guess. One of the girls in my team came in with her twelve week old baby and I’m ready to be pregnant now. We had cake to celebrate someone’s work anniversary, it was delicious but SO rich and I felt a bit unwell afterwards and I didn’t even have much. I took the smallest slice I could reach because yknow, calories, but it was chocolate with caramel or something so it was all levels of decadence but kinda too much? I could probably eat an entire bowl of caramel though, I LIVE for caramel. Caramel and lemon/citrus are my favourite dessert things, but also vanilla. I obviously love chocolate but it’s nowhere near my favourite kind of treat. I wish I liked dark chocolate more, I don’t mind it and sometimes it’s lovely but it tastes too… grown up. I don’t think my palate is sophisticated enough for dark. I want milk chocolate and white chocolate (but only a little bit) and caramelised white chocolate. Yum yum yum. Why am I thinking about chocolate, YOURE ON A CALORIE DEFICIT YOU NUMBSKULL.
I went to collect my prescription at lunch time and I also got some new skincare bits but only because I’m going to go on a lil skin barrier Bootcamp for a fortnight or so. I’m going to use the LRP cicaplast serum and balm with an SPF in the morning and an oil in the evening. And then cleanse, obviously. SUPER simple. No actives or anything. I think my barrier is compromised and I want to try get it back in action. And then I think I should be okay to start retinol and ease up to every second night. I’m only using the medik8 retinal 3, so it’s not super potent or anything, but I think I just have skin that is a bit sensitive, a lil like me. But I’m also thirty, I can’t not be using some kind of vitamin A. I also got another claw clip because I use them ALL THE TIME. I’ve noticed I really hate having hair around my face if I can avoid it, more so if I’m feeling anxy, it really makes me start to get worked up and stuff. I think I really am someone who gets overstimulated, which makes me feel so dumb. Idk why it just does. Anyway and I think that’s all I did and I walked around the block to just be outside and move a bit as I’d been sat down all morning. I can’t walk leisurely when I’m alone, even when with people, I feel so… something. So I have to walk fast, as if I have a purpose. I think it’s so I feel less judged, because if I walk slowly when I’m alone people will think “damn what a loser with no friends” whereas if I walk fast I feel like people will think “oh she must be off to meet friends and do something”
I got laser today, just my underarms. Im getting some top up treatments over the next few months. It’s just expensive so I’m splitting it up a bit. And I’m self conscious to have my legs wide open for some stranger. I seem to be more self conscious than ever about how I look down there.
I had quite an anxy day to be honest. I didn’t feel especially low or anything, I could feel myself sinking into it a little at one point but it was more anxy than anything. Like feeling looked at and judged. I felt SO looked at today. It made me so uncomfortable and paranoid.
F me these cramps are making themselves known this time around. Not the worst I’ve had by any means but just this constant dull pain like I’m slowly being pulverised from the inside out. I was almost doubled over at work at one stage in pain but I obviously couldn’t and I couldn’t stand up either so I was pretending to read some report while crouched over my desk as inconspicuously as possible.
I’m really so so looking forward to spending time with my honeybunny tonight. Idk why he’s stuck in my mind with that name, that or baby, if he knew he would truly crucify me I’m sure. He’s honestly my favourite. Okay I’m going to stop now so I can eat then playyyy night night

Pizza Gate
A lot of arguing going on in this episode, let's get to it...
Before the show starts, we see after they leave the party last episode. Tre, Danielle and Jen A are with their husbands driving home from the party. Danielle says "The one person you don't want to have as an enemy, ME!! The "Me" sounded like a combination of a roaring lion and Al Pacino. It was something.
The next morning, we have breakfast at the Jen A with her guests. At the same time, we see Rachel and her guests eating breakfast together with her side. Of course, both sides are talking about the other side while having breakfast. Shocker! Later on, both groups will get together for lunch at Rachel's.
At Rachel's house one of the subjects is Danielle. They are very 'concerned' about why Danielle doesn't talk to her brother. Let me make this clear. The Marge doesn't speak to her kids and Jackie doesn't speak to a sister. Why do these busybodies care why she doesn't speak to her brother? Here's an idea, instead of focusing on Danielle, try fixing your own family, including you, Melissa. Damn! Now Melissa whines about her mom not being invited. The Marge asks her if she is happy Louie invited her mother to the wedding. Melissa wonders if it is a genuine invite, ffsakes get over yourself. Yes, Melissa. He meditated on it and deep down in his heart and soul he wants your mother there so bad. Is that good enough for you? Melissa's mother tweeted or liked not so nice things about Teresa years ago, so stop pretending there is a love fest here. It is not. Teresa forgave but why would she want someone who slammed her on social media at her wedding? Now let's get to Joey and pizza gate. Joey tells them Louie is nice but sometimes a dick. Producers ask if something happened between them. Joey tells them that yes something happened. There are two sides which we will get to.
Back at Jen's Teresa comes clean with her friends and tells them that Louie lost 250k investing in a pizzeria for Joey called Nonno's that Joey wanted to do with Teresa. Joey put down zero percent. Louie's lawyer said to give Joey 5% and he flipped out, because it was his idea to call it Nonno's. Idea? Pay up or deal is done! Joey also said Teresa changed the name to Skinny Pizza. I doubt she changed the name, sounds fishy to me. Joey is annoyed. Louie is not. Joey lost no money. Louie lost 250k. Why is Joey mad about this? He lost nothing. Furthermore, a few seasons back, Joey opened a pizzeria, what happened to that restaurant? It just vanished? Of course, The Marge has to butt in to say this is so hurtful to Joey.
At Rachel's Lunch it starts off okay. Oh, Adult Jennifer arrives, she has a husband named Jeff. Word on the street is people in her town don't like her, which makes her a perfect fit for being The Marge's friend of the show.
Okay party is on. The Marge, Jackie, Dolores, Adult Jennifer and Melissa's are still talking about the mother not being invited. All of them. I can't. Stop with this storyline. She was invited, so what's the problem now?Teresa tells Joey all he had to do was come to her and ask her to invite his MIL and she would have, instead he and Melissa are whining to strangers (cast members) about this.
Now we have The Marge pull aside Danielle and scold her for spreading gossip about The Marge having an arsenal of information about the women. First of all, Danielle only discussed it with Rachel, but Rachel who was talking about it as well, being the snake that Rachel is, she ran back and told The Marge what BOTH Danielle and Rachel discussed, Rachel just conveniently left out the part that she participated in the discussion. Also, The Marge is the town's gossip that tells everyone's secrets. Hey, she is such a gossip she probably worked her way up to the Garden's State gossip by now. So why is she so mad? She knows she spreads secrets (Jen A and Bill) and tries to destroy relationships (Louie and Teresa). Rachel Joins The Marge and Danielle. Rachel twisted it to make it seem like it was Danielle gossiping about The Marge. Rachel is a pot stirrer and Danile is done with her. I knew these two wouldn't be friends. Oh, the irony -- The Marge tells Danielle to stop gossiping all over the place, coming from her, really?
Now we have Louie trying to make peace between Teresa, Melissa and Joey. Give it up Louie, they even brought in therapists to repair their family. It's not going to happen. First Louie grabs Melissa to talk. He brings up her mother's invite and how wonderful Melissa's mother has been to him and her boys.
Meanwhile close by at the party, Jackie's talking about Teresa's non invite with Jen A and Dolores. Teresa's fed up by now, she wants to know why everyone is talking about this. So do I. Jackie tells her Melissa is her best friend and is very upset about this. Gag!! Tre tells her if she is so upset let her call her sisters and discuss HER guest list. Get her Tre! I can't help it, these women are being so catty towards Teresa. It's a guest list, get over it. And Melissa's mother is no saint. She said horrible things online about Teresa. Danielle chimes in to say stop gossiping about my brother. She said I blocked him on Instagram, and he lost his mind and that was it. The ladies say maybe it is the SIL (which it probably is) but mind your own business. Why do they care so much? I don't care why. Danielle tells them she is done and leaves the party. The Marge calls her a drama queen. No, she just doesn't like gossipy women talking about a sensitive subject. Danielle tells us in her confessional she is heartbroken about her brother and these women are making it worse. Danelle, you shouldn't have told them!!
Back to Louie, while he is professing his love for Melissa and her family, Teresa tries to join in with the conversation. Louie tells her to respect their space and she is not making any sense what she is saying. All she said is that she wanted to know what is going on with the wedding invite, and everyone is talking about it. She also said there's history with the family. Yeah, that bothered me. He is not a therapist, and he has no right to scold Teresa kick her out of the conversation. This is her side of the family's problem. He can't control how it all goes down. If Teresa wanted to be there and say her peace, she should be allowed to. Teresa walks away. Joey joins and Louie welcomes him. This is so weird. Okay Louie is forgiven for now ... He does say he feels bad about the invite and all the hurt between Tre, Melis and Joey, but Teresa is hurt as well, and he is marrying her in 4 weeks and wants peace. Maybe his intent is good stop with your 'therapy' speeches with Teresa on camera.
Back at the gossip table with the women. Teresa tells them her brother Joey needs therapy. Jackie tells her that is not nice. What? Therapy is not nice? Teresa goes off on her and tells her to get out of her fucking face. I would too. Jackie needs to go. I am sick of her and her nasty digs. She brings nothing but negativity and starts in with people. Teresa tells her she is getting involved with family and needs to keep out of it.
Now back to Louie and Joey, Melissa walked away to let them talk. Louie tells Joey he wears Nonno's pajamas to make his nieces feel safe. Joey's face is priceless, like wtf did he just say? It is kind of weird, but whatever. Now Teresa joins in, and they have a therapy session about the wedding. Enough! Invite, don't invite, attend, don't attend. Melissa joins in and more wedding talk. Ugh!! It gets heated and Teresa walks away. She tells Louie to fix it, she is done. So is America. Get another storyline. This time Melissa and Joey leave the party. The Marge walks up and Teresa tells her to make Melissa understand that last year.... suddenly all talk stops! Louie gets up and tells Teresa he is going to leave because he can't take it anymore. I feel you. But he scolds her in front of the group, telling her she doesn't listen. Should she sit there and let him do all the talking? He is on the fence again with me. Too controlling, but she doesn't see it, so they might be a good fit. She is mellow now. I just feel he should say these things off camera. He continues to lecture Teresa while Joey comes back and starts screaming, Louie calms him down and Joey leaves. Either Louie is the Teresa and Joey makeup whisperer, or he's controlling. I can't figure him out.
So there you have it. Pizza Gate started the demise of Louie and Joey's relationship. Teresa's father and sister never talked over $200 give or take. So I think the family is following in their footsteps.

izuko runs to home and locks his door and then goes to his room and to lock his door and sits down in the bed becomes upset and touches his head with the fear he has with his thought of what happened that night he tries to go sleep to forget what happens during the night izuko wakes up in a dream where he was asleap and he left his body and then the rooster mask guy looks at him and tells him "is this all you got, do you understand how much you are doing?" izuko answered "I dont want any of this, its not my fault I chose what I do for a living" rooster guy says "why do you think you'll have a good outcome even tho people that you remembered also remembered you?" then izuko gasps and then didnt answer then rooster guy says "it never matters how many times you forget, its all you're fault and you're the one responsible for it" izuko says "I CAN'T DEAL WITH ANY OF THIS" the rooster guy is "then I guess you'll have to find it out by yourself"
(the dream ends)
and then izuko wakes up and then checks his phone and then looks up the article about: "a knowned killer has been found dead after attempting to kill a highschool student while the other highschool student killed the killer and then ran away a 25 year old suspect who is knowned for killing child predators has attempted to kill a highschool student infront of another highschool student who was the friend of the highschool student. somehow he survived by self defense and then cuts the 25 year old mans throat after calling the highschool student a pedophile"
izuko checks the calenders and today was saturday, izuko goes to his computer to find a link where it linked a group where people kill anyone who is a pedophile, izuko uses a virtual machine and then copies the link and paste it on the browser and then pretends to be a pedophile hunter to join the group chat the group chat is filled with photos and videos of the murders happened to pedophiles izuko sens the group chat the fake address of the fake pedophile information he created and then explained the group the story of the info he found and then the members replied "thank for the info we will go find that scumbag and murder him" izuko screenshots every messages and saves the chat logs about them and then saves it on his group chat evidence folder and then saves the virtual machine progress and then wears his "wendigo mask and the clothes he recieved from mamamax"
and then takes a taxi to go to the address he sent to the taxi and then brings his weapons with him and the taxi driver drives to the address and then izuko finally arrived to the address and payed the taxi driver
then he encounters a group of members he finds from a group chat and then pulls out his weapon that starts brutally stabbing the members multple times and cuts their bodies in half and then one member survived and said "I thought you are here to kill pedophiles" izuko says "I came here to lure you into killing idiots like you" and then izuko grabs the guys throat and makes him suffocate to death and then izuko leaves the area as fast as he can, cops find izuko and told him to freeze then izuko hands up but then moves fast and shoots the multiple cops away and then finally the cops died,
izuko finds a employee entrance but gets in trouble by the body gaurds then attacks the bodygaurds and then wore they're clothes izuko enters the strip club and then walks up to the place and then a female stripper comes up to izuko, asks izuko "hey, I really like you can you follow me" izuko follows her and they enter a private room the female stripper touches izuko and tells him "lets have sex" they both have sex and kissed each other 1 hour later they both lay down in the sofa izuko cuddles her and she says "you're look kinda young but you did way better than anyone I had sex with" izuko says "that's because I believed in it"
izuko and her get up and then leave the strip club while its empty and then saw the cops
izuko told her to follow him and then they both run to the entrance where they can leave the strip club without being caught
izuko and her arrived to the backside of the gastation and then izuko told her "I wanna say that I caused all of this" she told him "its okay, I dont care what happens to other people unless I like them" izuko said "I also didnt drive the car so i'll call the taxi" she told him "sure call the taxi so we can go to my place" izuko says "ok"
she calls the taxi and the taxi arrived to the gastation and izuko and her go inside the taxi car the taxi driver asks them "where do yo wanna go" she told the taxi drive the address to her house and then the taxi drove all the way to her house and
they finally arrived
she payed the taxi and told him thank you and then izuko and her get off the car and then go to her house

Hi everyone! I’m looking to breed in the next couple of years and I’m in the stage of writing out my goals and plans so I can start buying stock now. I’m starting off in the clown project and i really love how spotnose looks with it and will probably be two morphs I get a lot of. I’m also working with GHI, Cypress and Black pastel.
I personally don’t want to deal with any morphs that express wobble (personal preference) and I know spotnose is a “wobble enhancer” to the morphs like spider, champaign, HGW, etc. I also know in its super form is causes wobble and just recently read up that super cypress also is prone to wobble. My question is in its single form would a spotnose x cypress be at risk? Anyone have tried this pair out before? I havnt been able to find any info about this yet and just looking for insight

I parked on the street in Blaine, Washington, and walked into Peace Arch State Park.
I walked past a giant scary-looking Border Patrol truck, with three agents standing around bantering loudly. They ignored me.
Walked around for maybe 20 minutes, took a couple photos, read some historical signs, didn't cross the line into Canada. Then I was walking through the parking lot and stopped to read the sign about being required to check in at the Port of Entry if crossing the border. I was standing precisely 49.000854,-122.753228. (Again, I wasn't crossing the border 🤷🏻‍♂️)
Two of the BP officers called out to me to stop, which I did. They came over and started demanding ID, information about where I was coming from, etc.
We had a good little standoff for about 10 minutes where I explained that I had entered on foot from The US half an hour prior, declined to provide them with identifying information about myself, and repeatedly asked if I was free to go. They told me no, unsurprisingly.
Eventually I relented and showed them some ID, which they glanced at for 2 seconds and let me go.
Quite an unnerving and unpleasant experience. I can't imagine how much worse it might have been if I didn't have US ID right on me.
Has this happened to others there?

Hello everyone, before i jump directly into issue, i would love to give a bit of background of our both and kind of relation we have.
Myself: I am from Asia and living in Europe. I define my self very open, direct, caring and disciplined person. I love exploring new things and being between people.
She: She is from Germany and living in Europe. She is also very open, direct, caring person. She loves interior designing and watching trash tv.
So we both came together almost a year back. During our start of relationship, we found out that we have a number things in common w.g love for designing, aesthetic, clothing (not buying any cloth with plastic in it), going out for walks and many more. But over the time, we both found that there are things on which we have totally different opinion. This is also good thing to have.Because i think having same opinion on everything is really boring in a relationship and it create no space for conversations. Going ahead, whenever we meet, we have good time cuddling and spending wonderful moments together.
But then i think either my expectations or her expectations starting kicking up. Being from different culture, sometimes it is difficult to clarify things that she asked or wanted to know and i just said her in a very open way may be (not must) she can learn a bit about my culture. She can learn it over time, there is no must. So that, when she travels with me, she doesnot feel alone or dumb sitting in people. She find it me being Pushy. She clarify it by saying: 'when i never want to live there, why should i be concern about culture. ' This was first point where our relation took a wrong turn (what i think). She love trash tv a lot. i mean all these realty shows on netflix and so. It has happened number of times that she has prioritised these shows over our meeting. Every time i tried to talk to her to find that what is happening or how we can find a solution to this: she just being agressiv in conversation, which really make me sad (don't know why, may be because of my expectations or not being respected). Everytime she wants things to go in wayy she likes. Then she says that for her, her friends and me both have same priority, She has no problem with her friends to skype like 5 hours, but she doesnot want to have 5 min. facetime with me to say good night (jus to mention, she doesnot like texting or calling in day, which i also understand and think so, as we both are busy in out daily life).
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So yesterday i asked her how about meeting this week as we haven't seen each other for 1 week, and i was trrying to loook which day, we both have time. I suggested saturday evening - she said she is going out with friends, which is good in my opinion. In relation person should also enjoy their own life. Then i suggested friday, but on friday she have other meeting with friends. Then i said ok i will shift my physiotherapy from thursday. lets meet on thursday and her answer was no, on thursday there will be live trash tv on tv. I said but you can see it in repeat teelcast and her answer was no, i am into the story. Now i dont know how can solve this problem again this time. Everytime we had such kind of situation, i have kept my hurted feelings on side and tried to solve the issue, because for me she matters and in relation one has to do it. This time i told her she should try finding and solving this issue, and she was like: 'You got angry thats your problem, solve it yourself'. Every time i explain her being immigrant far away from family is not easy. I have only her, with whom i feel being loved.
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TL ;DR: i am feeling being having no place in her life and being not respected. am i right or is it my ego ?
Any suggestions will be helpfull

Hello, my name is Jack! A 6’2 emo nerd with a dad bod without the kids. You can see what I look like on my page. So a lil bit about me ☺️

• I adore my films so much so I studied it at university and now work within that industry. Some films I love are pans labyrinth, the wind rises, perfect blue, La La land and oldboy. I have a small collection of Blu-rays which is around 160 films which you can see on here. I’d love to hear about your favs and why
  
• My music taste is very much emo, alternative, rock and indie. Some bands/artists I listen to is my chemical romance, twenty one pilots, linkin park, enter shikari, Joji, eden and sleep token. I’ve been listening to the new Fall out boy, paramore and pierce the veil albums. I love gigs, so much so I have 9 lined up this year so far.
  
• I like my video games as well. I mainly play single player games such as God of war, the last of us, hollow knight, and the Witcher to give some examples. Lately I’ve been playing Control, and Shadow of the Colossus
  
• I’m a big weeb, love anime and manga. Some of my fav anime’s are mob psycho 100, fullmetal alchemist brotherhood, Cowboy Bebop and devilman crybaby. As for what I’m watching right now, attack on Titan, bluelock and trigun Stampede
  
• As for manga Junji Ito’s work, I have a small collection of his work. Also, I enjoyed Haikyu!!, Demon slayer, Goodbye Eri, Look Back, Tokyo Ghoul. I’m currently keeping up with Jujutsu Kaisen, chainsaw man, Choujin X, and Kaiju No.8
  
• I’ve gotten into hiking and walking big time this year. I love connecting with nature and how much peace it brings to me
  
• Last thing about me is I have 14 tattoos ranging from films, anime, games and music. To stuff about mental health and nature
  

That’s basically me, please make some effort in the message or I’ll not reply. If you got this way I hope to hear from you and that you have a good day ☺️

So, I’ve been on a diet for 9.5 months now and I’m just not losing weight anymore. I started out at 250 pounds (height - 5’11”) (Age - 19) and now I’m around 190 with more muscle mass.
When I started out, I pretty much crash dieted until recently. I was at 1200 calories a day until 15 days ago. Which I know isn’t sustainable. About 3 months ago, my weight loss plateaued big time. So I started carb cycling, where I ate 2400 calories every Sunday. Didn’t work. Now I’m on 1500 calories a day and still eat 2400 calories on Sundays. I know I’m not incorrectly calculating my intake because I am a perfectionist when it comes to things like that.
I eat at least 180 grams of protein a day (used to eat at least 160 before). And account rest of my calories to carbs.
I do weightlifting 6 times a week. Don’t walk a lot because I’m taking a gap year from school. I try to incorporate some cardio through boxing, but my cardio right now isn’t that consistent.
I’ve tried everything the Internet says when it comes to weight loss plateau, but nothing has worked and my motivation is only going down.
It would be great if you guys have any suggestions. I’m also willing to take any safe supplements to boost my weight loss. (No PEDs for god’s sake). Currently only taking Animal Pak multi-vitamins. Again, any help would be really appreciated!

So, I’ve been on a diet for 9.5 months now and I’m just not losing weight anymore. I started out at 250 pounds (height - 5’11”) (Age - 19) and now I’m around 190 with more muscle mass.
When I started out, I pretty much crash dieted until recently. I was at 1200 calories a day until 15 days ago. Which I know isn’t sustainable. About 3 months ago, my weight loss plateaued big time. So I started carb cycling, where I ate 2400 calories every Sunday. Didn’t work. Now I’m on 1500 calories a day and still eat 2400 calories on Sundays. I know I’m not incorrectly calculating my intake because I am a perfectionist when it comes to things like that.
I eat at least 180 grams of protein a day (used to eat at least 160 before). And account rest of my calories to carbs.
I do weightlifting 6 times a week. Don’t walk a lot because I’m taking a gap year from school. I try to incorporate some cardio through boxing, but my cardio right now isn’t that consistent.
I’ve tried everything the Internet says when it comes to weight loss plateau, but nothing has worked and my motivation is only going down.
It would be great if you guys have any suggestions. I’m also willing to take any safe supplements to boost my weight loss. (No PEDs for god’s sake). Currently only taking Animal Pak multi-vitamins. Again, any help would be really appreciated!

I'm so fucking tired. Every time I wanna have someone over I can't because if they come over and my fat fuck for an older brother walks out shirtless they'll see him and laugh. He's so ficking fat that his tits are bigger than mine, he hasn't gotten a haircut in years, he doesn't shave, he only eats fast food from uber eats. He's fucking disgusting and I'm ashamed. Then there's my sister. My filthy fucking grub of a sister. All I wanted this year was to have 1 friend over for my birthday. That was all I fucking wanted. We never do anything for my birthday. We just sit at home, go out to get McDonald's and then eat a cheap cake from woollies. All I wanted this year was to have my friend come over and join in because then it wouldn't be so fucking boring and miserable but no I can't because my sister being the filthy fuck she is can't keep her fat, grubby, stubby, nubby sausage looking fingers out of her nasty ass overgrown nostrils and now we have to disinfect the house because she has a staaf infection. We never do anything for my birthday and I finally got the all clear to finally have someone to spend it with and I can't because my sisters a nasty cunt. I'm so tired of it. Every year I'm told we can do something for my birthday and then nothing happens because something always happens with my sister. We always have to stop anything I wanna do to accommodate her. She's not even younger than me either. She's a senior in highschool and she still picks her nose. She's fucking disgusting and I'm so done with it. All I want is to do something for my birthday like we always do for them but noooo my sisters a nasty fucking grub and now we can't do anything. I just wanted to have a friend over. That was all I asked for. Just to hang out with my friend for one fucking day. I can't do that now because my sisters a walking plastic bag of horse piss. I can't do anything AGAIN because she's fucking filthy. It's not just on my birthday either. I can't have my friends over on the weekends, the holidays, anything and it's either because my sister invited her whole friend group and my parents don't wanna watch an extra kid or because of shit like this. It's fucking annoying and I'm the one that gets yelled at for it.

Hello y’all, my name is Jack! You can see what I look like on my page. So a lil bit about me ☺️

• I adore my films so much so I studied it at university and now work within that industry. Some films I love are pans labyrinth, the wind rises, perfect blue, La La land and oldboy. I have a small collection of Blu-rays which is around 160 films which you can see on here. I’d love to hear about your favs and why
  
• My music taste is very much emo, alternative, rock and indie. Some bands/artists I listen to is my chemical romance, twenty one pilots, linkin park, enter shikari, Joji, eden and sleep token. Currently I’ve been listening to the new Fall out boy, paramore and pierce the veil albums. I love gigs, so much so I have 9 lined up this year so far.
  
• I like my video games as well. I mainly play single player games such as God of war, the last of us, hollow knight, and the Witcher to give some examples. Lately I’ve been playing Control, and Shadow of the Colossus
  
• I’m a big weeb, love anime and manga. Some of my fav anime’s are mob psycho 100, fullmetal alchemist brotherhood, Cowboy Bebop and devilman crybaby. As for what I’m watching right now, attack on Titan, bluelock and trigun Stampede
  
• As for manga Junji Ito’s work, I have a small collection of his work. Also, I enjoyed Haikyu!!, Demon slayer, Goodbye Eri, Look Back, Tokyo Ghoul. I’m currently keeping up with Jujutsu Kaisen, chainsaw man, Choujin X, and Kaiju No.8
  
• I’ve gotten into hiking and walking big time this year. I love connecting with nature and how much peace it brings to me
  
• Last thing about me is I have 14 tattoos ranging from films, anime, games and music. To stuff about mental health and nature
  

That’s basically me, please make some effort in the message or I’ll not reply. Also, I tend not to reply to people who are blank profiles sorry. If you got this way I hope to hear from you and that you have a good day ☺️

So, I’ve been on a diet for 9.5 months now and I’m just not losing weight anymore. I started out at 250 pounds (height - 5’11”) (Age - 19) and now I’m around 190 with more muscle mass.
When I started out, I pretty much crash dieted until recently. I was at 1200 calories a day until 15 days ago. Which I know isn’t sustainable. About 3 months ago, my weight loss plateaued big time. So I started carb cycling, where I ate 2400 calories every Sunday. Didn’t work. Now I’m on 1500 calories a day and still eat 2400 calories on Sundays. I know I’m not incorrectly calculating my intake because I am a perfectionist when it comes to things like that.
I eat at least 180 grams of protein a day (used to eat at least 160 before). And account rest of my calories to carbs.
I do weightlifting 6 times a week. Don’t walk a lot because I’m taking a gap year from school. I try to incorporate some cardio through boxing, but my cardio right now isn’t that consistent.
I’ve tried everything the Internet says when it comes to weight loss plateau, but nothing has worked and my motivation is only going down.
It would be great if you guys have any suggestions. I’m also willing to take any safe supplements to boost my weight loss. (No PEDs for god’s sake). Currently only taking Animal Pak multi-vitamins. Again, any help would be really appreciated!

Hello, my name is Jack! A 6’2 emo nerd with a dad bod without the kids. You can see what I look like on my page. So a lil bit about me ☺️

• I adore my films so much so I studied it at university and now work within that industry. Some films I love are pans labyrinth, the wind rises, perfect blue, La La land and oldboy. I have a small collection of Blu-rays which is around 160 films which you can see on here. I’d love to hear about your favs and why
  
• My music taste is very much emo, alternative, rock and indie. Some bands/artists I listen to is my chemical romance, twenty one pilots, linkin park, enter shikari, Joji, eden and sleep token. I’ve been listening to the new Fall out boy, paramore and pierce the veil albums. I love gigs, so much so I have 9 lined up this year so far.
  
• I like my video games as well. I mainly play single player games such as God of war, the last of us, hollow knight, and the Witcher to give some examples. Lately I’ve been playing Control, and Shadow of the Colossus
  
• I’m a big weeb, love anime and manga. Some of my fav anime’s are mob psycho 100, fullmetal alchemist brotherhood, Cowboy Bebop and devilman crybaby. As for what I’m watching right now, attack on Titan, bluelock and trigun Stampede
  
• As for manga Junji Ito’s work, I have a small collection of his work. Also, I enjoyed Haikyu!!, Demon slayer, Goodbye Eri, Look Back, Tokyo Ghoul. I’m currently keeping up with Jujutsu Kaisen, chainsaw man, Choujin X, and Kaiju No.8
  
• I’ve gotten into hiking and walking big time this year. I love connecting with nature and how much peace it brings to me
  
• Last thing about me is I have 14 tattoos ranging from films, anime, games and music. To stuff about mental health and nature
  

That’s basically me, please make some effort in the message or I’ll not reply. If you got this way I hope to hear from you and that you have a good day ☺️

I've (18M) been on vacation for the past few days with my mom and dad, and things have been a little bit tense overall. My dad has always been a bit sensitive and very open about his mental health, especially in regards to struggling with dysthymia and depression. Tonight, when we were walking around on the beach after some serious tension in the family, he begin hinting at suicide. At first, it was in reference to the idea of nonbeing, then more explicitly about how he found the samurai code to be brave in its own right. (He taught english in Japan for 20 or so years)
Eventually, he caved and explicitly said that sometimes he contemplates suicide and doesn't want to live. My mom and I immediately went to support him, but he kept saying he was fine and just to enjoy the sunset. I have never seen him like this before, and after awhile he said that he didn't want to die in the moment, that be wasn't planning on killing himself "within the next year, at least", and so on. I have never, ever seen him like this, and this is the first and only time my dad has ever just completely broken down to such an extent.
He then, after some more frantic talk, said that he absolutely wouldn't, especially if I would feel responsivle. We went back to the hotel room where things were largely in silence for a long time, with him laying in bed. He went to take a very long shower, came out, and said firmly that he wouldn't kill himself. I repeatedly floated calling services immediately but he was adamant that it was something he needed to say, not that he intended to do.
My mom and I both told him we loved him, and he reciprocated. She seems to be in a state of shock.
He told us that sometimes he loves life too much, and that's what makes it so painful for him. He said that more than depressed, he feels cruelly attached to living. He seems very very distant, and has fallen asleep without many more words (aside from giving me the Hemingway quote (his favorite author) about how life breaks people, but they heal, while others resist it, and are killed by it. The end of the quote basically states that for those who aren't exceptional, life will take its time, though it does get to all of us.)
He has always felt responsible for so many things that aren't his fault, often times including my own struggles and those of his mother (who he sadly has a poor relationship with, due to her role in his upbringing). He's also tried SSRIs, which stopped working some years back, SNRIs, and even moderate psilocybin and MDMA doses. Nothing seems to work. He has been an amazing dad throughout the years, but feels terrible for the few mistakes he's made. I've tried on and on to convince him that my own mental health issues aren't his fault, but he's been adamant.
He's also been very insistent on "getting things sorted out" and "making things right". He can't seem to elaborate on what these things mean. He's seemed much worse mentally these past few months, which I suspect may also be related to the fact that his father (with whom he is very close) is likely slipping into dementia.
We are driving home tomorrow. I need help and advice on what the fuck to do. I'm going to college in the fall and am shit scared and feel like the floor has just been torn out from under me. Please help.

Hi everyone- long time lurker for this sub. Just wondering what people think of homeschooling- do you think if its done by an experienced teacher then it can be a positive experience? My issue is: I have worked at a few schools in Western Sydney- really rough schools that reminded me of juvenile prisons. When I started working at my current school, it was SUCH a nice surprise. Kids are a lot friendlier, teachers are more organised and parents are more engaged. This being said, I still find that behaviour management issues are a really sore point of the job (as I'm sure most i you would agree with). I feel like a police woman a lot of the time, even though I do model mutual respect, listen to the kids when they have genuine concerns, etc. I don't like the authoritarian attitude that teachers inevitably have- I think its both their own attitude towards the kids and a way to appease management. For example, if I don't hand out detentions when warranted, I get told i should be doing so. When I allow kids to use the bathroom during class, I get told I should allow them to (and I hate that rule, because its hard to tell if they really need to go or if its an excuse- I don't want to make that call)
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It's a public high school, so we have some really bad students that we simply cannot get rid of. They ruin a lot of classes and their parents are horrible- our hands are tied, and we waste valuable time having meetings about how to carry out specific behaviour management plans for them.
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Anyway, from what I can see- a lot of kids simply don't want to be there, the kids are put into classes that are too large in my opinion (about 25 kids to 1 teacher), and the bad kids behave in a way that means my time is wasted on them and the 'good' kids who try to learn are sitting there bored, waiting for me to continue to do what i am suppose to do- TEACH.
I think I've lost faith in the public schooling system, because of the negative climate of many highschools. The kids are given opportunity to socialise, but i have found that a lot of the social interactions are really negative, and even the kids who ARE friends don't get time to socialise in class. Recess and lunch combined is a whole hour- this is the only form of social time they are allowed. Classes are only successful if there are no bad kids in the class, because we can't do fun lessons, because they always ruin it. Then, everybody suffers and its always theory lessons (I'm in science BTW)
How come people cop so much flack for homeschooling, in light of all these issues in schools? There are so many fights, endless mental health issues and i frequently hear teachers screaming at kids. I don't even scream at my own children, because I'm trying to teach them that verbal intimidation isn't a method to control other people. I just don't think i want this for my kids anymore. But I know that the second i tell family or friends that I want to home school, they will think I'm CRAZY. I'm not going to lie, I use to think homeschooling families were weird and antisocial. I've just seen so many negatives of the high school system (including my own high school experience). Life is short- I don't want my kids subjected to 6 years of this environment full time, where 2 hours of homework (at least) is piled on top of a 6 hour day of mostly SITTING DOWN. There are no class nature walks, barley any practicals that I'm allowed to do (they are organised during programming day). I know there are alternative schools, but we can't afford to send our kids there.
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Are there any other teachers who have seen what high school is really like and are put off sending their kids there now?

Context: I’m a 20(F) and I was working with my bf 18(M) we had precious experience working at food related services so our job was dishwashing and general cleaning.
The first 2 months were fine, we were learning the ropes of the location, where to get more cleaning supplies, where to get mops and brooms, and where to throw out trash. The work wasn’t inherently hard but it was stressful especially when we had rushed and we worked from 4pm-12am The Dishroom also had ventilation issued and was dusty so we would sometimes come home itchy.
It was alright for the most part until I got a tailbone injury but still needed to work to pay for rent.
Around the 2 month mark I started noticing small things, coworkers going missing for large chunks of time, first 30 minutes, then an hour, then an hour and thirty.
Normally I wouldn’t care as long as it doesn’t effect me or actively make my job harder, but over time it did, I would find that me and my bf would be the only ones in the Dishroom and we would be struggling to get the dishes that the cooks and sheets needed, it didn’t help that the manager would come in ask where everyone else was and I didn’t have an answer so he’d get mad.
Coupled with the tailbone pain and feeling overwhelmed I started to get more irritated by my co workers , it felt like they could just go of where ever and I was supposed to deal with whatever mess they left behind.
This went on for about 5 more months until I decided to leave, having to deal with constant rushes with no support from people who were supposed to be helping us got really irritating, they wouldn’t communicate what they were doing, the only options were on lunch, cleaning, in the bathroom or on a smoke break.
But when they did show up they would either have no dishes or a cart after an hour. Keep in mind during all of this me and my bf are doing dishes non-stop.
I even asked where one of them was to the manager but he didn’t know either. And I would look for them when I had the chance and they weren’t in any of the usual spots.
So I just it more frustrated especially when they would pop in the Dishroom and there was stuff that needed to be done but they would just walk back out. Today was my last day since I can’t deal with this anymore and me and my bf were talking to a new co worker about where our coworker was and I explained to them that they often disappear and how today was our last day and then my lazy coworker walks in and hears, then he is mad the rest of the day at me for telling them that, he even complained about me to some of the cooks (WHILE WE WERE CLEANING OUT THE MACHINE TAKING OUT THE TRASH AND CLEANING THE ROOM)
Anyways I’m going to door dash from now on, i don’t want to come home with aching back pain everyday just so I can be taken advantage of by a lazy coworkes. just hope he can deal with the workload now that were gone.

Just came out of watching the movie, and had a nice time. I recognized some songs used in the movie, like this one when he’s entering the german club. However there’s this other song that plays when he’s walking around Berlin (I think) that sounds like something by Chemical Brothers or Aphex Twin. Sorry I can’t be more specific, but any idea is welcomed.

This is the 3rd episode of season 4 and so far this season, we’ve had dog death, infidelity and corruption, but if you were looking for a lighthearted and whimsical episode to balance things out, you won’t find it here. We begin with the Ingalls girls making the trek after school to the Taylor residence, where Laura plays a part in successfully convincing Mrs. Taylor to let her daughter Ellen go swimming with them. Laura wants to use a shortcut across Busby’s place, but Mary threatens to tell Pa. Laura thinks the better of it, knowing Mary would keep her promise. They take off for the pond with a grown man watching their activities from the bushes. As it turns out, he isn’t the only one as two boys try to peep in on the girls swimming. Carrie wanders over and asks them what they are doing. The boys reply that they’re fishing, but Carrie doesn’t buy that and asks them what they are fishing with. You can mark these boys down as the first people in the universe to be outsmarted by Carrie. Carrie yells over to Laura and she, Ellen and Mary all duck down in the pond. The boys head for the hills while Laura and Mary resurface. Ellen does not. Precious moments tick by as Mary yells and admonishes Ellen for not returning. Mary is usually smarter than this. The next thing we know, it’s nightfall and the torches and canoes are out and it’s pretty clear they’re looking for a body now. How exactly Ellen drowned remains unclear. Standard Walnut Grove funeral with Reverend Alden presiding. Mrs. Taylor naturally has some trouble accepting her daughter’s death as she breaks down at the casket. Remarkably, she resumes her composure and blames Laura for the incident. Laura starts to wonder if she really is responsible, but Pa tells her she is not. Back at the Taylor residence, Reverend Alden stops by with some bible passages he thought might be of some comfort. Mrs. Taylor is not in a religious mood and evicts Alden and shouts “And take your damn book with you” while throwing the Bible at him and staring icy cold daggers at him in the process. Wild. Mrs. Taylor goes through Ellen’s mementoes a little later. Her husband walks in and now his wife is directing some of the blame at him. Eloise orders him to get out.
Over at the mill, Jonathan goes for a ride in the wheel and gets dizzy. He heads over to the Mercantile for a sarsaparilla and Reverend Alden gives him some serious crap over it, thinking that he’s drunk. This is a fairly long sequence for something that isn’t integral to the plot. This is also during that weird 4-5 episode period in between where Jonathan was introduced, but we hadn’t seen Alice or Andy yet. Alden catches up with Charles at the mill and asks him to ask Caroline to talk to Mrs. Taylor since he was getting nowhere with his efforts. Charles obliges and Caroline obliges, but she heads over to the Taylor residence to find Mr. Taylor on his way out and Mrs. Taylor not in the mood to talk and still blaming Laura for what happened. The next day, the girls are walking to school when Laura gets the idea to take some flowers to Mrs. Taylor. Mary warns her about cutting across Busby’s again, but Laura isn’t going to be dissuade this time. Laura knocks on Mrs. Taylor’s door, which pops right open. She hands Mrs. Taylor the flowers, which was apparently something Ellen did often. Mrs. Taylor goes in and out of reality, occasionally mistaking Laura for Ellen. It should be noted Laura has blonde highlights in her hair for this episode and Ellen was blonde. I’m not sure why they couldn’t just make Ellen the same hair color as Laura, but whatever. Mrs. Taylor asks Laura to fetch some apples from the fruit cellar and as Laura does, she pulls up the ladder, thus trapping Laura in the dark cellar. She then takes Laura’s flowers and books and heads out of the house.
Mary runs over to the mill from the school to inform Pa that Laura never made it to class and that she planned to go over to Mrs. Taylor’s using Busby’s place as a shortcut. Strangely, Charles and Jonathan aren’t too concerned about it. Nonetheless, they decide to check over at Mrs. Taylor’s, who denies having seen Laura that day. The guys decide to check out Busby’s place next, and we see Busby (who is a bit slow) looking at the picture book. Jonathan finds the picture book a little later and he and Charles round up some men, but nobody finds anything more of note today.
The next day, Mrs. Taylor heads over to the mercantile, where she purchases birthday candles, a birthday doll and mentions that her daughter Ellen brought her flowers yesterday. This weirds out Harriet. An absolutely unreal chain of events follows next as the men finally close in on Busby, who takes off running and Mr. Taylor shoots him in the head and nearly kills him. Keep in mind that Busby is mentally slow and hasn’t been found guilty of any crime or even charged with one. The men take Busby over to Doc Baker’s and while he’s recuperating, Charles gives him the third degree on Laura’s whereabouts, then grabs him by the collar and starts to rough him up. CHARLES INGALLS CHOKES INNOCENT PEOPLE WHO WERE JUST SHOT IN THE HEAD! Garvey gets Charles to back off. Busby responds much better to Garvey’s soft-spoken approach and answers the questions as best he can. He just wanted to look at the pictures. Surreal moment as Garvey tells Busby “Nobody here going to hurt you”, when the man that just shot him and that man that just choked him are in the room. Busby eventually passes out. Harriet busts in and informs the men about all the weirdness with Mrs. Taylor in the mercantile. Pa rushes over to the Taylor residence, but just as he does that, Laura has outsmarted Mrs. Taylor and found a way out of the cellar. Eloise gives chase and tackles Laura in a last-ditch effort, but they collapse by Ellen’s grave and reality has finally started to sink in for Mrs. Taylor. Pa reunites with Laura. Finally, after 45 minutes of child death, suggestions of child molestation and murder and innocent people being horribly attacked, we get a touching moment as Laura befriends Busby and gives him the picture book back.
Gah, that was just horrifying. Mrs. Taylor apparently suffers no consequences for kidnapping and false imprisonment. We don’t even get the “They decided to have another child” ending. Nope, nothing.
EPISODE WINNERS – Harriet once again, for leading the men in the right direction and Laura as well for enduring what she did and having the ability to outsmart an adult to get away.
EPISODE LOSERS – Mr. Taylor for being trigger happy, Mrs. Taylor for her crimes, and Charles for kicking people when they’re down.

I've (18M) been on vacation for the past few days with my mom and dad, and things have been a little bit tense overall. My dad has always been a bit sensitive and very open about his mental health, especially in regards to struggling with dysthymia and depression. Tonight, when we were walking around on the beach after some serious tension in the family, he begin hinting at suicide. At first, it was in reference to the idea of nonbeing, then more explicitly about how he found the samurai code to be brave in its own right. (He taught english in Japan for 20 or so years)
Eventually, he caved and explicitly said that sometimes he contemplates suicide and doesn't want to live. My mom and I immediately went to support him, but he kept saying he was fine and just to enjoy the sunset. I have never seen him like this before, and after awhile he said that he didn't want to die in the moment, that be wasn't planning on killing himself "within the next year, at least", and so on. I have never, ever seen him like this, and this is the first and only time my dad has ever just completely broken down to such an extent.
He then, after some more frantic talk, said that he absolutely wouldn't, especially if I would feel responsivle. We went back to the hotel room where things were largely in silence for a long time, with him laying in bed. He went to take a very long shower, came out, and said firmly that he wouldn't kill himself. I repeatedly floated calling services immediately but he was adamant that it was something he needed to say, not that he intended to do.
My mom and I both told him we loved him, and he reciprocated. She seems to be in a state of shock.
He told us that sometimes he loves life too much, and that's what makes it so painful for him. He said that more than depressed, he feels cruelly attached to living. He seems very very distant, and has fallen asleep without many more words (aside from giving me the Hemingway quote (his favorite author) about how life breaks people, but they heal, while others resist it, and are killed by it. The end of the quote basically states that for those who aren't exceptional, life will take its time, though it does get to all of us.)
He has always felt responsible for so many things that aren't his fault, often times including my own struggles and those of his mother (who he sadly has a poor relationship with, due to her role in his upbringing). He's also tried SSRIs, which stopped working some years back, SNRIs, and even moderate psilocybin and MDMA doses. Nothing seems to work. He has been an amazing dad throughout the years, but feels terrible for the few mistakes he's made. I've tried on and on to convince him that my own mental health issues aren't his fault, but he's been adamant.
He's also been very insistent on "getting things sorted out" and "making things right". He can't seem to elaborate on what these things mean. He's seemed much worse mentally these past few months, which I suspect may also be related to the fact that his father (with whom he is very close) is likely slipping into dementia.
We are driving home tomorrow. I need help and advice on what the fuck to do. I'm going to college in the fall and am shit scared and feel like the floor has just been torn out from under me. Please help.